I was thinking about something the other day, and I thought I would share it with you.  Now, before you think I have something profound, it's not, it's just something I was thinking about.

I have a terrible singing voice.  I'm not saying that to be modest, I really do.  I can't sing worth anything.  I remember once even overhearing a conversation between some folks at church about why the singing was very good one particular Sunday, and someone said, "Well, Shane was singing kind of loud, that could be part of it."  Everyone agreed.  I'm telling you, I can't sing well.  I love to sing.  I like to sing loud (when I am alone), but when I am in public, I sing very, very quietly so as not to disturb other's worship.  I have always joked about it, and always said that someday when I get to heaven I will have a beautiful singing voice.  Well, what if that's not true.

I know that when we get to heaven, we will be made perfect, handicaps will be gone, the lame will walk, the bind see, the deaf hear, etc, but those are physical ailments brought about by the curse.  My voice isn't something wrong with me, it's just who I am.  It's a part of me.  I wonder if up in heaven, it won't be that my voice will be made better, but instead my warped view will be made better.   In other words, I won't be bothered by having an off key voice, and those around me won't be bothered by my voice, because we will all be so busy praising God that whether I am on key or not will not even be a thought.

Then, I thought of other applications to this.  Maybe those who are shy won't be cured of their shyness, but wil be so focused on Christ that it won't matter.  Maybe those of us who are naturally loud won't be suddenly made meek and mild, but our loudness will be used to praise our Father.   Maybe people who can't focus won't suddenly be able to focus, but will be able to praise the Father in multiple ways at once.  I don't know, and I am sure not saying anything definate, and as I said, I am not saying anything about true physical handicaps.  I guess what I am saying is maybe the problem isn't with something to change physically, but something to change spiritually.  Maybe I need to accept that I don't have a singing voice, but it doesn't matter, but I need to praise.  I need to praise, not in spite of my bad singing voice, but because of it, for God made my voice exactly as it as, and He commanded me to praise.  Worse, am I insulting God by my excuse.  He made my voice, just as it is, He told me to praise, and I tell Him that it's not good enough.  Kind of makes you wonder, huh?