Posting on my homeschool blog when I am no longer homeschooling my oldest is tough.  I've avoided it all summer because it makes my heart hurt.  So there.  No excuses.  All out in the open.  It wasn't my idea, either.  Just attempting to be the obedient wife (and not doing such a great job, I might add).   Details, details, I'm sure someone wants details.  It's been a long time coming, I suppose, but I am a mastermind when it comes to denial.  He wasn't enjoying anything, and I found myself angry much of the time.  And an angry mom isn't a very good mom.  He is now enrolled in 3rd grade in a tiny elementary school around the corner.  And he loves it.  I'm not saying that just to make myself feel better.  He honestly loves it.  He actually asked why he couldn't go on Sunday.  Of course, his pleasure comes not from academics, but from the social scene that he now reigns.  He has been invited to too many playdates to mention, and 2 birthday parties over the past weekend.  Is this how it all works now?  I found myself at one of the aforementioned parties, babbling about my fears at how he might do academically since he's never been in a classroom setting and never taken a test, and I realized I was just getting blank stares.  I had lost them.  Does everyone seems a bit distrustful of homeschoolers, or is it just the unknown that freaks them out?  No, that 's just my paranoia.  And the fact that we are straddling the fence, with one in public school and 2 at home, makes it even tougher for people to get.  I know, I know, I have to do what works for my family.  But this isn't easy.  Not by a long shot.  Don't let anyone ever tell ya' otherwise.