Mar. 2, 2009 - PLEASE READ ! especialy if u hav read my past 3 new entrys
ok so every one who reads my blogs probly thinks im a total downer and my life sux. but the truth is im happy alot of the time. just i only use this blog when im really sad or mad and im thinking of the downside of everything. i think the store my moms opening is going 2 be SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FUN i cant wait till it opens. i loooove my cuzins soooo much. and i dont really mind that my auunt fauns over them. they r her grandkids after all. and i dont mind that my grandparents arent coming 2 my house. i just feel sad for my aunts kids anyway i really wanted 2 let u know
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Feb. 27, 2009 - love and anger
okay so um... well my grandparents are coming in from florida fora a week but i only get 2 c them for a day. i havent seen them in a year.... well okay i should start by saying that i hav this almost aunt. she is like my moms sister and her parents r messed up and my grandparents r like her parents. she has cancer and her husbands a acter and they have enough money 2 treat her very well. but now they say its gotten so bad they cant do anything about it. i feel sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bad for her kids (2 8 year olds and a 5 year old i think ) but anyway they dont live that far from where i live and my grandperents 2 staying with them while they r here. i really eant my grandperents 2 stay with my aunt... but i want 2 c them 2. i feel so stressed and latly i feel like my family has never payed much aatention 2 me. im invisable. all the time i here my grandperents calling and they r with one of my aunts. and she calls and talks 2 me for a a few seconds then talks 2 mom for an hour. i just want more family but on the bright side im very happy about the store my moms opening up. it sounds like its going 2 be really fun ! ~love emma
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Feb. 9, 2009 - dealing with every thing is so over welming ( continuing new beginigns )
my family relations ship even though we all love each other is diferent. on my moms side my grandparents live in florida, 2 of my cuzins live in california, and my other cuzin lives in tenisee, and on my dads side my grandma was never like a real grandma. she never showd much afection or love even though i now she dose, she doesnt let me in her house and wont let me even touch her purse ! i never was that close to my uncle. the real problems im having is with my aunt. who i love sooooo much, hse was probly the most family person i spent time with other then on my moms side, it all started about 4 years ago, it seemed my family was falling apart, my cuzin who i spent time with the most went to college, at this time i didnt hav many friends and when she lef ti felt alone, then for a while i spent time with my other cuzin david, you should also know im the youngest cuzin in my family and the second youngest was about 16 at this time. anyway david spent time with me a little but he never payd much atention to me...and then he drifeted even more and i felt totaly alone. then the the big changes happend. my oldest cuzin lindsay was pregnent ! i was soooooooooo happy. my little baby girl cuzin was so cute and was followd by a baby boy from that same cuzin. dont get me wrong i love them as much as my heart can posibly love them. but... they took away my aunt. now that se had grandchildren i didnt seem important. when we went shopping she wouldnt leave a store without something for them,the final blow that made me so depressed was when she totaly forgot my 11th b-day. then a month later her and my grandma came over for my dads b-day and were raving about how they could never forget and they had to come over and celebrate. before they came over i cryd i had just braly stoped when they got here. my mom and dad didnt know why i was sad either. now my cuzin david was and still is in college. my cuzin margaret graduated and was a nurse in bosten my other aunt the mother of my little cuzins was in bosten to and my cuzin luke was in cananda with his wife. i was on the verge of breaking down and getting so depressed. i love them and that kept me from breaking down. but i still feel hurt. and i dont know why !? i want my aunt to love me like she loves my little cuzins. i just need to feel important
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Feb. 9, 2009 - new beginings
I'm sorry that i haven't been on in like a year. but iv been real busy. the jewelry store my mother worked at since i was 4 went out of business. she was planning on taking 6 months of before she got another job. she had a friend who is a jewelry repair man. when he told her he wanted to make a jewelry store and he wanted her to be run the store as far a creativity, naming the store, designing the store, and stuf like that, i took us by suprise. my mom loved the idea and thought it was the shining light at the end of the tunnel. my dad was hesitent that she would be working as much as she was before even though we wanted to hav her home for a while. every thing was worked out and both my parents are happy. though even though im happy for them. i feel deep inside me that im not ready for this... and im not ready for my mom to go back to working so much. even though i know we need more money then the unemployment. but its tramatic enough for mom not to be working at her old store. shes been there for as long as i can remember. so many memories there... so many great memories. and the store they are opening is right next to where she used to work in the mall it seems to painfull. for a while i was happy and thought it would be okay. but now that its a done deal i know i should be happy but im so sad when i shouldnt be. as i wright this im fighting to hold back the tears iv had inside me for weeks. iv never taken change well. and even though they cant get into the store yet my mom spends hours working on the logo for the store or making a flyer on our computer and going to meetings with her friend about store ideas and all that. this change will probly be for the best and i should be happy but i just cant take it ! the fact that this year is turning out so diferent then we planed. we were going to make a home buisness, and mom was going to hav all this time at home with me and with dad for the first time in my life. but now i feel that i cant hold in these emotions anymore. even though my life isnt that diferent then it ever was i feel so alone and weak. this will be a whole new life for me and i dont know if i can take that. but whatever happens it will happen for a reason and il just hav to exept that... for now...
