Feb. 6, 2007
Prayer
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Its the seventh week of the year. I have struggled in my daily "rule", still committed to arising before the dawn though it is winter. While I don't understand batting averages, I am maybe at .50. When I would sit down in couch corner, despite the trappings of the winter fire and cup of tea, the Book of Common Prayer, new devotional and my journal, my heart struggled to connect. Thankfully, I've been through enough dry seasons in the past I've learned to not beat myself up, spiritually gyrate in an attempt to manipulate God's presence, but just wait. This morning I picked up last year's devotional that fed me every day, but in my heart of hearts, knew it was last year's manna. Then I remembered a little book I bought over a year ago, sitting on the shelf. This is it. I don't know how I knew, I just knew. Spiritual disciplines is the theme this year, for my children and I. This book is going to help us. There are twelve disciplines listed and twelve months of the year. I know we're on month 2, but I'm ok with skipping ahead. This month's discipline is prayer. Last night I attended a prayer meeting for a dear friend who is suffering. Mentioning only as an observation, not judgment, three days after it happened, 15-20 of us attended. Last night, three months later, there was only 5 of us, with only two of us having been there both times. What is it about life that so easily squeezes out prayer? This is the month to row upstream and figure it out, with the children in the boat. I hope to consistently share how its going. |
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Feb. 9, 2007 - so glad you're back
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Posted by doodah