Beyond The Red Door

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Things That Make Me Smile

Seeing the kids reading their Bibles on their own
Hearing the ocean
Smelling a cake baking
Remembering our wedding day
Singing in the church choir
Shopping for my family
Feeling good
Reading in the tub
A quiet house
Watching a funny movie with the kids
Seeing my kids playing a game together
Ron's little finger dance
Hearing my kids being excited about church
Watching Ron play with Faith (our dog)
Hearing Ron snoring beside me after he has been gone on a long trip
Chatting with special friends
Feeling hot sand under my feet on a beach somewhere
Game night with Brian & Kim and kids
Spending one on one time with Kim
Double Dating With Brian and Kim
A clean house
Sitting on my front porch in my new rockers
Walking on a cool evening with my family
Losing weight
Seeing my kids make a great play on the soccer field

About The Hunters

My dear sweet hubby, Ron, and I have been married for 20+ years. We began dating during my freshman year at Free Will Baptist Bible College in Nashville. He is my college sweetheart. We have ministered together in various ministries during our lives together. We pastored for 10 years in Florida. We moved to TN in 2000 to Co-Pastor with some friends of ours. The Lord has given me a fabulous provider whom I love more than any words I write could ever express. He is now the CEO at our denomination's publishing company, Randall House Publications. I am honored to support him.

Our oldest child is named Michael. He is now officially a teenager, although I don't think I'm old enough to have a teenager. He is a very sweet and considerate young man. He is my thinker and my reader. He absorbs every piece of new information that he comes across. He loves playing soccer, riding his bike, skateboarding, reading, watching the History Channel, the Military Channel, ESPN and any documentary on TV. I am privileged to be his Mother.

Lauren is our youngest child. She is just 15 months behind her brother in age. She is wise beyond her years. She has a sharp-witted tongue (which sometimes has to be tamed), a quick sense of humor and a heart for people and animals. She loves organizing anything and everything. She loves being with her friends, singing, talking on her cell phone and playing soccer. I am blessed to be her Mother.

Just the knowledge that a good book is awaiting one at the end of a long day makes that day happier. - Kathleen Norris

On My Nightstand

When I Lay My Isaac Down by Carol Kent
Esther: It's Tough Being A Woman by Beth Moore
NIV Life Application Study Bible

Back On The Bookshelf 2009

~Beyond The Red Door~

Apr. 4, 2007
BFS #23 - Digging Deeper

Posted in Blogger Friend School

Last week's BFS assignment was to share a situation when someone has made you doubt your ability or choice to homeschool.

This is a fairly easy assignment for me to complete because the person that has made doubt my ability to homeschool is myself. I have a very supportive family. All of my in-laws are supportive. Ron and I are both only children. However, he does have 2 step-sisters. They have both homeschooled their children at some point. My parents are supportive. All of our friends are supportive. I realize that this is a rare case. I have heard "horror" stories from other friends who have not been blessed in this respect.

The only person to doubt my abilities is me. Because of my physical limitations I am always second guessing myself in some area of my life - in friendships, in parenting, in being a wife, in being a homemaker and, in this case, homeschooling. It seems that I am forever feeling inadequate to meet the educational needs of my children. I have never been a really smart person. I was a B/C student in school and college. That never really bothered me - which is probably most of the problem. I never expected much from myself. But I find that I am forever wishing I had challenged myself more and been less satisfied with the status quo. I want better for Michael and Lauren. I want them to strive with the best of their abilities to be the best that they can be. I don't them to be satisfied with "just passing".

Ron is a perfectionist. That is definitely not my problem. Some days I wish that it was actually. I think that I would be much happier with who I am. Then again - probably not. I'm thinking that the best place to be is right in the middle somewhere. Not too far one way or the other. This isn't limited to just homeschooling. This is a feeling that invades all areas of my life.

Wow, now you know TOO MUCH about me. Much more then you probably wanted to know, huh? Yeah - me too!

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Apr. 12, 2007 - Untitled Comment

Posted by DanielleW

Tried to post a comment yesterday but, well, you know, HSB, need I say more? LOL

Anyway, I think I too am my own worst critic. And silly me has imaginary conversations with people with what I think they'll say and it is always the worst. When it actually happens I'm blown away by what they really have to say. LOL

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