I keep seeing adds about how  TV and movie stars look so young for their age. We never see them upclose and personal, without the makeup and glamour.  Do they really look younger then women did 40 years ago?  In some ways I think its a state of mind...and culture too.  We are allowed to "be" younger.  We exersize, dress current, have careers, less children, in some ways more free time.

     But is this hanging on to youth a help? A smokescreen?  As christian women what is our role? Where are the Titus 2 women in the church today?  I want to look nice, be healthy. I admit to coloring my hair, wearing makeup, keeping "up" with some of the modern culture so I know what my teens and tweens are talking about. I belive we don't have to fit a role anymore where after 40 you are old,frumpy,over the hill.

     At the same time we should have gained wisdom and life experience by this age and then we share it with the younger women. Sadly, many women never seem to learn the lessons life has to offer and many are so wrapped up in careers or jusy busy, busy, busy they can't share or teach or mentor. Titus 2v3 says "The aged women likewise,that they be in behaviour as becometh holiness, not false accusers, not given to much wine, teachers of good things".....maybe we dont like the word aged but lets embrace it as our due for all of life we lived,for all that God has shown us, loved us and forgiven us.

     So we can look good on the outside but its what is on the inside that counts the most. Our heart belonging to the Lord. Wisdom from being in the Word.Sharing with others...Titus 2v4-5...."That they may teach the young women be sober, to love their husbands, to love their children.  To be discreet, chaste, keepers at home, good,obedient to their own husbands, that the word of God be not blasphemed."

     As homeschoolers many of us are raising our daughters this way. How I would have loved this training as I was growing up. I did not come to Christ till I was 27. Lets not assume that the young women in our churches have been trained. They are watching us and maybe afraid to ask for help.  The world outside dose not  honor motherhood. The public school system dose not even offer it as a path for women anymore.Its more like something you might want to do but careers are more important...how sad.

   So lets all look good...have fun at whatever age we are but reach out to others with our wisdom. Pray the Lord to put young women in our path to help. To give us time to be a Titus 2 lady in the Lord.  I'm glad to be over 40. Thank you Lord for your wisdom and Love.

     I wish...I just want it to be over now and from the way she pounds on me inside I think she wants out too!  Her sister asks me everyday if today is the day! She see a living doll to play with, dress up, help take care of!

     Paul, my youngest, has decided his job is to make her laugh. Anytime she is upset hes gonna tickle her toes and get her to smile. It may very well work, he is our clown.

    Dennis wants to cuddle her and Chelsea is excited but I think she is more worried about me getting through labor. She was there for both her youngest siblings births. Pauls birth was hairy and scary but God brought us through, just like HE will this time too!  My first thought when I found out I was pregnant was" Oh My! I have to go through labour again! UGH!

Ive had alot of things I wanted to write about but thought just pass through my brain and falls out. I am looking to getting my brain back! Thanks for all your prayers and Ill let everyone know when it happens!

     I use to be a femenist..I still am on equal pay in the job market..but God changed my heart in so many areas after my salvation, and this was one of them. I say all this to bemoan the loss of men treating women like ladies...

    I am obviously pregnant...Its not just fat. We were in a small office and had to wait. Now a family was taking all the seats. Husband, wife(non-stop on the cell phone, like we all wanted to hear about her life) and two middle school kids...I kinda pointly looked at them and then went over to ask for a seat.(not something I normally do but I am REALLY tired and pregnant)  I asked the husband (mind you wifey was on the phone and making a point not to look at me) if one of his kids would allow me a seat. OH BOY! did he get mad! he said no, he was not going to ask one of his kids to move...I kinda looked at him and said.oh..cant you see im pregnant?  He said, well Ill give you my seat( Lets face it ladies..I should never had to ask in the first place!!!)

    Now the office manager comes quickly over with a chair and offers it to me..I thank him politely and take it. I can hear the man mummble under his breath about me being rude and how I must be from out of town or new york! ( I almost bust my gut 'cause I AM from NY but itd been 15 years since I've lived there!)

My point being...This is how things have changed, and we women can be very cruel to each other too! When Im not pregnant or holding a baby Ill give way to a woman who is. How can we forget how it feels? I remember one time at a park there was a potty line and a very pregnant lady got in line behind me..We all let her go to the front of the line(there was about ten of us) We just all smiled at the joy and surprise on her face! Its not that hard to be nice!!!!

