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Jan. 30, 2006
Depressing
After another post by Katie that challenged me greatly I am off to post again. In Katie's she mentioned how depressing sometimes certain blogs can be. I admit to being one that at times fit that category. What a blessing the internet can be! To think of the number of times that Katie's simple godly wisdom has touched me on this subject. I have always been quite the naysayer. Sadly Clay has taken to jokingly calling me his little "raincloud". What does that have to say about how I make those around me feel? Now to give myself a little credit things have definitely been getting loads better. But I am so challenged to change the way I look at things. I am taking on this challenge to try and change from being the little raincloud to Clay's silver lining. To be the one that is always trying to find the good in situations. I have been through a lot in the last year. What witness is it to God that I am holding onto all this negativity, this weight, this depression? God has given me this incredible opportunity to let these trials be used to further His kingdom for His glory. I see this in Clay. He is an inspiration to me. I truly love this man more than words can say. He conquered the sickness that left him living a life far from both God and what a husband and father should be. And now he is such a witness to the Lord! He is such a reliable, smart hardworking man that at his job where he just started in April, he already makes more than his foreman that has worked there for 10 years. He has pretty much given up watching tv all together and has started working in all his spare time on either computers or in his new garage workshop. I think he is starting to want to learn to blow glass - neat! And has really stepped up to plate when it comes to spending time with the children. And has really just been my biggest supporter in dealing with all my issues.
So I have started (again) to get a plan in place. I got out my old homekeeping binder from 2003 and redid my weekly chore list and daily list. I am feeling great about this week coming.
Oh.. also, please pray for my mother. My mom has always been one to say she believed in Jesus but didn't believe the Bible to be true and felt that the verse "in my Father's house are many mansions" meant all the different religions. So she has in the last 6 months or so started going to this new church. It's a big mega church and despite her askings is not the church for my little family. But... wonderful things are starting to happen. For the first time ever she is actually on the fence of whether the Bible is true. Before now she would try to burn that fence instead of straddle it. She goes every week to the small groups study and does some volunteer work each month and really see the Lord working. So I guess they had a sermon about tithing at her church. Now while she almost got mad at me when we discussed that I didn't agree fully with her preacher's take on it - that if you are not tithing your 10% you don't trust God. She told me she thinks she might be getting convicted to tithe. Which is great. So that week at her small groups she mentioned that she has been thinking about tithing and they told her about how the Lord will provide. Well THAT day the washing maching broke. So she mentioned the washer in the tithe discussion and someone said they had a brand new one that they don't need that they will deliver the next day. So praise the Lord! This really impressed her. I really feel that as more and more things in this process reinforce the truth of God's word she will truly come to believe in the truth of the Word of God. So please pray to the Lord that he will work in her heart.
So all in all life is great! Things are changing, getting better here. God is good. And I will remember as I fold this giant pile that instead of hating laundry I am SO glad that I have this wonderful family to wear these clothes, fun loving children that love to get dirty and that I am blessed to live a lifestyle that allows me to have the abundance of clothes we do - praise God for the great Goodwill! Silver Lining Here I come!!!!!
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