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Matthew 6:34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. This has become my verse of the month or maybe year. I have realized that I worry and try to plan out my life and then I am reminded that I have no control over it at all! Last summer, after months of prayer, my husband and I decided to seek adoption. We had been interested in doing this for years, and finally it seemed like the right time to start the process. Shortly after we started taking foster/adoption classes, I found out my 26 yo sister was pregnant. This caused me to WORRY, because she has been in the drug scene for 10 years or so. She had just gotten out of a drug rehab place and came up pregnant about 2 months later. Right away I was angry at her. We have not had a close relationship (due to her lifestyle, and the fact that she is 11 years younger then me.) I was imagining what kind of life this precious unborn child was going to be facing. As I talked to family members and a few close friends about this, they all said, "maybe this is the child you will one day adopt." I will admit, the thought has crossed my mind many times. My sister has stayed clean since the day she found out she was pregnant. She seems to really want to change her life. Right now, she is in another drug rehab that she put herself into because she was really wanting to go back to her life of drugs again. I was very proud of her for admitting herself in. We have been talking a lot and our relationship has really grown! I owe that all to the Lord! She wants to move in with us after the baby is born and try to "start over" We have agreed that she needs to get out of the town where she lived and decided to take her in. We are planning on adding on an addition to our house, b/c we have a 4 bedroom with 6 kids now and are still planning on adopting. That where the other worries come in. Can I handle my 6 children, my sister and baby and 1 or maybe 2 more children!?? I told my sister I would watch her baby while she worked. She also will not be able to drive for several years due to DUI and drug charges. (She has been in jail several times for selling) So I said I would take her back and forth to work. I WORRY that her old "friends" will find out where she is, and therefor put my family as risk. I WORRY i have got in way over my head!! We have already put our name in for a 2 and 5 yo sibling group to adopt. I have a 2,4,5,7,14,and 17 yo now!! I keep praying Lord don't give me more then I can handle! I am trusting in Him! 2Corinthians 12:9 says "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." And in Philippians 4:6-7 "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will gaurd your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." I'm praying that I don't adopt my sister's baby, because that will mean she has chosen a sinful lifestyle over a precious baby. My prayer is, that while she is living with us, I could show her the love of Christ through my actions, words and deeds. Worry and stress seem to go together! I have many stresses in my life, some listed above. Also, a 17 yo daughter that we allowed to start dating last month and her 14 yo brother that now feels like he has lost his best friend. A 2yo that will not stay in his own bed all night, a 7yo that wants to do all the things his teenage brother does,trying to find a new church home. The Lord knows when you need a good laugh. We were discussing churches that we wanted to go to the other night. My 14yo son wants a church where he knows kids in the youth group, my 17yo daughter wants a church with contempory music, my 4 yo pipes up and says he wants Chucky Cheese!! Sometimes throughout a hetic day, I feel like I have lost all my joy due to the stresses and worries in life. But in the evening, when I lay back and reflect on the days events, I realize just how much we have been blessed. I believe the Lord whats to bless us more then we could ever imagine, if we would just allow Him to control our lives and give Him our worries stresses of each day. After a day like today of following a new puppy all over the house cleaning up messes she has made, and cleaning up vomit my 14yo son made all over the b.r. floor, and chasing my 2yo around the house with a kleenex in my hand trying to wipe his running nose and all the other happenings that went on, I am so thankful there is a God in heaven who will take care of my worries for today and tomorrow if I will allow HIm. And I will surely give them ALL to Him! When you lay your head down tonight, I pray you can give it all to God and then fall asleep peacefully in the loving arms of our Creator! |
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