Dear Lord,

I'm sorry about what I taught my kids today.  This morning when I woke up late, then woke them up late, then didn't pray and ask you how to make up for lost time, I taught them that time belongs to us instead of You.  And when I yelled at AJ for wanting to help with the baby, I taught them to be impatient, and that I have to be in control of everything.  I taught him that what he does to help isn't contributing anything, and that he is too little to really help at all.  I taught them how not to control their tempers.  As I scrambled around making copies too late, or trying to figure out what they should do for copywork, I taught them that life can be managed without planning and preparing.  And I taught them that their time is less valuable than mine. 

As I played on the computer this afternoon, instead of working on tasks You had given me, I taught them that it's OK to do as you please instead of pleasing YOU!  I taught them that while kids are accountable to grown-ups to get their list done, grown-ups can do whatever they want, and are accountable to no one.  When I let them get away with undone, or poorly done chores tonight, I taught them that when Mom's tired, they din't really have to do what she says, and I taught them that their less-than-best-effort is acceptable.  And as I rushed around trying to do too much, while again letting them do too little I taught them to be served instead of to serve, and to count on someone else to do what you can do for yourself.

As I think about it, I'm afraid there are lots of other things I taught them today, things that I'd really rather not mention.  So Lord, I'm still not sure why You are letting me do this whole homeschooling thing.  It seems some days like I am doing a pretty bad job at it.  But I'm really grateful that You see the value in homeschooling me.  And hopefully, as I learn the things You are trying to teach me, the kids will learn from You too.

Love, Lisa