I am feeling better and so is Bessie so I reckon we are back in business around here.  My day started at 4:30. I'll get the kids up around 6:00 and we'll start school around 7:30.

This afternoon we have to run errands -Grocery Store, Pet Store, Post Office, Movie Rentals, Library.

So our day is full.  I hope to squeeze in some time to crochet.  I am working on a ski mask for my dad. I want to get done and start making blankets and Booties for a good friend thats expecting. I found a book of the cutest blanket patterns on clearance at Hobby Lobby.  I'm itching to make one.  The best part is that she will actually use the stuff I make.  She loves handmade/homemade things!

I have decided to quit my part time job...I really miss home when I am at work.  I miss everything about home..Hubby, the girls, the house, the pets... all of it. 

My heart is at home. Still I worry about being home all of these years and not having enough Social Security credits..

I worry about what all of my friends that work think of me..and yes sometimes I do feel inferior to them.   I know I shouldn't because everyone has different things that make them happy. For some women its a career.  But whenever I am away from home it just doesn't feel right.   I try to picture me working full time after the girls are grown and it still makes me feel sad because I am looking forward to heaping a lot of extra love and attention on my  hubby...and I can picture myself always being there to help out with any future grandchildren if/when the time comes. 

I don't know any women that have been stay at home moms that then become stay at home wives I guess is the term? 

I guess I am worried people with think I am lazy and don't want to work...I don't mind hard work...If our livelihood depended on me working I would do it regardless.  But my heart strings would still pull at me to be home...

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