Learning to trust - Mar. 3, 2006
Feeling contemplative this morning. I cannot really identify it but the need to sit down, close my eyes and let my fingers fly across the keyboard is overwhelming. Something within me is longing to escape, longing to see the light, to be exposed to the truth. What is it? What has happened this week? Nothing comes to mind. Nothing earth shattering. Even no accumulation of past thoughts I don't know. Maybe it is just a lack of sleep. I could not sleep last night and there is a big day planned today. So, it could be just the the cobwebs have not been swept, or slept, out of my brain.
Been going through a bit of online upheaval this week. A beloved message board has become inassessible to me and to others leaving many feeling like refugees. Thankfully, there is recognition that an entity, company or corporation does not provide or make community. It is people who make community. And thankfully, there other online places to meet and we are all gathering and regathering working towards digging in roots and creating something new. This is a good thing however all of the surrounding circumstances have left me thinking.
Who is my support? Who is my encourager? Who is my lifeline? These are all words used by those lamenting the potential loss of online friends.
Philippians 4:19 says,
19And my God will liberally supply ([a]fill to the full) your every need according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus.
God will supply EVERY need. He knows what I need. He knows when I am discouraged. He knows when I need support. He knows when I need wisdom. God is the source of meeting all my needs. He is not limited by ANYTHING and certainly He is not limited by the loss of online community. It may be the very thing He will use in my life to turn my face back to Him, my strong tower, my refuge, my very present help in time of trouble.
Really, when there is trouble, where do I turn first? To the Lord? Oh, I wish it were true. I don't. I know that I don't. I turn to my husband, to a trusted friend, to advice from others. Who is my help? Who is my refuge? Who will bring me peace?
Isaiah 26:3
You will guard him and keep him in perfect and constant peace whose mind [both its inclination and its character] is stayed on You, because he commits himself to You, leans on You, and hopes confidently in You.
My prayer is that my trust in the Lord will grow and that I will run to Him first, always. I do eventually get around to casting the cares on the Lord but why do I wait? Does God understand? Yes. I am only robbing myself o the perfect peace that is available when God is allowed to take over.One of the lessons that I have learned this week is that I am not to be dependent on anyone or anything other than God. To do so is a form of idolization. Do I want to admit that there are idols in my life? No but truly, there may be. If anything is taking the place of God it is because of my own choice; I am placing it there before God. I can trust God to meet my need in the best way. He knows my need and He knows best how to meet that need. It may not be the way I would choose but I can trust Him.
Learning to trust. Learning to trust.
Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus,
And to take Him at His Word;
Just to rest upon His promise,
And to know, Thus says the Lord!
Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him!
How Ive proved Him oer and oer
Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus!
O for grace to trust Him more!
O how sweet to trust in Jesus,
Just to trust His cleansing blood;
And in simple faith to plunge me
Neath the healing, cleansing flood!
How Ive proved Him oer and oer
Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus!
O for grace to trust Him more!
Yes, tis sweet to trust in Jesus,
Just from sin and self to cease;
Just from Jesus simply taking
Life and rest, and joy and peace.
How Ive proved Him oer and oer
Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus!
O for grace to trust Him more!
Im so glad I learned to trust Thee,
Precious Jesus, Savior, Friend;
And I know that Thou art with me,
Wilt be with me to the end.
How Ive proved Him oer and oer
Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus!
O for grace to trust Him more!
Immersed in the Mystery,
Cynthia
Comments
Mar. 3, 2006 - Beautifully said, Cynthia
Posted by seekingHim
I, too, noticed that anyone and anything can be taken from me and that the only person who I can expect to truly be there for me for the long haul is the Lord. He alone will sustain me and He should be who I turn to(especially before I turn to some message boards).
Blessings!
Jennifer
Mar. 3, 2006 - Trusting Jesus....
Posted by Belinda
I just told my dear husband the other night that I don't really trust the Lord. Not deep down ... not to the point where I will surrender everything He calls me to surrender without question or without wrestling.
Your post of the song really touched me. I remember singing that as a child in the church I grew up in. I needed to see .... to hear those words again. Thank you.
Love in Jesus,
Belinda
Mar. 10, 2006 - Untitled Comment
Posted by Anonymous
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