I'm a do it youself kind of mom.   I like to do it by myself and I like my kids to do it by themselves.  Let me clean the kitchen by myself- I'll get it done quicker and cleaner then if a child helps me.  Besides, I can have a few minutes to think a few complete thoughts without getting interrupted.  Don't get me wrong- I enjoy my kids, but I enjoy a clean house also and I enjoy time by myself.

I've been basically in bed for a month with headaches.  The doctors can't figure it out.  I went for a CT scan on Friday and haven't heard the results yet.  I am very nervous about what the scan showed.  I'm afraid everytime the phone rings that it is the doctor with bad news.  Anyway, I've been on my back for a few weeks and my kids have had to do it by themselves.

And it's not been pretty. They do as little as possible to get by.  My house is very messy and dirty and I can't do a thing about it.  Have you ever tried to train a child while lying on the couch?  It's not very effective.  So, as I watch them clean the kitchen after dinner, I'm realizing how wrong I was and am.  It's disheartening to realize how little I've taught them over the years.   I am truly reaping what I've sown.

I'm begging God for another chance.  I'm asking Him to take these headaches away and let me get back to the business of being a mother and a wife, and this time do it differently.  Please pray for me. 

Thanks,

Elizabeth

PS- Has anyone ever heard of the Hallelujah Diet?