May. 1, 2008 - Married with God
Several years ago my husband and I separated. Our marriage had gotten to the point where I would rather leave than have to argue with him about anything one more time. I didn't like the person I was becoming having to guard myself all of the time. I was hard and often emotionless. What I believed didn't matter (at the time I wasn't a Christian but I did believe marriage was a one time thing.) The day after a huge, violent fight with my husband I went to see a lawyer and began the process of filing for a divorce.
Six months after our separation the Lord brought us back together. To this day I can't explain this other than it was divine intervention. My husband had been witnessed to at work and the doors were open to his salvation. (Remember yesterday I talked about rejection? Guess what I did when my husband told me about his new faith!) I thought he was nuts and was very angry with him for taking our children to church. I believed that was something we should both decide. I was so angry with him! My anger and sin began to rule my life and before long I blew up at my boss at work and quit my job on the spot. (He would have fired me if I didn't quit.) It didn't take long before I realized what I had done...here I was living on my own trying to support three kids and put my job in jeopardy without even thinking twice and then quit. I didn't know what to do so I called my husband.
DH immediately asked if I would give him another chance. I was so reluctant but I just didn't know what else to do or where else to go. My husband told me he knew he had been wrong and he had been praying for a chance to make it up to me. He said he had almost lost hope. A few days later he moved in to my apartment and agreed to sleep on the couch until I trusted him again. He stopped drinking and smoking and using drugs and was responsible. He went to work everyday and he came home to us every night. He committed himself to me and the kids and before long I trusted him. But I still thought he was nuts with the whole Christian thing. Then, about a month later my eyes were opened and I was saved.
Both my husband and I wanted to get re-married as a symbol of our acceptance of the Lord as the head of our marriage. We wanted to walk with the Lord in our marriage every day and never experience that awful time we had again. But we didn't. Instead we focused on building our finances and staying debt free and going back to school and raising our family and homeschooling. While all of that sounds like good stuff...it was our focus. Not God.
A month ago DH lost his job. We have been without income all along. God has held us the whole time. He has been faithful and he has provided a new opportunity. Even though we weren't faithful and committed to Him, He has shown us His love. My husband and I have recommitted ourselves to our joint walk with God. I have been getting up with him at 5:30 every morning, making his coffee and breakfast and we have taken time to pray together before he leaves. My husband has taken two steps back in his career and none of that stuff he focused on before has any meaning. And somehow with a giant loss of income, we're able to make ends meet right now. This recent event in our lives has proven once again how much God loves us and will always care for us. And this time we both want to show our thanks by not losing our focus. WE LOVE YOU, GOD!!!!
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May. 6, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by MountainMommy
My husband and I had a split too. I talk about it in a post on my blog dated Aug. 7, 2007.
We did decide to renew our vows, which we did in Nov. It was a wonderful ceremony and meant so much! I definitely think you guys should consider doing it someday, when the time is right for you and your family.
