under the Son

Jan. 23, 2008

I'm drawin' a blank...

OK, I give up! I have no clue what to write about! Does anyone else ever feel the same way? This goes far beyond writer's block and is touching lame-o. I wish I could give everyone a hug and a big smile because words can't even begin to describe those silent moments of infinite happiness. Sometimes, do you ever just feel like dancing or jumping up and down? If you do, you should ya know. Who's watching, just jump up and praise God! Be silly, let it all go. Every thing in my life today has threatened my happiness. We watched a depressing old movie about a guy who murdered two people for money, I am drowning in essays, I am sick and tired of analyzing "the Crucible" one of the most depressing plays ever, the past threatens to make me miserable with my endless flaws, and even the birds don't look happy today. But that's when I have to determine with every inch of my being that I am going to be happy! The world will always have a way to make us miserable. I'm one of God's children, and I'm not going to waste a moment of possible praise with self pity and depression. Sometimes we just have to let it go. I don't know about you, but I let people get to me. Especially the nasty, mean ones. Sometimes I worry about the future. I'm all for God's will, and sometimes it seems like He's 10,000 light-years away. Sometimes I let the green monster come out in me, even towards the people I love the most. And today was good for all of these things.Sometimes we need to let these things go and trust God, it seems like I have to learn that over and over again. Like it won't go through my watermelon head and stay there. I have this tiny little voice in my head, do you have one of those? It is determined that I worry and stress and over analyze every thing on this earth. Does anyone have a pillow? Cuz ya need to beat me with it. I wish we could just enjoy God and his wonders, no strings attached. Just sing and smile all day, but then I guess that's what heaven is for. Man! I think the only working remedy is to pray and spend some time with God. So ya know where I'll be in 10 minutes. I think, ok I think alot, that it is at the most miserable times that we need to smile the most. Because who knows, maybe it's that smile that will cheer someone else up. We also need to peel our eyes open, God is showering blessings on us everyday and we need to look out for them. It could be in your devo's, or in a testimony, or a smile. Who could know, but do not let misery win the battle. Go to God, he's in this battle with you. He knows the strategies to help you win, he's only waiting for you to ask. Don't turn to the comfort food or chic flicks... relax in the palm of God's hand.Smileon!everythi nggurl

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