Showing Up

The past week has been a blah week. I have not wanted to write AT ALL. I have tried to do it but it has just been gray . . . void of color and clarity. I was still feeling pretty low on Wednesday morning when it was time for my writing class. I did not want to go. But, I have paid for the classes and I would have such terrible guilt after paying and not going . . . so I went. Within about ten minutes I confessed my attitude to them . . . that I didn't want to be there.

The topic for the class on Wednesday was momentum. We had done one exercise in writing about momentum and one of the ladies shared that sometimes you just have to show up. She related it to my experience that day. I didn't want to be there but once I decided to show up, the momentum swept me along. Soon my writing energy was restored and I was back on solid ground again.

Then today someone mentioned my web journal and I realized that I need to apply the same discipline to this journal. I just need to show up. I need to quit worrying about having a perfect, polished, piece of writing to post. (Hey, how about that alliteration?) It's not about posting the finished product. It is about the process, the journey.

So, look for more posts. I plan on showing up each evening and pouring my day out here. Maybe that way I can leave it here and go to bed without all of the thoughts running around in my head.

At least three of the children are waiting for me to read to them before bed. So, I am outta here!!

-- Cynthia