Just call me lazy I guess. I have not put a post on for a long time and have no reason other then I have been lazy.

I am working on a couple of things for church, a couple of things for my local Little League, a couple of things for myself musically, but most of all trying to get myself organized . It is very hard trying to get organized when you suffer from depression and ADHD and you run out of medication. Its like you are sitting in the middle of a forest fire, trying to figure the best way to escape death and thinking about what is that flower doing here, why doesn't that bird fly out of here, who the heck started the fire in the first place, what can I do to put it out, why did I leave the light on my nightstand on, who left the dishes in the family room and what the heck did they eat, and so on and so on and so on. All of this within a 3 second timeframe and it repeats over and over and over and over again, all the while the fire is getting closer and hotter and you can't think a bout what is the thing that will impact your life the most within the next moment. I DON'T HAVE A CLUE WHAT I AM SAYING ANYWAY............

I have never been good a setting priorities. As you can tell from the above, my priorities are totally wrong. Now I know what my priorities are supposed to be. God first, then my wife, my children, my family, my church brothers and sisters, my friends, my work and then anything else comes last. But you know what; I can never get them in the right order. Sometimes I do it right but more times than not I get them wrong. We had a guest preacher in church today and he said something I have heard many times before but it really hit home today. If I am not fully repentant of all of my sins and ask for forgiveness and help to not turn to the same sins again, God cannot work in or through my life. He will be there saying, “I Love You, please come closer to me, I will heal all of you pain”.  If I allow the same sins to permeate my mind, I may have divine protection for a small season, but eventually, sin will slowly take hold and blind me from my priorities.

So what am I to do???/ PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY.   That is the most important advice I can give to you, my family, or my friends. PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY. Now please excuse me while I go PRAY. One thing I will be praying for is the resources to be able to get my medication so I will actually be able to post something that is coherent.

    Do you remember when you were young? For some of us that is hard. Heck, I can’t remember what happened to me two days ago. Do you remember being sent to your room? Either you did something wrong or got blamed for something by your brother or sister and your mother or father would send you to your room "and don’t come out till I call you"! Well you would have thought that being punished like that would have stopped by the time you were a teenager or at least when you moved out of your parent’s house. Oh but nooooooo. I was sent to my room last night by my wife and her best friend. Boy what a shock. Let me explain.

    You see, last night, my wife, her best friend, and my youngest daughter was having a baby shower for a young girl they know. Now I knew this was going to happen but being old and forgetful, I forgot it was last night. I was even told about an hour before. My daughter was putting up streamers and balloons for goodness sake. Right in front of me. Well, needless to say, when they came in and turned off the TV and told me to get out and go to my room I was a little miffed!  So I took my laptop and went to my room and got on Netflix and watched a documentary Ancient Egypt with my son still a little upset. After a while I was like, what the heck is wrong with me. I knew what was planned, I knew I was supposed to make myself scarce, and I knew I didn't want to leave the house. Where else was I supposed to go?

    I now know that this was Satan at work again. He distracted me with the TV so I would become upset when it was time for the party. Thank you God for still working in my life. In the past, I would have been upset for days for something as incidental as this. I know now that the love of Christ is working in my life. He is allowing Satan to get to me so that in the end, God will have the glory when I refuse to get upset over petty things. He is continuing to break me down, grinding me to dust so that I will seek Him and allow Him to build me up. Refine me as pure as the purest gold. Thank you Jesus, for loving me, a sinner.

    And to my wonderful wife, please accept me, a broken man. Forgive me if I was cross with you in any way. I love you and always will.

Although my wife has been working with our son all summer with his school work, a lite schedule, it is back to school time.

Our son, Kiddo is his name (no, not his real name), is starting his second full year of home schooling. He is in the 9th grade now. Getting him to do his work is like pulling teeth some days. Other days, he will have his work completed before my wife gets out of bed. Go figure. I can only hope that the latter will be more of the norm this year. We are still learning how to best motivate him.

We have been trying to find a good home school group in our area and so far have had no luck at all. Maybe it is a sign from God that we should start one. If anyone has any experience in starting a support group I would sure like to hear from you to pick your brain.

Till next time

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Hello,  

I am new to this blogging stuff but my wife has been here for a while now. In fact, she just had her 1st blogiversary.

I don't know really where this blog will go or what shape it will take. I know it is a Homeschool Blog but I tend to wander off track a lot. Please bare with me if I do so. I also have a bad habit of not remembering things so I may not keep this updated as often as I would like.

Well, here goes nothing. Wish me luck.