Homeschool Fuel - Am I back?

Apr. 24, 2008 - Am I back?

Well???.......Maybe. I have been better all week about sleeping, eating at the table, cutting back on coffee, reading my book, not being so stressed all the time and keeping up with the housework.

I even got on the treadmill this morning before I took the girls to school! You would think I was dying right now, but I feel ALIVE!! I feel more energized than I have in months......really! As I started this morning I thought, Ah Jeepers.....This is gonna be terrible!! About 10 minutes in I was sweating and really digging in........ and SMILING!! yes, you heard right, smiling , jamming to the music, working my body! I felt great and I have been so happy all day. At around 3pm today, Matthew and I did some Yoga stretches in the living room, that was amazing. I felt so......zen. Yoga brings my body peace, I love the way it feels. I have felt so tired for so long. Caffiene fueled, strung out. Not today!

I think what happened was, I was so caught up in pleasing every one else that I forgot to please me. I didn't take any time for my needs. I know that a mother is about giving at all times, but what sort of mother was I? Tired, grumpy, house a wreck, life a wreck, not fueled to teach, depressed at times. I was so caught up in the drama of the girls that I let everything else go until it consumed me. I have let most of that go. It is not an easy thing by any stretch of the imagination. I can't say I have let it all go either, just most of it. I have been crawling around in my head over this week trying to figure it all out. That is the best I can come up with. I was so worried about taking care of everyone and every little thing that I forgot about myself. I need to do the things that make me.....me. Otherwise I am no good to anyone. It is self actualizing, truly, to take a look inward and see that things are not working in your life. To fix them is even better.....

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