May. 6, 2008 - A poem about a black bird...

You shouldn't frown because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

This is for my dear friend Jesse, who has never read The Raven by Edgar Allen Poe.  :) Read it! So that if you die soon, your soul may rest in peace. :)

(you cant honestly say that this is not a cool poem;) Edgar Allen Poe rocks my socks off!!!! <3 enjoy :)

Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered weak and weary, Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore, While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping, As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door. `'Tis some visitor,' I muttered, `tapping at my chamber door - Only this, and nothing more.' Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December, And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor. Eagerly I wished the morrow; - vainly I had sought to borrow From my books surcease of sorrow - sorrow for the lost Lenore - For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels named Lenore - Nameless here for evermore. And the silken sad uncertain rustling of each purple curtain Thrilled me - filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before; So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating `'Tis some visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door - Some late visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door; - This it is, and nothing more,' Presently my soul grew stronger; hesitating then no longer, `Sir,' said I, `or Madam, truly your forgiveness I implore; But the fact is I was napping, and so gently you came rapping, And so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door, That I scarce was sure I heard you' - here I opened wide the door; - Darkness there, and nothing more. Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering, fearing, Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before But the silence was unbroken, and the darkness gave no token, And the only word there spoken was the whispered word, `Lenore!' This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word, `Lenore!' Merely this and nothing more. Back into the chamber turning, all my soul within me burning, Soon again I heard a tapping somewhat louder than before. `Surely,' said I, `surely that is something at my window lattice; Let me see then, what thereat is, and this mystery explore - Let my heart be still a moment and this mystery explore; - 'Tis the wind and nothing more!' Open here I flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter, In there stepped a stately raven of the saintly days of yore. Not the least obeisance made he; not a minute stopped or stayed he; But, with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door - Perched upon a bust of Pallas just above my chamber door - Perched, and sat, and nothing more. Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling, By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore, `Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou,' I said, `art sure no craven. Ghastly grim and ancient raven wandering from the nightly shore - Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night's Plutonian shore!' Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.' Much I marvelled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly, Though its answer little meaning - little relevancy bore; For we cannot help agreeing that no living human being Ever yet was blessed with seeing bird above his chamber door - Bird or beast above the sculptured bust above his chamber door, With such name as `Nevermore.' But the raven, sitting lonely on the placid bust, spoke only, That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpour. Nothing further then he uttered - not a feather then he fluttered - Till I scarcely more than muttered `Other friends have flown before - On the morrow he will leave me, as my hopes have flown before.' Then the bird said, `Nevermore.' Startled at the stillness broken by reply so aptly spoken, `Doubtless,' said I, `what it utters is its only stock and store, Caught from some unhappy master whom unmerciful disaster Followed fast and followed faster till his songs one burden bore - Till the dirges of his hope that melancholy burden bore Of "Never-nevermore."' But the raven still beguiling all my sad soul into smiling, Straight I wheeled a cushioned seat in front of bird and bust and door; Then, upon the velvet sinking, I betook myself to linking Fancy unto fancy, thinking what this ominous bird of yore - What this grim, ungainly, ghastly, gaunt, and ominous bird of yore Meant in croaking `Nevermore.' This I sat engaged in guessing, but no syllable expressing To the fowl whose fiery eyes now burned into my bosom's core; This and more I sat divining, with my head at ease reclining On the cushion's velvet lining that the lamp-light gloated o'er, But whose velvet violet lining with the lamp-light gloating o'er, She shall press, ah, nevermore! Then, methought, the air grew denser, perfumed from an unseen censer Swung by Seraphim whose foot-falls tinkled on the tufted floor. `Wretch,' I cried, `thy God hath lent thee - by these angels he has sent thee Respite - respite and nepenthe from thy memories of Lenore! Quaff, oh quaff this kind nepenthe, and forget this lost Lenore!' Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.' `Prophet!' said I, `thing of evil! - prophet still, if bird or devil! - Whether tempter sent, or whether tempest tossed thee here ashore, Desolate yet all undaunted, on this desert land enchanted - On this home by horror haunted - tell me truly, I implore - Is there - is there balm in Gilead? - tell me - tell me, I implore!' Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.' `Prophet!' said I, `thing of evil! - prophet still, if bird or devil! By that Heaven that bends above us - by that God we both adore - Tell this soul with sorrow laden if, within the distant Aidenn, It shall clasp a sainted maiden whom the angels named Lenore - Clasp a rare and radiant maiden, whom the angels named Lenore?' Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.' `Be that word our sign of parting, bird or fiend!' I shrieked upstarting - `Get thee back into the tempest and the Night's Plutonian shore! Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul hath spoken! Leave my loneliness unbroken! - quit the bust above my door! Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!' Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.' And the raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door; And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon's that is dreaming, And the lamp-light o'er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor; And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor Shall be lifted - nevermore!

