April's Ramblings - Anger and Unforgiveness and God's Grace

May. 26, 2007 - Anger and Unforgiveness and God's Grace

The past week and a half I have been dealing with a great deal of anger. Because of all this anger I realized I was harboring a lot of unforgiveness. It is easy to say, "I forgive so and so for so and so", but it is not so easy to do that. I did not even realize the unforgiveness was there until now.

When you are a child of God, and you truly want to seek His ways He will not leave to blind to your glaring sins. If I were in God's position, I would have long ago written me off. He is merciful.

Last night and this morning I realized I have not reacted in a Godly manner when issues arise. I allow anger to take over--it consumes me. This morning I read the verse "pray without ceasing." And it was like God just turned the light on! I had been searching for away to remove these angry thoughts from my head and find away to forgive. How can I be angry if I am praying? How can I not forgive someone I am praying for?

Do I think it is wrong to address issues that arise?? No! Do I think it is wrong to judge a situation--1 Thess. 5:21-22 says "Test everything. Hold on to the good. Avoid every kind of evil." But to hold on to the hurt and anger is sin. 1Thess. 5: 16 and 17 says, "Be joyful always. Pray without ceasing." How can I obey this if I do not forgive and move on.

As I sat reading and thinking and praying I realized I react with anger and unforgiveness when I am hurt. Not only is it so very wrong--it is destructive to my relationship to God (I am not talking about my salvation)--it is destructive physically and a waste of precious time.

So my game plan is to write "pray without ceasing" on my window above my kitchen sink. If I am seeking after God then I will not be wasting my time with anger and unforgiveness. God's grace is awesome.

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May. 28, 2007 - Totally relate

I have been struggling with anger for so long! Little peices get dealt with and another issue is put before me to deal with. I know God's a gentleman and won't give me too much to deal with at once, but sometimes I feel like, "God, why can't you just give it to me all at once and get the pain over with?" The most recent was dealing with forgiving my step mother. She had an affair with my preacher dad and he was kicked out of his calling for it. Then my mom kicked him out and she became my stepmother. I didn't even know I held so much intense hatred toward her, I had tried to hide it so long. But recently I committed to forgiving her by not holding to her account the things I misunderstand as being insults or rude words. That's the best I can do for now, and hope our relationship will continue to improve throughout our lives.

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Jun. 4, 2007 - Untitled Comment

Thanks for being so honest. May God bless you as you seek to pray without ceasing. May it be a sweet time of fellowship with the Lord throughout the day!
Elizabeth

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