Posted in School Day Reflection
For me being a homeschooling mother has revealed to me my extreme need for patience. I have been over and over again shown my sinful behavior grown from inpatience and a severe lack of self control. I daily wake up with the same thought in mind, to love my children with compassion, mercy, encouragement, joy and gentleness. I usually would do good until I got out the homeschool books and sat at the table with my 6 year old Superman. His lack of concentration and ability to apply himself would drive me to abandon very quickly my attempt to love him with compassion, mercy, encouragement, joy and gentleness... he had used all of them up in the first 5 minutes! He is a good kid and incredibly smart but for some reason when we would sit at the table or mention school I don't know where that little boy would go. I would think as I sat across the table from him "who is this kid... where did my son go..." seriously by the end of each session we both were fleeing the scene! Well this past week and a half I have learned something... hmmm I thought he was the one who was suppose to be learning :0). As I viciously attacked the sinful behaviour rooted from my lack of patience I noticed something, the kid across from me looked happy and like he was enjoying his work. I thought "this is going to work" and it did and still is. We have both been transformed. The most amazing thing for me as his mother/teacher is to watch him truly enjoying the time we had together and to watch his mind grow as he begins to let himself learn. I have learned how to be an encouragement to my son instead of a contant hindrance in his path to wisdom. I have learned to have fun and enjoy myself during this time I have with him and to enjoy watching him learn. I have learned to not take everything so seriously and loosen up a little with him. I have learned to have mercy on him when he can't get something the first, second, third, fourth, fifth, sixth and sometimes even seventh time and encourage him to keep trying. I have learned to experience the joy of persevering with my son to the end.
Lord continue to teach me new things transforming me daily closer to the image of your Son....