Feb. 12, 2008 - TAG!!!!!!!

Dance is my spirit, it is the song my heart sings and the poem my heart chants. Dance is freedom.

Life's What You Make It, So Lets Make It Rock! 5 random facts about myself: 1.  i read/ write for fun 2. when my insomnia becomes unbearable i do math to help me relax and fall asleep 3.  i love spring and hate the rest of the year with a passion 4. i feel extreamly out of place when im not depressed 5. i dream of traveling the world and being free....  5 weird things about myself: 1. i can pick up pinecones with me toes 2. i can snap better with my toes than with my fingers 3. i have a long torso 4. i have Michale W. Smith and Eminem on my ipod 5. my association with my purple pimpin froggy lover... ;)   5 things on my desk 1.my computer 2.homework 3. cords to God knows what 4. books 5. writing utencils   5 of your best friends: 1. Emy 2.  DANCE BUDDIES!!!!! (Lauren, Crystal, Katie, Amanda) 3. YOUTH GROUP HOMMIES (allyssa, emily, KT) 4. SCHOOL FRIENDS!!!! (Brandi, Randi, Andrea) 5. Shane, Kurt, Chase, Johnny Depp, and every-other-hot-nice-amazing-guy on the planet ;)   5 things you love to do: 1.  DANCE!!!!! 2.  WRITE!!!! (prose, poetry, esseys... random stuff EVERYTHING) 3.  read in my room with the lights out during a heavy rainstorm/ thundrerstorm 4.  walk in the woods in the spring and fall, basiccally anything in nature 5. be with my friends and having a great time laughing at nothing... or yet another of my wonderful blonde moments... 5 people you tagged: 1. gemstone 2. leopardlover 3. lionsglory 4. emodinosaur 5. Pheonixflames

Feb. 11, 2008 -

Hey my hommies!!! whats up with yalls????

im still grounded, but i get off next week, thank God.

My youth group is goin to brazil on a mission trip this summer and my parents finnaly said i could go!!!!

OMG i am soooooo excited! IM GOING TO BRAZIL!!!!! that is something i never would have imagined doing..... but it will be amazing. we're going to build a church, yes, with our own hands from the ground up.... should be interesting, since construction is not exactly y area of excpertise... but it will be fun. then we're going to do sport outreach, VBS, and visit the orphans and the villagers.  it will be the experience of a lifetime. its in June, and the trip will cost $2000 per person. Prayer is much appreciated.

Comment me ;)

Lots of Love

~Sam~

Feb. 11, 2008 - Frolic. Stop. Creep. Strike. poem

More poetry... comment me please :)

Frolic. Stop. Creep. Strike

Cross a river.

Throw a stone.

Frolicking in bliss alone.

Frolicking in bliss.

Cross a meadow.

Hear the wind

Stop to listen at each bend.

Stop to listen.

Climb a mountain.

Touch the sky.

Cannot creep, I must fly.

Cannot creep.

Clouds gather

Gloom descends.

Strike a match, darkness ends.

Strike a match.

Feb. 11, 2008 - Anger poem

Here is one of my poems. Comments please. :)

Anger

Hate.

Cold.

Love.

Hot.

In.

Trapped.

Out.

Not.

Lost.

Hope.

Found.

Illusion.