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Oct. 22, 2008 - sorry
sorry i haven't been writing much but i'v been busy :P i plan on writing more. today my aunt, grandma, and cousin came over. we met at home town buffet and had dinner. then we went to our house and hung around. i really missed my cousin, i haven't seen him practicly all year since he went back to college :'( but it was really nice to see him again. thats pretty much all i did today bye ! :D
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Apr. 30, 2008 - uhg sick
I just am getting over a cold i got a little while ago. I have a cough and sniffles left, but im getting better. i think i got it when i went to the sience expo with my friends dylan, anthony, katie, and kelly. it was awful being sick but i feel much better now. Well thats all bye !
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Apr. 16, 2008 - MY MOMS BACK !
sorry i didn't update in a while i've been really busy lately with my dad and my friends but i'll try and keep you posted. Ok yesterday my MOM GOT BACK ! i was so happy she brought me some awesome things i got a stuffed toy otter, some real fossils from a guy named Charles that worked with my grandma . He digs for fossils- he is so cool ! A pin from where my grandma works, a antique disney book from my grandma, and okay heres the long part i told my mom i wanted a note book for my computer stuff like user names and friends i meet and between my grandma my mom and my grandpa they couldn't find anything in al the gift shops shops. stores by the beach and in the mall there was no book from i wanted something natural and that looks like florid and.. nothing but. my grandpa got up early and drove to another preserve and looked specificly for me and still nothing but he did get me a cool shark tooth necklace its awesome if your reading this i love you grandpa dee and grandma joyce
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Apr. 9, 2008 - my day with dad
okay incase you dont know my mom is in FL visiting my grandparents and her sisters she left yesterday and me and dad moved my bed in dads room and officially started our father doughter weekend i hade a great day we walked SEVEN miles along a trail that is in our town it has a awsome spot where we get drift wood cous it is on the conecticut river it was fun then we ate at home town buffet we just got back and im stuffed we had fun we love getting drift wood on that path it was the first time we ever walked the path we always bike we brought home great wood you see we love building stuff we are going to start getting more serios about it to it was a fun long day i still miss mom though but its only a week and im going to my friend brittneys house day after tomarrow for a four day long sleep over well im bushed so good night !
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Mar. 22, 2008 - my new book
I just got a new book, its called the Daring book for girls. its really cool. it has projects, and games they that did before they had ipods, T.V., or video games. and a few little school things to ! its great I cant wait to finish it. I love trying out the things in it. like they have some palm reading things thats, a fun thing to do in your spare time. if your a girl you should get this book, if your a boy they have a version of this book called the Dangerous book for boys. I saw that and its good to. so all in all its a great book for rainy days, or a day you just don't know what to do. so I hope you enjoy this book if you get it. bye
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Mar. 19, 2008 - my trip is cancelled and im bummed
well if you read haven't read my post about my mom leaving and the bad vet you might as well do it now or else this wont make sense to you but weather you do or not I'm writing it anyways. we brought my cat to the good vet and he has a broken leg. he'll probably okay almost for sure but its going to cost alot and were going to have to cancel the cape cod trip, both of them (we take one every year) im back to being all crushed i want to at least do something special but we cant im soooo depressed right now. well actually not that depressed but im sad. i think il ask my dad if he can take me to ronn-a--roll the local roller blading rink that i love to go to. but all in all iv had a cruddy day (well aside the fact that my grandma took us to a nice restaurant ) oh well i have t go bye.
