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Have you ever felt something wet on your face and realized it was tears? Or wanted desperately to cry and couldn't? I've had BOTH things happen and neither is fun. A dear friend once told me to crawl in the shower, turn the water on and bawl my eyes out. She said the water in the shower helps to hide that you've been crying. I must be doing something wrong, because my family can all tell when I've been crying. Hmmm............maybe I'm too transparent. Now, you may be sitting there, reading along, thinking.......what on earth is she doing, blogging about crying!?! NOONE CARES! Ahh, and that's where you'd be wrong! People cry. Women cry. Men cry. Children cry. We've got a built in pressure relief valve (crying) that allows the pressure of every day life and stresses to be released every so often. Regardless of what you think.............people cry. So what's the big deal? Why is it the topic of a blog? Well, I'm glad you asked! lol (ok, so ya didn't ask, but you're going to get MY story anyway!) I've been battling with every day issues. The rainy weather, snow then rain, then sleet...............back to snow..........ok, so you get the idea...........dealing with disappointments and things I thought **should** have been or **could** have been. I could have been a contenda! No, seriously............. It seems as though the small things in life piled into one BIG thing and hit me full force between the eyes. My children are not perfect...........they're cute, but not perfect............my husband, God bless him, he's not perfect either. (did I mention that I wasn't either??) Ok, all of these things have just overwhelmed my soul and I've found myself dealing with things from the past...........(I prefer to sweep things under the rug and forget it-------thinking I've forgiven and forgotten and then realized I hadn't) Does any of this sound familiar? If it does, I am not alone. PRAISE GOD!!! Not shouting, just joyful that I'm not alone!!! Sometimes...........I just want to bawl and not have to explain to anyone WHY. I want to sit next to the kleenex box and really let a good gully-washer rip. I don't want to have to explain that I'm hormonal, not hormonal, tired of being responsible, tired of paying bills, airing out my differences with someone through 1-800-KLEENEX, or just feeling like being in a snit and throwing a temper tantrum. Sometimes, I JUST WANT TO CRY..............in peace, please! Is that too much to ask? Obviously it is. People tiptoe around me. The kids ask questions and poke fingers at my eyes and say things like, "why are you crying, Mommy?" or "It's okay, Mommy!" I love my kids......please understand that..............but sometimes, I don't want to here that it's okay. Sometimes, I just want to cry and get it out! And to every female who has had a man ask, "Honey, is it.......um...........that time? you know?" I say........wad up your kleenex (not still in the box) and throw it at them! Ugh! I suppose this is my summation on crying. |
Tears are His way of helping us get through life! Comments