Mystery.

Fear.

Confusing.

Distortion.

Jan. 7, 2008 - Subject: survey

Body: SAY EXACTLY WHATS ON YOUR MIND, AND DON’T CHANGE IT

1. you & your ex:  dont have one

2. I am listening to :  dog bro my mind comuter

3. Maybe I should:  do my hair

4. I love:  dance

5. I don’t understand:  me

6. I have lost my respect for:  my life

8. The meaning of my display name is:  sm plus my middle name

, my other one is the way i feel all the time inside...

IS YOUR/ARE YOU

1. Is your hair wet?  no

3. Do you miss someone?  yes

4. Are you wearing Chap Stick? no

5. Are you tired? yea

6. Are you wearing pajamas?  not really

7. Are you mad? sure

HAVE YOU

 1. recently done something you regret? yea

2. Have you ever kicked someone? haha.. yeah

3. Ever tripped over your own feet?  me no never i would never do that... ok yeah i have...

TODAY HAVE YOU:

1. Have you cursed? yea

2. Have you gotten mad at someone? yea

RANDOM

Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now?

A:  ya

Q: Do you have any siblings?

A:  ya

Q: Do you want children?

A:  eventually

Q: Do you smile often

A:  in public

Q. Do you smell your shoes every time you take them off?

A:  no

Q: Do you like your handwriting?

A:  no

Q: Are your toenails painted?

A:  yea

Q: whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in?

A:  idk

Q: what color shirt are you wearing right now?

A:  black

Q: What were you doing at 7pm yesterday?

A:  like i can remember that far back...

Q: I can’t wait till:

A:  i graduate

Q: When did you cry last?

A: years ago

Q: Are you a friendly person?

A:  idk when i feel like it i guess

Q: Whose bed did you sleep in 2 nights ago?

A:  mine probably

Q: Do you have any pets?

A:  yea

Q: Do you think that someone will repost this?

Jan. 7, 2008 - Tagg!!!

1. What was the highlight of your life?: The moment of performance when the adrenaline rush kicks in and you can conquer the world and dance forever...

2. Who's truck were you in last?: Shane's...

3. When is the next time you will kiss someone?: if your talking about non-relatives it's not likely to be soon...

4. What color are you wearing?: black, blue ...

6. Who do you have a crush on?: Shane... and a few other people... ;)

5. How long is your hair?: couple inches past my shoulders...

Dec. 24, 2007 - Are you paying attention???

Think about what you are reading because it is the truth.

Why do we ((sleep)) through [[church]],

But stay ((awake)) through a [[2 hr movie]]?

Why is it so ((hard)) to talk about [[God]],

but so ((easy)) to [[Gossip]]?

Why are we so ((bored)) when we look at [[Christian magazines]],

but find it ((easy)) to read [[Playboy]]?

Why is it so easy to ((ignore)) a [[Godly]] Facebook Wall Post,

Yet we ((repost)) the [[nasty]] ones?

Why are ((churches)) getting [[smaller]],

but ((bars and clubs)) are [[growing]]?

Think about it, are you going to repost this?

Are you going to ignore it, cause you think you'll get laughed at?

Would you have opened this if it said... Read This In Gods Name.

80% of you wont repost this.

Jesus Christ said:

"If you deny me in front of your friends i will deny you in front of my father."

Next time you want to deny Christ, think about Him denying you.

You might change your mind.

And don't think that by being quiet, you aren't denying Him.  By not saying anything, you are not associating yourself with Christ, who, by the way, just you know DIED FOR YOU. i don't know if that means anything to you but if i died for someone i'd want it to mean something to them.   

Remember the 'Christ' in Christmas. and have a very merry day tomorrow.

Dec. 24, 2007 - quotes...

'Tears are the safety valve of the heart when too much pressure is laid on it.' Albert Smith

'You can play w/ a gun, you can mess w/ a knife, but mess w/ my friends and you're messin w/ your life.'  Brandi Wayland aka my friend, Edited by me

God does not call the equipped, he equips the called.

