Today has been such a wild day. It started last night. I took a shower and noticed the water wasn't very warm. I slowly shut the cold water completely off and let the hot water run. It wasn't hot at all. I finally rinsed off and got out and dried off.

This morning I woke up to my oldest son telling me that I can go back to sleep. The hot water heater won't be delivered til the afternoon. I did double time in getting dressed and calling my husband.

Evidently, he went to take a shower and there was no hot water at all. He went downstairs and the tank on the hot water heater was leaking. There was a puddle of water on the floor beside it.

Fortunately, my husband is a contractor so he was able to put a hot water heater on his tab at a local supplier.  I'm relieved to have a new hot water heater, but concerned with how we'll pay for it. I'm praying hard now and wondering how the Lord will work this all out.

Even before the hot water tank incident, I've been struggling with my faith. I see the Lord blessing the lives of others and I am not envious of the blessings they have received.........just wondering when I will hear His Voice again.

Sometimes He is very silent with me. He says very little and I know that all is well and He is pleased OR I've stumbled away somehow or been so preoccupied with things that I haven't taken the time I need to take with Him. The silence I hear now is definitely due to the latter.

Life itself consumes my energy and thoughts. There are bills to pay, chores to be done, children to tend. It seems as though life is a myriad of "musts" and "need to do's". Somehow, in the midst of the musts, I MUST sit quietly before Him and draw strength.

I find myself operating on little to no strength, but running in my own steam and failing miserably. Everyone needs something from me and I haven't been to Him to get what they need or what I need. I think putting my Bible on the coffee table and setting out my journal and pen might be a good way to get started again.

One area that seems to grate on my nerves more than others is our home. Our home is a very small home. I've often teasingly referred to it as a sardine can. At times, it does feel like one. I've prayed and asked Him for a new (to us) home. I've asked that it be bigger and more spacious for the kids to really spread out in. I would love to see them all lounging on the floor, sprawled out and coloring or playing video games and just enjoying the space.

I've prayed many times for a new home. Many times I've heard Him tell me He would provide. I am still waiting and still very cramped. Our home is so small, it is considered a "starter home". 

I'm honestly trying hard not to be discontent. I want to be content. I want to be joyful. It's just hard to do when the whole family has trouble sitting down to a meal together because there is no room.

Tonight was our girls' night out. We went out to dinner and then went shopping. My daughter and I love to get out and go shopping together. We usually get something inexpensive and just enjoy the majority of our time window-shopping.

We looked at lots of Christmas items tonight. I was amazed at how articulate my daughter is. She is very artistic and that seems to flow over in her speech and how she conveys her thoughts in words.

She loved the Christmas displays and we both found several things that we liked. We are hoping to recreate some of them at home. They had a lot of ornaments but none that we really cared enough about to actually purchase. So we'll make some!

I'm hoping to buy a wreath and make a Christmas wreath for our door. I told my husband that I am not spending $20 for a wreath that looks awful. If I spend anything, I'll make my own and decorate it up to suit MY tastes.

I was able to finish shopping for the kids. They are all taken care of. However, there is my husband to think about. I am stumped on what to buy the man! He gave me a list, but half the things on it are tools and whoozits and thingamabobs that I have no clue where they are. I will find some of them and he will have a nice Christmas. It's just going to be tricky trying to find everything!

I'm still praying for a stand mixer. I'm not sure I'll get one, but it would be so awesome if I did. No more hurting my wrists to make chocolate chip cookies. No more pain and I'm sure they would get mixed more quickly, which the kids would love! lol

Well, it's very late and my husband is in bed. I keep saying that I will not stay up late and that I will get up early. So far, I seem to be having quite the battle doing that. One night of staying up waay too late and it set a pattern of it happening several nights! I prefer to get up early in the morning and get things done!

I surely won't get up early in the morning if I don't get myself tucked in. Blessings to all!

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Posted by short

to both your hot water situation and 'sardine can' home. We were out one day and came home to a 'situation'. Our hot water boiler had caused a pipe to explode into our house flooding the whole house. We lived on the top (3rd) floor and when there was water pouring down the stairs to the 2nd and 3rd floor they realised that something needed to be done. Our neighbour had our key thankfully and the neighbours in the whole building and adjacent building worked together to clean out the flood and we came home oblivious to it all.
About a small house.... I was also doing my best to be content even though I had bruises all over from bumping into furniture because our home was so small. No bath, one bedroom for our family of four, no privacy, we could basically sit on the toilet and shower. Anyway, God gave me the scripture of being faithful with little and He would give much. I started giving thanks for every 'little' thing. Instead of griping about how a small place looks cluttered and dirty no matter how much I clean and tidy I started giving thanks for the fact that such a small place took less time to clean. Anyway, it did take effort on my part but when I gave it to the Lord, He answered in ways I never expected.
Blessings to you :-)

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Posted by ELF

I appreciate your encouraging words. I've been praying and He told me that my "time was at hand". I'm not sure what He means by that, but it seemed as though He was saying it in a 'good' way.

I keep praying that He will reveal Himself to me, personally. I've asked for a closer walk with Him and for Him to reveal Himself through His Word. I'm hoping I can spend more time in His Presence. I want to really get into an intense time of worship with Him.

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