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My future. That's what I, as a university student, thinks about for maybe 90% of my day. Everything revolves around it...How can I influence people toward God in the future? How can I get a good job? How can I be like the people I want to be like? These questions start going through a persons mind when they are maybe 15. I had my whole life planned out when I was that age... The crazy part is.. to a certain extent, I still want that life. This past semester has really shown me some interesting things though. University requires alot of dedication (I knew that last year too). It also requires a desire. I have that desire and dedication and I was pushing toward my goal when God blind-sided me and said that I wasn't really thinking about what he wanted. I pushed on, still believing that this is what I had to do to be successful. Wow was I ever wrong. No matter how hard I studied or how much help I went for, God kept nudging me. It got to the point that I had to get slapped in the face by almost failing a course that I wanted as my minor. That's when I sat back and re-looked my life plan over. It involved world-determined success and , essentially, money. God can use people with money... for sure. I'm just sure he knew that would lead to a weakness for me. So I decided to change my life plan. I know.. It's strange... second year university and deciding to change my plans. Believe me, it happens more than you think. I decided to take a break from school. I know, it should be refered to as dropping-out but that isn't my intent. I want to take a break. God really showed that this isn't where I should be right now. It doesn't mean that He banned me from university forever, infact, I've decided to start again next year (september or so). Just this time, my path is different. I've decided (with strong support of my family) to move home before Christmas and work full-time. When I get the money I will be renting a car (hopefull from my sister) and moving out. (Probably not far away...maybe 10 minutes- you can tell I'm independant -hahaha) Then I want to get involved in my church alot. I also have this list of things I want to do in my life. As I continue down this new path, I will do these things in God's order and at His descretion. The first thing is to get my teaching certification in Highland dance. I also plan on doing school on top of all this. As I get the funds and the go-ahead from God, I will enroll in one or two courses in on-line school. This way I can continue to pursue the education I really want but still maintain a certain amount of flexibility for God to work. When I first thought about this, I had doubts. I thought I wouldn't be able to be successful and I thought about all the money I owed already for school. A really big influence in my life helped change that; my Dad. he said not to worry about money because worry doesn't make money appear but he also set an example. My dad didn't have to opportunity to go to university at all and he is doing great. Mom and him have one of the happiest lives I know. That's what's important. I'm not trying to say that dropping out s the best bet when you hit a rough spot...that is the last thing you should do. But just remember that sitting back and listening to God may have the answer. Had I done that earlier, I'm sure I would be a ways down the new path God has for me. As it stands, I'm at the beginning...exactly where I should be. |
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