    How many of us are raising our children to give a seat or hold a door...My older son and daughter would have jumped up to offer their seat.  My son holds doors so long I have to tell him to come on, he will be holding us up!  I say that not to pat my back but to encourage all of us to be more aware of others around us.    We broke down the other day while test driving a van...There was no number for the dealer on the key or lisence plate. So as we crossed the hi-way two men from the car wash across the way asked if we were okay and the owner offered to drive us the mile or so back to the dealer..we didnt even ask, just wanted to borrow a phone book. So that was nice..made up for the other day

Anyway, I pray that the Lord will help be see those around me with needs...sometimes its as easy as holding a door or just a smile. I pray you know the joy of helping in these small ways, it costs nothing but a moment of our time and thank those who do go out of their way...pass the love on!

     I blame it all on being pregnant and over 40..The good and the bad.  Being tired, being grummpy, the weeping...the joy that sometimes overwhelms my heart! God is so good and that is that! How could I get through this without Him?

     Im now 29 weeks and we can watch my belly move up and down from her kicking. Some times if I sit up at the computer to long she kicks and kicks and kicks till I move.  I belive I'm cramping her  space! She seems to like alot of room. LOL!  Iknow , after being pregnant more then twice that babys are forming who they are before they are born. Sarah had the hiccups eveyday when I was pregnant with her. It was from sucking her thumb..Wich she did within 2 hours of being born

     My Paul is almost five and a real funny young man. Hes very excited about the baby and glad he still will be the baby, the baby boy that is!  We are living on the Mexican border were 98% of the people speak spanish and are bi-lingual...This has become a way of life for us and we are use to it(for those who dont know us we are anglos)...I say all this because the other day Paul asked if the baby would be born speaking spanish!  .

       Most of the hispanic babies are born with beautiful heads of dark hair..usually wavy. I have bald babies...we call it peach fuzz. Dennis had hair. Long blonde hair only in the middle! It was a baby mohawk! He was soooo cute!

     Well my pregnant mind is shutting down..time to move on.  OHHHH the amnio came back all clear!!  But I knew, my trust is in the Lord! Blessings to you all.

     Well, I'm starting to feel better now. A little more energy. Getting excited as the big day draws closer. I cant belive I have to go through labour again!!!  I think I might get an epidural this time. Never had had one. Still not decided.

     Oh by the way...Its a girl!!! whooo hooo! Even Paul said he wanted a sister. So Paul still gets to be the baby, the baby boy that is.  I had an amnio this time. You know, I'm so old being 41. That came back all clear! Praise  the Lord! But was that miserable. Only a man could have come up with that and think it wasnt painfull. I  was so sick to my stomach while they were doing it. The baby wouldnt lay still. She kicked at the needle!!!

     I am glad to be having this baby, Im just still in a bit of shock. I guess Ill belive its true in the midst of labour.LOL!  Thinking of you my friends...Trying harder to be a friend to all. My love to you

     Have you made your New Years Resolution?  Not gonna bother?  I have one...I want to be a better friend!  I want to get to know my friends better and be an encoragement to them!  Have you old, lost friends? I do! I want to write or call them and see how they are.

     Can you imagine how much better the world would be if we could be better friends. Pray for our friends!  Try to make a new one!  Remember the best friend we have is Jesus! Tell your friend about him if they aren't saved. 

    I want to give a shout out to a few of my friends....Joyce, Patty, Tammy, Mary, Charlene, Irma, Terry, Chelsea. Love all of you!

     Sorry I've taken so long to get back but I've been sooooo very tired.  Why you may ask...I'm pregnant!  Yes now I am graceover 40 and gonna be a mom again!  I am still in shock!  It's so odd in one respect and yet so natural in another.

  If I truely belive that God opens and closes the womb then He has chosen to bless us again and I will be glad and rejoice.  I just have much less energy then I did 18 years ago! Yes, my oldest will be 18 in 3 weeks! My youngest is 4 and just so much fun! He is very excited because now he will have someone to "boss" around!

     Thank you Lord for this new addition to our family and Lord keep me safe and healthy. Im just 14 weeks today so I have much time to wait and plan and get ready. I'll keep you all up to date!

     We been having a great bible conference at our church.  The pastor has really opened more scripture to me and the church as to the coming season.  The end is near but for thoose of us who are saved we need not fear!  It's all in HIS hands anyway! Wether I die or an here for the rapture...

