This past year has been really hard and it didn't even start this year but things just sort of came to a head this year.  I realized I do not have control of much in my life and I don't like it at all.   Having two teenage girls is difficult with trying to get them to do their schoolwork, chores, extra activities and other tasks is driving me crazy.  They either pretend they don't hear or look at me with expressions that say, "You want me to do what?"  To say the least, it is exhausting.  My prayer is that the Lord will see me through.   As it is some days I just want to give up but I have way too much to do and if I begin to think about the situation I would have a breakdown of epic proportions.  Being menopausal does not help either.  The sweat, the chills at the same time, the lack of sleep and the mood swings is tantamount to chaos amplified till its deafening. 

Alas, I must give up trying to control it all and ask the Lord to help me get through this trial in my life.