Jul. 11, 2008
Trying To Keep Busy
Hello Once Again,
Where do I begin? What do I write? No matter what I write, it’ll be the same thing over and over again. How lonesome I am for Elgin, How much my heart hurts, How much I miss him, Today is now 2 months that Elgin was killed. Every morning I get out of bed and I ask God, “How will I make it through this day without Elgin?” And He tells me that, “Through Him All Things Are Possible” I know that He not only walks beside me, He picks me up in His arms and carries me through out the day. Yesterday and today were some real “sad” days for me. I just felt “sad”. We didn’t even go to church last night cause, I just didn’t want to be around anybody. I know that doesn’t make any sense, but that’s how I felt. Normally, my girls and I would not miss church, but we did Wed. night.
We’ve been keeping ourselves busy in the garden. It seems as though everything wants to be harvested at the same time. We’ve sold green beans, lima beans, tomatoes, cucumbers, squash and bell peppers. The Lord has really blessed my girls and me with our garden. Almost everyone that has bought produce from us has paid us more than we’ve asked for it. We’ve actually repeated our “asking” price back to them and they’ll tell us, “That’s okay”, I want ya’ll to keep the extra. God has been go good to my girls and I.
My girls and I invited our next door neighbor over for supper last night. Mrs. Claress is also a widow and has become my girls adopted grandmaw. We always have a wonderful time when we get together with her. She will be coming with us on Monday, for Sarah’s Violin Concert that she will be in. We’ll have to travel over an hour to Columbia, Tennessee for her concert.
Our dear friends, (the Websters) invited my girls and I over for supper last Tuesday. It was wonderful spending the evening with their family. It was one of their older boy’s birthday and we really enjoyed ourselves.
Then last Sunday, a sweet couple from our church invited my girls and I out for lunch after church. We went to a bar-b-q place. It was our first time out to this place. The food was good and the fellowship was great. Thank God for Christian Fellowship.
Last Friday, we had some bad weather and some strong winds blew through, which broke two large limbs in a tree at my backdoor. The limbs fell on my roof and were scratching back and forth across the shingles. So, one of my neighbors and his son came over and cut the limbs down and hauled them away. At the same time a young man from our neighborhood came over and gave me a couple of hours of “help”. He restrung my clothes line, passed the weed eater; put latches on a couple of my windows, and helped Jordan and Sarah hammer in some tomato stakes. The whole time that he was here helping me, I had to hold back this huge lump in my throat that kept trying to choke me. He was doing all of the things that Elgin was suppose to do for me when he came home. I felt so helpless. Then when the mail passed, there was an envelope from the funeral home, with two obituary cards with Elgin’s picture on them. Well, that was it, the dam busted. I had to run inside so I didn’t make a fool out of myself in front of this young man.
This Thursday will be Sarah’s 18th birthday. It’ll be one of the “first” that we’ll have to go through. Elgin ALWAYS came home for their birthdays, and this will be her first birthday without her Daddy. Some dear friends of ours are coming to our home and spend the week with us to help celebrate Sarah’s birthday. Heather and her Mom, Linda are coming all the way from Laramie, Wyoming. How blessed we are to have such good friends. We can’t wait.
I think that’s all that’s been going on around here. Not much to talk about unless I start repeating myself.
Ladies go and hug your husband, give him a big kiss and tell him how much you love him. You won’t be sorry if anything happens. Love to you and yours,
Josephine
Comments
Jul. 11, 2008 - HUGS!
Posted by SuperAngel
I just want you to know I have been thinking about you and I hope today isn't too painful for you!
I know it may seem like this valley is too long to walk through, but just let Jesus carry you through it!
I wish we could be there to give you comfort and hugs today!
Thank God for all the friends and help you have had! He is watching out for you and will provide and care for you!
Love you Mrs. L!
Amanda
http://superangelsblog.com
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Jul. 11, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by mommyto7
I just wanted to leave you a quick note and say thank you for your sweet comments you left on my blog. I am so amazed at how you can be so encouraging through your own terrible pain. Your comments have meant so much to me...I feel like we are sharing alot of the same feelings...I am grieving also for my husband...I feel his loss so deeply...and I do pray for your family also. Beacuse HE lives...that is what is keeping me going, ~Holly
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Jul. 11, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by Lilangels
I can't say that I do know exactly how you are feeling as I lost a mother not a husband. But I do understand a little of it. It really does take time to deal with these feelings and I still have trouble after 3 years. I so wish we would have "met" under different circumstances, but I'm also so glad that we did "meet". You are a wonderful child of God and He loves you dearly. We are still praying for you!!
