I have finally realized something that everyone else who knows my family, especially my husband, has probably seen for years and maybe even tried to tell me in one way or another. My youngest son has severe ADHD. Dealing with him has been one of the major struggles in my life.

What I am finally realizing, is that he has been using tantrums and screaming fits to bully me for years now. I told myself that I didn't make excuses for his ADHD, but in reality I was letting him use it against me. I feel like an area of my life that I have been blind to has suddenly been illuminated. I am asking God to continue to reveal to me when J is using this tactic against me.

While he does have issues with being able to focus on the task at hand and is extremly impulsive, that does not give him excuse to disobey or to refuse do what he is told. I have always known that he has a rebellious streak. However, I always believed that this rebellion was connected somehow to his disorder.

Now I am seeing that it is indeed part of his disorder, but not the ADHD! It is part of his human disorder which we all have as a result of the fall! It is a manipulation tactic that he has been using with great success up till now to bully me. Praise God for showing this to me!

I feel certain that this new insight is directly connected to my willingness to obey the Lord in getting up earlier to spend time with Him. If you are unsure of what I am referring to please read my earlier post about "A very convicting message". Because I myself was not being obedient to the Lord, He was unable until now, to reveal this truth to my heart. I am so thankful that I finally submitted in this even though it takes a painful "dieing to self". I look forward to what other truths God is going to reveal to me as I continue to submit to Him and His ways.

Please pray for J and me as we adjust to the new hierarchy of mommy truely being in control! I am already beginning to see a child who is less aggitated and seems more relaxed and happy. Even more, I am seeing a mommy who is less stressed and less likely to raise my voice in anger. Praise God!!!!!