For almost 3 yrs we have waited for "Elizabeth" to be cleared for adoption, and because of the emotional depth of the trial tomorrow, I am compelled to type out my feelings and thoughts to all of you.

I have found that the law of this land is seperate from life.  This is not the way God intended it to be..His laws give us life, they breed justice and freedom.  Protection and peace come from abiding in his law.  But all of this is foolishness to the world, it's laws are based on personal gain, guilt, and shame.  There is no redemption through this law, there is only revenge and endless river of hurt and pain.  What would once outrage a nation has now become a common place court hearing.  Children are no longer abandoned, abused, or neglected, they are simply another court document sitting on a desk, waiting for someone to file a petition on their behalf.  Where are these children?  They are in my home and many other homes, they are in institutions and group homes, they are in a dark place waiting for someone to give them a name, a face, a life.  Waiting to have a chance to be a child, to be loved, to be told you are mine and I am yours...we are a family.  These years of waiting sperates the child from her own life.  She learns that she has no control over the curcumstances that surround her.  He learns that no one is to be trusted, and he cannot trust himself.  She doesn't learn how to parent, how to love, how to bond, how to play or any of the things that other children seem to naturally learn.  He is lost in a sea of parental rights without any hope of life.  Her birth parents seek ownership that ensures a monthly check, while many couples waiting for a chance to love her,  lose hope of ever finding her.

We have dedicated our life to changing this terrible situation...one hardened heart at a time, we will take them into our home, hold them in our arms, wipe the many tears, calm the ever-present fears, work through the screaming fits, stand strong in the face of defience, embrace the broken soul, and love the unlovable. We will speak for them in court and fight for them through prayer. It is not a hard job in comparison to the struggles these children face, but it has it's days, and tomorrow is one of those days.  "Elizabeth's" life is hanging in the balance, waiting for a judge to put on his robe and with his authority proclaim her to be free.  I pray for the day that she is truely free.  Free from the past, free from the debt of her parents sin, free from the fear that binds her so, free to hope and love and live.  Will that day be tomorrow?  I don't know, but I do know that apart from God she will never know true freedom...for it is in Christ, not the law. 

Please pray for "Elizabeth" tomorrow, for God knows her name and he sees her tears.