Hugs,
Debby
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Jul. 11, 2008 - hey
Posted by LivingfortheKing
Hey wanted to let you know that I was thinking of you all day today. It doesn't feel like it has been 2 months already. Some days it seems like forever. We just have to take it one day at a time. Pokey still has not slept in his bed since the accident. We will get through this. We are strong. Love you and the girls. The days that are hard we need to remember exactly where dad is. He is with Jesus. As much as we would love for him to come home he is with his Heavenly Father and one day we will be able to be reunited with him.
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Jul. 11, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by OldSchoolMarm
Josephine, just wanted you to know I'm thinking about you and praying for you and your daughters. He is bringing you through this. I can't help but think about that poem Footprints in the Sand when thinking about you. You're in my prayers, Julie
BTW, reading about your garden made me smile, I do love a garden.
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Jul. 11, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by homeschoolnomad
Josephine,
Thanks for the reminder to treasure what we take for granted. I continue to pray for you and your family as you walk through these days.
grace and peace
Jenny
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Jul. 12, 2008 - Thanks
Posted by Lisa
I just want to say thank-you for putting things in priority for me and mine.
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Jul. 12, 2008 - Thoughts and prayers
Posted by JacqueDixonSoulRestES
I have been thinking of you today (well, Friday), and especially now at this early am hour.
You are in my prayers right now sister. I love you and yours, and I am praising the Lord for providing for you all!! What a blessing to hear of God's people fulfilling the commands to care for the widows and fatherless. I know that is not what any of us want, but, OH!! How blessed you all are! Surely these are Elgin's prayers answered that you are right where the Love of God can reach out through His people and care for his family while you are away from him.
I am weeping with you, my dear friend, and I am thankful and praising God right along with you too!
I pray for your strength and the peace only Jesus can give to you this week.
We will be thinking of you all on Sarah's birthday! But you all already know that!
LOVE you and BIG HUGS from me and all the Dixons!
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Jul. 13, 2008 - Thanks for Caring
Posted by Anonymous
Josephine,
I am amazed that with all you are going through that you made time to call me at the hospital where my husband is getting a stem cell transplant. You were such an encouragement to me. By doing this, you are doing exactly what God would want you to. I enjoyed sharing with you what God has done for us and was amazed how our stories were similiar. God is so good even in our sorrow. By the way, our Janelle's birthday is July 17th also. She will be 14.
Love ya,
Glenda
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Jul. 13, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by Lachney1
Hey Josephine,
I sure wish that you lived closer to me. I would love to have some vegetables from your garden. We have some fruit trees, but the sun is almost killing them. I picked figs yesterday evening and gave them to my mom. I have no idea what to do with them. LOL!!! We have a couple of green apples that have brown spots on them. We do have pears, but they are all falling off the tree. All of our plums got worms, so we didn't get any of them. We have two plum trees. I did pick some blueberries at my neighbor's house. I'm going to make some muffins with those. YUM!
I think it's great that your friends are coming to stay with you to celebrate a birthday. Turning 18 is a special birthday and I hope she has a great day.
I'm still praying. Blessings!
Penny
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Jul. 14, 2008 - Josephine
Posted by indygirl
Praying for you and the girls...Hope ya have a blessed day today and enjoy the concert tonight...I can hardly wait to see the pictures ..By the way, I have posted some picutes of Mama and the great granbabies, come by and check them out...Did ya get the apron links I emailed to ya? I do hope ya liked the apron I made just for you....
Miss ya tons,
Love you,
Cathy...
Edited by indygirl on Jul. 14, 2008 at 6:36 AM
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Jul. 15, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by cahanbury
Hey. I was just thinking about you. I am still praying for you all. Take care and enjoy your out of town visitors!
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Jul. 19, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by Anonymous
Miss Josephine,
Please know I am praying for you and your family. I just found your blog and have read of your loss. My son is a flatbed trucker and there is a bond with them...a connection. I know that words can not change what your heart is feeling, but know there are many unknown people who are lifting your heart to your Heavenly Father in prayer. I am one of those.
Bren
http://piecesfromme.blogspot.com
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