Jan. 31, 2009 - Last day of freedom
Well here it is, my last day of freedom before February Madness begins. And I am still flip-flopping between dreadful of it, and apprehensive.
Sometimes I hate my story and don't ever want to write it again. I think of how badly the main girl, and even Callan a bit, have been behaving, and I just want to pitch it out the window and start a new story. But I can't. Firstly because if I don't finish it eventually Heather won't publish Despair and Hope. Secondly because if I don't finish it in February Maddock won't speak to me for all of March. And thirdly because Callan deserves to be known. I love him, and really, he isn't that bad!
But there are times that I begin to look forward to writing TCN. I start to think of how this time it will not be like the last times of writing it. I learned a lot in November, and I am not going to try to squeeze my characters into a mold that they don't fit in, just for the sake of a plot, like I did before. I think that if I let them have their own way, and just tag along that they should lead me to finish this book, and finish it well.
Like a child stuck in a burring house, unable to see for the smoke, clinging to her dog. The child can't see anything, and doesn't know where her dog is taking her. She's terrified, but she doesn't let go, and the dog, who knew all along how to get out, leads her to safety, to the clean air outside. That is what I am hoping will happen here.
So basically I have no idea what shall happen in this book. I have the ultimate ending planned out, and I am going to use it. (I will sink to a bit of squeezing here. This ending must be used! It is too cool!) But I don't know how this book will happen. Callan has decided that he wants to be GOOD, but I might have one book where he gets to know Jarldis first, and then the GOOD book will come after. I know, shocking. I'm just trying to find out what Callan and, more particularly, Jarldis, want. And I am getting tired of worrying about how the romance is progressing. It would be so reliving to write a book where I don't have to worry about that. But we'll see. It's Callan, Jarldis and the other characters who are deciding what is to happen. I just write what they tell me. :D
~ Katie
Comments
Jan. 31, 2009 - Untitled Comment
Posted by QueenFlora
I do really truly hope it all works out in February for you. I know what it is like to completely dump a book, that's what happened with FAD. But then again, this book may take a turn, and head into a completely different, but better direction then it is heading now. You can never know what will happen when you cram 30,000 words into one short month, things happen. It's almost like magic. Remember your magical powers in November? Keep courage now, my dear authoress!
I fare ye well!
~Mooly
Feb. 7, 2009 - Untitled Comment
Posted by Daethia
May I just say that I really, really, really want to read your book? It sounds really interesting, the way you talk about it, and your passion for it just draws me in...
As for hating the story sometimes, oh I know that feeling. I'm on chapter 3 (plus prologue) and have been stuck for a while (today was the breakthrough day!!!!) and earlier today I just hated a lot about my story! It's already been used, I'm thinking. The characters are not as unique as I thought they were. Girl falling into a new world? Get a grip, already been used!
Still, I'm not chucking it. I /will/ finish it, because I know that when I do I will be happy with what happened, and glad I didn't trash it.
I liked that girl/dog analogy. Nice. :)
God Bless!
~Anna
