Why am I running after the heartbreaker?

Why am I standing beside death's door?

Why am I looking in the immoral window?

Why are my eyes not bright like they were?

Has my flame gone out?

Have I let it die?

Was it really worth giving up my life?

Was worth the pain that I went through,

to end end up like this, and not like you?

Should I have run?

Run from everyone?

.........even you?

Why was it so hard to stay by your side?

And let you hold me in your arms?

Why did I say goodbye?

You said you still invite me to come and rest in you,

But my mind is screaming you don't mean it,

and I have been let down by imposters of you.

Shady and smooth they came in,

thinking they were the ones to come in.

But they wore masks that shined a false light,

the one I had been searching for all through this night.

I was so desperate for hope and desperate for light,

that I saw them and lost my sight.

I should have stayed by your side,

I should not have said good bye.

I shoudl have taken your warning to heart,

maybe then I wouldn't have played my heart.

And now as I lay dying,

I pray you would resurrect,

the little girl inside me,

that wants only one thing..............

Freedom.

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Posted by ridiculousmom

Hey, That was really a great writing. You remind me so much of myself as a teenager. I can tell you this life does get easier. When you are a deep thinker and you feel things very deeply life can seem to make no sense and there seems there is no justice or sometimes truth for that matter. The answer I found is to give of myself to others. I mean really give, and you will find happiness and freedom.
hugs,
mom2many

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