Lord, you’ve heard me lately. I’ve sounded very selfish. Very foolish. Where did these thoughts of self come from? I know they are there…but I thought I’d overcome them…

Time for me.                                      

Can’t you help out!           

Can’t you do it yourself?

Why, do we have to do that, go there, respond that way….?!

If I have to do this one more time…

Can’t you see I’m busy?

I only have two hands…

Whine, complain, grumble…not always aloud…but God hears…

Me, me, me, me…

I thought I’d overcome these selfish feelings…I was doing so well…so at peace…yet suddenly here they are…surprising even to me…rearing their ugly heads…dragging me down…stealing my joy, robbing me of peace…causing my husband to look at me like I’ve grown another head.

A few words were said to me recently, innocent words, common words, typical words, words that so many women say to one another…but evil…because they are a lie and they burrowed down into my soul and caused my selfish self to rear up…“You, need to boss him around a little. Tell him to help you. He needs to help you with those children.”  This from a godly, sweet, christian woman. Words that are, oh so innocent, right? Evil. They go against all I believe. Yet, they affected me…

Lord, forgive…

I don’t believe the mantra. The one the world whispers…shouts really…self, me, self.  I believe it robs us of our ability to pray, to love our spouses, to have a happy marriage, to have happy children…to be happy. It is why so many marriages are failing. Self. Me. Self.

Serve…

I don’t believe that God ever said, “Take time off girl, you deserve it!” And I know He never said, “You need to boss him around a little.” No, He said, serve. Give. Serve some more. Be a help-meet. Sacrifice. Love beyond all ability to love. And when you are tired, when you are weary, when you are spent and there is no more to give…give MORE…and turn

to Me…

and I will strengthen you

and give you rest…

so you can

give even more.

God says…I gave…that you might have…and you grumble…about what?!

Lord, forgive.

“A wise woman never expects anyone to serve her, and is therefore never disappointed.  She is ready to help, always the giver.  By her example, her children learn to cheerfully and energetically serve.”       -Debbie Pearl

blessings,

dani

“And the Lord God said, it is not good that a man should be alone; I will make a help-meet for him…” (Genesis 2:18,22)