Apr. 1, 2008 - Security
I found myself living in two week increments...paycheck to paycheck. What happened in our lives was determined by how much would be left over after paying the bills. Sometimes there was enough to go out to eat. Sometimes a trip to the museum. Many times there was enough for a new book or two, some cool curriculum or teaching aides, or a DVD the kids wanted. My husband was never happy. Truthfully, I just plugged away not knowing any better. I prayed for my husband...things like, God, please give him strength. Please comfort him and keep him in your will. Bring him no harm...
Then, Friday (last), he came home at noon. He lost his job. Company restructuring. It wasn't a big surprise that it happened but we weren't prepared. We took the news as a blessing. He wasn't happy there anyway and the job really seemed to take up a lot of his time and energy leaving him with very little for us. Saturday we celebrated our anniversary (belated) and went out to the woods and for the first time in a long time, we felt liberated. We no longer had to depend on a job!!!!
Yesterday I was balancing the checkbook and realizing the money wasn't going to last long. Instinctually, I looked ahead to the next payday and realized there is only one more. After that, there are no more paydays that we know of. No more paydays. Wow. Now we rely on God.
It is amazing how easily I will depend on money or a job but how hard it is to rely on God when there is money and a job. Now there is only God.
Comments
Apr. 2, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by sixfolks
Praying for wisdom, guidance, provision and peace.
Corey
Apr. 3, 2008 - Praying for you
Posted by kcmyworld
We've been in a similar place before, and yes, I am one to trust in my own ability to generate income. It's definitely an exercise in faith-building. I'll keep you and your family in prayer
Robin
Apr. 7, 2008 - A place we visited before
Posted by HSstorymomma
This past December started a season of faith. My husband is self employed. We started living from day to day. He would go to bed one night with no idea if he had work the next day or not. Some days he worked, worked half a day, somedays no work at all. But God was Faithful, no late payments, no hungry bellies. The biggest surprise was how busy He kept us so we wouldn't dwell. That takes money you say. I don't know how God did it. I just know that He did. Praying God steadfastness for you.