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Mar. 18, 2008 - bad vet
the other day my dad went to bed and saw my cat mew lying on his bed crying in pain we thought it would be an internal injury so we took him to the vet they got a urine sample. it had blood in it he said it was an infection they kept him over night when he got back he was limping ALOT we realized that it was not an infection it was an internal injury we think he got hit by a car now my cat has a bad injury and we have to go in tomorrow to another vet. im SOOO mad at the other vet i want to sue them i cant stand it. well now i have to go to bed bye
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Mar. 17, 2008 - the sound of music
yesterday i saw the play the sound of music with my friends the gagnes sit was at their older sisters school it was soo good i loved the song 16 going on 17. the whole thing was great. dylan and anthony didn't like it they were bored. i thought it was amazing and the casting was great it was my second play i hope i can see another bye
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Mar. 17, 2008 - breakfast
A couple days ago my grandma took us out to cracker barrel for breakfast it was soooo good i had two pancakes, an egg, some bacon, some of my moms and my grandmas sausage, and a bite of my dads hash browns. oh and some lemonade. lol. we ran in to gulee our indian friend there he insisted on buying me a box of pirouline cookies they were yumee my dad also got me a little stuffed bunny i dont know what im going to call him/her. well that was my excitement for that day not much but it was fun and tasty. bye 
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Mar. 8, 2008 - my aunt kit and grandma came over
yesterday my grandma and aunt kit came over. they came to see my kittens and how big they were getting, mostly because we got them fixed to they wanted to check up. it was so fun we went to this little coffee shop in my town we love i got a cinnamon roll and soda witch i didn't drink . they all got a snack and coffee. then we went to a store called ocean state job lot it was kinda fun its a little boring for me but i had fun with aunt kit after that we got take out at a local restaurant thats right across from my house called Sam buccas , we got pizza with one side plain one side hamburg, a side of lasagna and garlic bread it was soooooo good then we watched tv after they left my mom got home from work, (oh yeah did i mention my dad was with us, well he was) my mom got out of her work clothes and we watched more tv, hehe, i ate sour gummy worms i got at ocean state job lot, it was a great day.
BYE
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Mar. 6, 2008 - my moms leaving
my mom's leaving for a week because her mom / my grandma, owns this preserve for manatees, there new visitors center is opening and my aunts got the idea of having a girls weekend to celebrate . she's never left before at least without me. my dad and me are going to cape cod with my other grandma we go there allot, not with my grandma though. and I'm going going to see if i can go to my friends house for the weekend she'll probably say yes under the circumstances. but still my family lives far away i never see them + I'm really attached to my mom i don't want her to leave but she already bought her tickets i feel i don't know left out i know there wont be any kids, i don't want to go, i mean it would be great to see my grandma but i just mostly don't want mommy to go. I'm upset :(
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Mar. 5, 2008 - my pets
I have tons of pets. first I have two guinea pigs, Tinkerbell and Coco. They're so cute they waddle around in there cage with not a care in the world ,sounds good to me lol. Second i have have one dog Sparky, he's a little dog, a Maltese to be exact, he's really sweet though he's territorial and he always wants to protect my mother, he snaps and growls at strangers its embarrassing, some of my friends are afraid of him i tell them he wont bite but it doesn't help he's getting better now he knows my friends so its good. Third i have one lizard crock he's a anole some people call them chameleons cause they change colors but they're much smaller then a real one he's a good little boy he sits on me and sunbathes if you live in florida there probably running all over the place in your yard my grand parents have them near they're pool in FL. Fourth i have one bird a parakeet named sasha shes not friendly like the last bird i had with her it died. but she's cute and i like her murbles in the backround of the house, its calming i want a sun conure they're friendly. Fifth i have, get this, SIX cats! i know crazy i had three cats then one had four kittens one died but we just couldn't get rid of them I know its crazy to have this many pets but i love them and incase your wondering i don't live in the country i live in the suberbs. BYE