     I know as I've gotten older death seems differnt to me then how I felt even 10 years ago. I'm blessed that both my parents are still living.(neither are saved)  My paternal grandmother will be 90 tomorow. My paternal grandfather died about 15 years ago. I was not saved yet...looking back neither was he. My other grandparents I lost when I was very young.  I wish I could have known my moms mom as a grownup.

    I think the biggest event in my life that changed the way I felt about death(besides salvation!) was my first miscarrige: iv'e had two.  Having death IN you but not OF you is a life changing experience. God's grace brought my husband and I through it and kept us together.

     Gods Grace will help us as things get tougher. I am pre-trib rapture beliver but that dos'nt mean it wont be really bad before HE sounds the trumpets and we meet HIM in the air!  Praise the Lord!

   I "preach" to the choir and say lets all stay in HIS Word and keep on keeping on....

     Are you watching the news right now? Is your canidate winning?  Either way we are heading down hill as a country...just one way will be qiucker then the other. I read the back of The Book and we win! But are we ready for the fight? We each need to take to prayer what we will stand against. Would you go to jail to homeschool?  Would you stand up and fight against abortion in the schools? How about your Pastors right to speak against sin? Homosexual marriage anyone?

  We are to respect the office our political leaders hold, render unto Ceaser and all but I just dont see were we are to stand by and let our rights, God given, be taken from us!  You can't have my children!  Here is were all we have learned from Homeschooling can come into play. We must have an answer ready and form our words with logic and common sence.  Just because may really be the answer but it wont hold up in court! 

     Let us pray for our familes, our homeschooling friends and our church family that we will stand fast to The Word Of God. Ther may be a personal price to pay. Lets not forget Christian schools.  As they fall so may we. I dont want them to be forced into goverment programs, I dont want to be forced into goverment programs!

So lets all be aware, ignoring it wont make it go away. Lets encourage thoose who tred the path and fight the fight and stand up for their rights and in the end, our rights too...Now may be a good time to buy a gun while we still can. Just kidding! Well, no, now may Really be the best time!

     I havent felt to well these last few days. My bellys been upset, I've been extra tired and I've had some rip roaring PMS to top it off!   I kept hoping that last aspect would improve as I got older.  Ya right! It was never a major problem in my life but I suffer from PCOS and Type 2 diabetes so that combo can be potent!

    I fell like I get hormonal "dumps" I'll be going along, singing a song and bam! Now I fell queasy, or hot and tired or all 3! Last year I had my first hot flash! I knew what it was because a fictional character in a book I was reading had discribed hers and and a day or so latter after I had read that  I had one....Thanks goodness I  knew it wasnt a heart attack!

    I really belive it was the stress I was under that brought it on. Im not looking forward to another one. I know I need to take better care of my health. My head knows but my taste buds dont!  Suggestions to the inbox on how you handle these changes in your life are gladly looked for.  I'm not sad about losing my fertility, I guess cause my children are so young and there are so many of them:)  I look forward to grandchildren, but thats another story for another day!

    Thanks for all your coments and for droping by. May the Lord bless each of us this coming week!

    When I first started homeschooling I was 28 thinking about 30. Many of the moms I met were 5 to 7 years older then me. As time went on I saw changes in their lives and wondered. Why are they sending their children to school?  Why are they going back to work?

    Hitting 40 dose bring changes to our lives and we need to embrace them. Now I can relate to need for time and space of ones own. To start looking inward to what I have been and what I want to be.  Meshing God and family and my own needs. Lets face it...Many, Many of us spent the last 15 to 20 years giving, giving ,giving! Gladly! We love our familes and the Lord and our Husbands!

  Now we may begin to feel..What about me? Lets look at the things we can do to fufill the needs and wants we feel and dream and STILL keep our lives in order with the Word. I loved to hear how you balance it all!

    For me Im starting this Blog and hope to meet others and connect over different topics! Lets put our colective wisdom together and learn and Pray

Blessings to all!

     Well, here I go again. I tried blogging one time before. Made one or two entries and then stopped. Now there were some special circumstances like how I was selling everything and moving...But now I really want to!  Now I'm over 40. Thats my theme. I want to touch on what being over 40 means to me and hear what it means to you. 

     Other topics on my mind are mixed ages teaching, grandchildren, mental illness, when they leave the nest, working from home and what ever else is on my mind.  I do want to do well and make new friends and exchange ideas and pray. Pray for each other, our children and this country.

    So I hope you will come back and visit and we will chat about life and how good it is to be older and have wisdom and knowledge and Grace, God's Grace!