I'm still reeling from yesterday's news.  And I even look more like this sometimes.  I've had a few moments of this too.  But most of all I'm like this right now.

   Dh has been wonderful these past few days.  He had all four kids for me all day Saturday while I went on a 'Food safety and hygeine' course for my childminding. Then Monday night he had them all again as well as Jack and Jill who were here overnight while I went with a friend to a homeschool Mom's get together in Sheffield. It was a nice night and lovely to meet some new friends.

   Then Tuesday morning while I was running Toddler Group Dh snuck into my car and left me five long stem pink roses - just because!  Finally, when I got the news of Nancy yesterday he was so sweet and rang me three times yesterday just to see if I was OK and he came home early in the evening to just be here and help with tea! He is really amazing to me and I appreciate him soooo much! I just had to brag on him! LOL!

   We have had our share of chaos this month. (yes, more than usual!) Last Tuesday afternoon I got a phone call from our tenant to say that our house was on fire! (not the one we live in. The one we moved out of in Oct and still own and rent out!)

   Dh went around quickly to be with her and stood there for two hours watching our neighbors house burn completely down and take ours half down with it!

   So it has been a flurry of insurance adjustors, builders, surveyors, tenants, and tears! In short we have excellent insurance and financially we will be fine and everything will be rebuilt and made new and sparkly.

   Emotionally it has been so hard to walk through the home we lived in for over 8 years and see it destroyed! So many memories flooding back. So many things destroyed. You know. Those marks on the wall, curtains lovingly hand made, wall paper borders carried back from America in suitcases. Silly little things really, but it got to me a bit.

   Of course no one was hurt and things can be replaced so in light of yesterday's news all of this really doesn't mean a thing. At the same time, yesterday's news made the destruction to our house even harder as Nancy spent time with me in that house and there are memories of her there too! She longed to come and see this new home and only saw pictures of it.

   We also have the big meeting on Monday afternoon for Giggles and wiggles. There is one of these every three months with all the professionals involved with their care to report and make decisions. The two big issues this time are where Giggles will go to school in the fall and whether they will continue looking for an adoptive home or give up and put them in permenant foster care.

   Both issues we feel strongly about! (That is putting it mildly!) We have met with many others over the past few weeks who will be in the meeting and they all feel she should move to the local school. So at least we know we are going into Monday with support on the school issue. Please pray that we are allowed to move her as the school she is in at the moment is simply AWFUL!

   The adoption issue seems to be getting sorted as well, since others also feel it is too soon to give up on it. So we pray that they will give it some more time. The new photo we had taken of them is beautiful and everyone is sure it will help some. As well as the fact that they are making progress in other areas and things may improve more over the coming months making them more appealing to adopters. We believe that God is able and that He has a plan for these children. We are fighting for what is best for them.

   On a positive note in all this sadness we have had some news on the little girl we fostered shortly last summer 'Little Miss' and hope to one day adopt! I was forbidden to contact the foster mum any more and have had no news for months. Then there was a foster carers meeting two weeks ago. I got there late and slipped in at the back and a social worker pulled out a chair for me. When I turned to see who was next to me it was her foster mum!!!!

   After the meeting we had a long chat outside. The children are currently being assessed by the 'professionals' to determine if they are better placed for adoption on their own or together. So we are able to be praying about that outcome right now as it is being decided! God's timing is always perfect!!!

   Also their foster mum has mentioned us at all the three monthly reveiws so our names and our interest in her are now a part of the court records that are given to the judge before they make the decision!!! God has gone before in that since the social worker wouldn't mention us. I said goodbye that night asking her to give Little Miss a big hug for me (but to not tell her who it was from as I don't want to cause her any upset). It was just so wonderful to get news! We continue to pray that the Lord will allow her to one day be part of our family.

   Well, I better get going. There is so much that is happening at the moment that I'd be here all day trying to keep you all up to date. But I will try to throw you all some tidbits now and then when I can.  It is Giggles last day of school for the year today so we will try and do something special to celebrate and she will be joining us in the school room over the summer. She is looking forward to being 'homeschooled' over the summer and we hope we can help her catch up a bit before starting at the (hopefully) new school in the autumn.

   Thanks for praying with us. I miss all my friends when I'm not blogging regularly! Life has to come down sometime, doesn't it? (Don't answer that!)