• Jan. 11, 2008
Losing Weight
OK, it's time for one of those 'from the heart' entries, I hope you don't mind. I'm up before the sun this morning because my thoughts are consumed with my own health. As I'm sure you've noticed from my pictures, I am extremely obese. As a matter of fact, for a long time I wouldn't even post pictures of myself at all because I was so ashamed of how I looked. Then I read an entry at Jamin's blog that said something along the lines of being honest in your avatar. I certainly was trying very hard to hide myself behind my computer screen. I felt very convicted. So I slowly started adding some pictures of me.
Well, now it's time for another big step. I know that all of my family is very concerned about me- I am concerned about myself. I am so overweight that my very life is in danger. I've actually been told that by my doctor- at the same time that he recomended that I have bypass surgery. I do not have insurance, nor can I get insurance because of my weight so that option is out for now. I know that I can not lose the hundreds of pounds that I need to on my own, but I can set some smaller goals and reach them. Let's be frank-any weight that I lose will be better than none.
And now we are at a problem. I am too heavy to weigh on regular scales. I need somewhere that I can weigh in every week. I need to be able to see some results on the scales to keep me encouraged. That is a problem I will try to remedy in the coming days.
I have had some success in the past with Weight Watchers. Before I got pregnant with Isaac I lost 65lbs. I have of course gained it all back plus some. But since Weight Watchers is mainly just eating right, I will be using that again. I can't afford to go to the meetings and honestly, without me being able to weigh on their scales, I don't really see a point. I will have to get my support elsewhere. Hopefully that will come from my family and friends.
When I weigh in and set my first goal, I'll be sure to update. I'm so tired of the limitations my own body causes me. I can't go to movies, get in the floor and play with my kids, run and slide with them in the park. I can barely buckle up in the car. Trust me, the list could go on and on, but I'll try not to focus on what I can't do. I'm actually a fairly confident person- and I hope that my honesty and openness will be of some help to another Mom who struggles with their weight. I have dreams and purposes that I feel like God has called me to. I can not do these as I am. Please join with me in praying that I will be able to lose weight and that by losing weight I will be healthier and can fulfill each facet of God's purpose for my life.
Just a side not- I am finding ir very difficult to hit the save button. My breathing actually got a little more difficult. Perhaps I am not as confident as I thought I was.
If this entry is of any help to you, please leave me a comment and let me know. This issue is not an easy one to address and I would like to know if my transparency has been meaningful to anyone else. OK, I'm just going to do it.
Comments
• Jan. 11, 2008
Hi
Posted by nikkisimcox
I'm so glad I came across your blog today . I appreciate how you opened yourself up . I'm glad you hit the save button :) I know how you feel . I have been severly overweight for several years and it is causing me lots of problems . My goal is to lose 150 lbs . I don't need to be stick thin , I just want to be healthy . I have 4 beautiful blessings and a great hubby who need me to be healthy . I just wanted to let you know that I have added you to my friends list and that I will put you on my prayer list . You have a wonderful blog :)
• Jan. 11, 2008
Thank you!
Posted by abundantblessings
Thanks for visiting my blog, commenting me and being so transparent on your own blog.
I, too, am working on losing weight...I have much to lose as well. The plan I am following is not for everyone, but maybe it's for you too? It's called Kimkins..a modified version of Atkins... www.kimkins.com
As I said, it's not for everyone, but it does give rapid results. I was following plan last year for a month and a half and lost 30 pounds...had a run in with our milk cow, ended up in the ICU overnight..and went off plan..cause then there were birthdays, holidays, etc. I am now back on plan and have lost 7 pounds so far this week. It does work...and you can lose weight on it.
I will be adding you to my friends list and checking in on your progress. I know you can do this!!! And we can do it together!!! :)
Abundant Blessings,
Laurie
• Jan. 11, 2008
Me too
Posted by jbird1898
I am right there with ya Jen. I am doing Weight Watchers too. I am doing it online. We can do this together. I have over 100lbs that I want to lose.My first goal is to lose 10% of my weight. We can do this together if you want and be accountable to each other. We will be the Flying Jennifers Queens of Weight Watchers. lol
• Jan. 15, 2008
Congratulations and Good Luck!
Posted by mom45angels
I am so proud of you! I, too am trying to lose weight this year (75-100 pounds) and get into better shape. I was at a birthday party/dance last weekend and felt so sad and ashamed that I couldn't get out on the dance floor with my children and have fun. I'll be using the Light Weigh program and exercising at the gym.
I know my husband and my family love me no matter how I look, but they also deserve to have a healthy me! Your family deserves a healthy YOU!
Good Luck Jennifer! I'm bookmarking your blog and I'll check back to see how you're doing. You are in my prayers!
• Jan. 16, 2008
Losing weight
Posted by Jessica
Jennifer,
I think it is powerful that you chose to be open and humble about this. I know it has to be a very hard thing to do. But like I tell our children, the enemy keeps us in bondage through pride... and the opposite of that - humility - is what empowers us through Christ because it is what God desires and it opens the door for Him to work through us, for us, and with us. I know it must be very overwhelming to think of reaching your goal, yet one thing I know is that when we pray according to the will of God He will be faithful to hear that prayer and to do what we ask. And I know that to physically be able to do ALL that He has planned for you to do, and enjoy ALL that He has given you is according to His will. So I will be praying for you and encouraging you when I see you. My mother-in-love is doing Weight Watchers right now - lost about 30 lbs over the last few months and her son, who weighed several hundred lbs has lost over 100 so far. It seemed like a good approach. Also, look into a ministry called www.settingcaptivesfree.com. I love you my sister!
