Dec. 12, 2005
Time for a Change
It's time for a change.
I do not like the person I have become.
I do not like my life right now.
It's time for a change.
Tonight, when all were asleep, I switched off the all-consuming television and prayed out loud.
I asked for the Lord to come into my life.
I asked for him to enter my heart and become the first thing I think of in the morning and the last thing I think of at night.
I want to walk with the Lord.
I want the Lord to mould and shape me into the person he wants me to be.
I am ashamed of what I have become. I am ashamed of the mask I wear and wish to take it off to reveal my true self, with the help of the Lord.
I am ashamed of my hurtful words and belittling manner, often aimed at those around me whom I love the most.
I hate my impatience with the children, I detest my sarcasm, I dislike the way I whinge and whine about everything and everyone.
It's time for change.
I am asking the Lord for help in putting my wrongs to right.
I am thankful for all He has given me. It is time I took responsibility for showing him my thankfulness. I need to show Him that I am a person worthy of His love and guidance.
Please pray for me, and I hope to log my journey here each day.
Comments
Dec. 13, 2005 - praying for you Jules,
Posted by ejoyce,ink
and keep seeking the Lord. It's when we try to do things by our own strength and determination that we fall flat! In His Peace, Eleanor
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Dec. 13, 2005 - Choosing the Lord...
Posted by takingthechallenge
...seeking His way is always the right way...you're on the right track! (((HUGS)) of encouragement!
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Dec. 13, 2005 - I'm praying for you...
Posted by annesschoolplace
Dear Sister,
I'm going to be praying for you tonight! God is obviously moving in your heart in a special way. I'm so thrilled that you wanted to share it with everyone on your blog. Here is a verse that means a lot to me:
"being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." (Phil. 1:6, NIV)
Hugs,
~Anne
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Dec. 13, 2005 - You are SO in the right place, dear sister!
Posted by Heart4Home
The Lord gives His grace to the humble, and that is what we need the most. It really is a blessing to be able to share in this journey with you.
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Dec. 13, 2005 - I am right there with you in these struggles!
Posted by 3feistykids
Thank you for this beautiful and honest post.
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Dec. 13, 2005 - Untitled Comment
Posted by hsmomof2
What a beautiful post. I am amazed by your openness and vulnerability here. I am inspired to join you as so many of the things you said, apply to me too! Praying with and for you still! Margaret
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Dec. 13, 2005 - Just stumbled upon your blog
Posted by iluvtheland
and I'm so glad I did. This post of yours really hit me, as I have been in much the same frame of mind as you describe lately. I know that my attitude needs a lot of adjusting, and that I need to work a lot on my walk with the Lord, as well as my relationships with those I love best. I'll look forward to reading about your journey and will be praying for you.
Kathy
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Dec. 14, 2005 - Opening up
Posted by MyChildrenAndMe
I thought that was very powerful coming from you. It's good to see that a lot of us and including my own-self. Can get pulled in those loop-hole's. I have found out, that if I just put a Bible in each room. I can take a min to open up and read a Script or even 10 script's. This has helped me out a lot in the pass year. The Lord always has a plan for us and a reason to guide us in directions. He has opened you up to spread the word and I say powerful words to show that everyone can fall and rise again. Regardless of anger/saddnes/lost of one finding our-selves. Jules keep up the good work. Homeschooling kids are a blessing, but I'll be the first to admit it takes a lot of work & most of important Prayer. I would love to travel with you on your journey...
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Dec. 15, 2005 - Untitled Comment
Posted by TOSPUBLISHER
Keep seeking and you will find what you need. Draw near to the Lord and He will draw near to you. Praying as you embark on this journey.
God Bless,
Gena Suarez, Publisher
The Old Schoolhouse Magazine
www.TheHomeschoolMagazine.com
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Dec. 28, 2005 - He loves you
Posted by
Jules, while the Lord is thrilled you want to be close to him, and you want to continue your journey of faith and while doing that will change to become more like him; he wants you to know that he loves you just the way you are - you are his precious child.
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