• Sep. 23, 2008
A household under orders
My children and I are lounging around the house today. We are picking up and cleaning, from a long weekend at the coast, a little here and there. But mostly we are all tired after our vacation.
It wasn't really the vacation that wore us out, as much as the news that we received on our way out the door on Friday afternoon. My dear husband is being deployed to war.
This is only the second deployment in 4 yrs, so we are very ready for it...on paper. Being emotionally ready to receive those orders is a totally different thing. 
At least we have more warning than last time. Last time we had three days, this time we get six weeks.
The question all of our family keeps asking me is, "How do you feel about all this?" That is a very difficult question to answer. I feel a whole lot of different emotions all at once. I am excited for my "warrior" husband to get to do what God made him to do. I am upset and sad about the thought of months and months without him. I am thankful for the blessing of our family and their willingness to help and encourage us. I am also thankful that our kids are out of diapers (unlike last time when they were all in diapers 
), until our adopted baby joins our family. I am apprehensive about finishing the adoption process by myself...I am tired from feeling all these things and so much more.
Mostly, I am thankful that no matter how I feel, God is in control of all things, including war and those who stay home and pine.
