Jan. 1, 2008 - Good to be in a new year - yay for 2008!
(Well, I wrote this a few days ago and thought it would be good to share in case anyone else has been there and done that....)
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I was talking to my sister today and she asked me how my year had been.... (She's been dealing with stuff, too).
It's just been a depressing year. Extended family issues last Jan (2007) and my husband has been having work issues last fall till this winter it seems, and it has just been a sad year.
I can remember thinking a few years back how great everything was - no real problems anywhere. Well, that hasn't been this year or even last year, for that matter. I've very much been out of my comfort zone - hate that. Kinda getting used to it now. (smile)
AND I have learned *once again* that stressing or worrying about *things* changes nothing. I know that, but sometimes in the midst of life, I sometimes think if I pray harder, God will fix
everything. Sigh Sometimes we must have lessons to learn. Anyway, He has been really good to me - always there, even when my prayers aren't getting answered the way *I* want or (more likely) when I want.
smile
This has been a learning year for me. I can see things changing now (Dear Husband's work is better) and I'm ready to move on concerning the family issues I talked about up above. Need to walk in forgiveness. It's going to be a moment by moment thing for a while. Choosing to forgive
is a good thing. I choose to forgive.
Anyway, I was just thinking about life today. I've heard a couple talks this fall on stress and relaxing and I just didn't realize how stressed my body is most of the time (I rarely relax until I go to sleep - always working on my to do list, you know? smile). It's been a good thing to learn, because now I'm focusing on relaxing and enjoying my family, friends and life more. (Not getting many to do's done, but that's another issue and another post.)
SOOOOO, sometimes I think we have a year that isn't so good. (If you had to pick a word to describe 2007, what would it be? Quick - that word will reveal a lot of things to you. Might be
something worth scrapbooking or journaling about.... Lots of healing goes on as we admit to hurts and disappointments. Don't bury them.)
In that case, I'm never sad to see it go. I'm actually looking forward to 2008 although I do enjoy life now. Don't get me wrong. God is good. Life is good. My husband is still my best friend. Kids are great and healthy. Finances are ok. Got a van that works. AND a furnace for that
matter! smile
I was just thinking today about that family issue I mentioned above and it is probably #1 in my life list of what matters to me and such a hard issue. Hmm. Surprise, surprise. Takes a while to deal with such a big issue.
So, there's some honesty for you. (I have a tendency to not notice how I'm feeling until I'm really depressed. I find acknowledging how I'm feeling really takes away the power it has on my life, and then I can move on.)
So, heres to moving on in 2008! I'm looking forward to more good things and good times with my family and friends - AND learning more of what God wants from me.
