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Daddy on the Road, Mommy on the Run
November 5, 2006
At 4pm today, we sat huddling on bleachers watching our football team.
They were crying.
We were crying.
No championship, no great win.
An untimely loss.
We paid tribute to a 16 year old who had everything to live for, who'd been given a clean bill of health on Monday and went Home to Jesus in the early morning hours Thursday.
It is devastating.
This tiny school, made up of homeschooling families of all walks of life and all reasons for being there, has suffered 6 great losses in 5 years.
I have no response for all this. No answers, not even prayers, just tears and "let my words be few."
My heart has been so heavy for about a week now; this student's death and the raw hurts of his classmates, teachers, staff -- our whole little homeschooling family -- comes at a time when I'm already "feeling weak" though "walking strong."
But it's so, so hard not to live by my feelings.
What broke my heart the most was seeing my dear friends on that field, sitting with the team and the family, having lost their own son to senseless violence less than four months ago. Amazing people with a God-given strength to stand in the midst of their own pain and tragedy.
Lord, You are worthy to be praised! You are holy and sovereign, You are our very great reward. You know the end from the beginning, and You are precious Abba holding us close. Please dry this family's tears; please comfort our students and answer their questions with the peace and reality of Your presence. Please heal the hearts of the staff who long to be strength for these students but ache on their own as well. Please be so close to his friends, his parents, his brothers and sisters. Truly, Your ways are higher than ours and You are the Author and Perfector of our faith, and our lives. Jesus, once again, I repent of my selfish doubts and desire for comfort or explanation. Please heal my unbelief. I don't have to understand the reasons, but I long to understand the Redeemer. I do love You so! And I echo the honest prayer of the Redman's:
Blessed be Your name
In the land that is plentiful
Where the streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed be Your name
Every blessing You pour out, I'll
turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say...
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name
Every blessing You pour out, I'll
turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say...
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord Blessed be Your name
Every blessing You pour out, I'll
turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I'm gonna say...
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord Blessed be Your name
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That song ministers to me EVERY TIME I hear it/see it/sing it. What faith it builds up in my soul.
~Dawn C