It's been one year since I found out that I would be traveling down a different road than I expected I'd be going down. A year ago I fancy I was more like a deer caught in the headlights of an oncoming 18-wheeler. I was frozen to stillness with the  news of this abrupt change to my life, both in the immediate and long-term future.

Right away, I was led into the throne room of the Father and I knew that, no matter what, His love for me hadn't changed on llittle bit. And, I saw how much He loved and loves, my husband and my children; more than what I am capable of giving. I was reminded that God was not surprised by this turn of events. He wasn't caught in the headlights. I was still in the center of His will and He still had a purpose and a plan for my life.

I was told to get a wheelchair, to make a living will and to put my kids in school. I was given eight months to a year to enjoy the company of my family and friends and then I the tumor would stop my life. It's been a year and God has been merciful and mighty in my life. All that has happened, and not happened, has been because of His love and power in my life. He could easily have let the medical expectation become a reality. He didn't and I praise Him because of it.

My life has been changed. My perspective has changed. I always thought I had an eternal perspective but I think I may have been a little off the mark. I may still not be right on target with that mindset but I know I am facing in the right direction. I pray that He would make me more like Him, to see through His eyes, to make decisions that express His will.

I can't help but praise Him. He is with me all day, during the times I am aggravated with my limitations and that makes me a not very nice person to my husband and my children. He pokes me in the ribs when I start to think I am useless because of these limitations. He reminds me how much He loves me and that I will be with Him one day, forever.

So, thank you, Lord, for this past year. I couldn't have gotten through to this day without your mercy and your grace.

Joyfully,

Elyse