'One can never concent to creep when one feels the impulse to soar.' Helen Keller

"Sir, you are drunk,"  "Ma'am, you are ugly, but tomorrow i will be sober." i forgot who said that, i think it was Winston Churchil

i sware to drunk officer i'm not God!

No one will ever see things the way i do, no one will ever try.

By reading this you have given me temporary control of your mind...

"The most dangerous thing in the world, much more deadly than a bullet, grenade, bomb or knife could ever be is a man with nothing to live for.  A man with nothing holding him back, a man with no fear of death, a man who thinks his only point in existance is to kill, he is a man without a family or friends, without love, and he is by far the most lethal thing on the face of the planet.  He has no reason to die, but in his mind he has even less of a reason to live, he knows that the only thing that can stop him is death and he doesn't care.  The only thing he is is a good soldier." -Judge Fletcher

i will add more when i remember them...

Dec. 23, 2007 - yeah...

FINALLY!! it's christmas break!!! NO SCHOOL!! yeah. so it's break now. im not  doin' much...sittin' typin' breathin' u kno the usual. and yeah.  i can't wait until im 18 and i just figured out  that after this christmas i only have 2 more before im 18. i is bery ecited:)!!! yeah im board and tired and lonley... humph.  my friends and i had fun this weekend. we were SO random they should make it a national holiday. we relized that we were being random and so we made a game where we were random on purpose but not really random it had to make sence..... somehow. :) and if u havn't seen the SIMS version of Avril Lavegne Girlfriend video, u r missing out on 1 of the biggest laughs ever. OMG! lol! hav fun.

Dec. 19, 2007 - ???

so i effing give up. ok.  i can't do any more. i don't know exactly what i can't do, but i can't do it.  Maybe it's life.  I'm sick of living... that's a possibility, but then, i always blame the unknown on life.  i always say i'm better off dead.  so i am probably avoiding the problem... again.  lets see... i like several people. like serious LIKE like.  gemstone and leopardlover u know who i mean :) so that is all good.  i have quit all of my addictions, with some help. occasionally i will go back to them but they won't own me anymore... so that's good to.  Well, this time i'm gonna say it's a satanic attack mixed with exahstion... a lot of exahstion.

LoL

Dec. 18, 2007 - :)

So i said i would let u know how the Nutcraker went.... so here i go.  Dress rehersal was a disaster as is excpected, but the performance went very well!  i was very happy that they got my solo music right... they were really late on dress rehersal.  The music skipped in my solo and in this other girls solo... but it was okay.  One particular moment of performace stands out for me.  During my last dance, Waltz of the flowers, i looked up into the stage lights.  I felt myself letting go.  my spirit was dancing, my heart was laughing with joy, my soul was reveling in the moment.  It was exhilarating.  The best feeling in the world.  I can smile for hours on end if i'm onstage.  i can honestly be myself, by becoming someone else... it sounds weird but for those of u in the performing world u know what i 'm talking about.  The amazing sence of acomplishment when u have succesfully portrayed a character to the best of your ability and had fun in the process.  :)  Telling me to let go is like telling a horse to fly... it is possible... but only if someone gives u wings.  The stage is that someone for me.  Who is it that gives u your wings????

LoL 2 my hommies :)

Dec. 14, 2007 - Awsome literature

If you're looking for some amazing short stories by some amazing authors i know what you need.  Thes two selections are a must read.  Where ar you going, Where have you been by Joyce Carol Oates.  This story i do NOT recomend for new or young readers.  If you are sensitive to naturalist and realistic hashness you probably wont enjoy this as much as i did.  After you read it get with someone else and discuse it.  My creative writing class spent over an hour talking about this story and analyzing it.  There is so much you can think about with this story.  It is amazing.

The other is called The Yellow Wallpaper by Charlotte Perkins Gilman.  This story is as good as Where are you going where have you been.  They have similarities and differences and are both fantastic peices of literature.  I recomend both of them strongly but make sure you prepare yourself!  These stories will get to ya!

LoL

Dec. 14, 2007 - Nutcracker

Dec. 10, 2007 - Dance is...