I am in a season of re-education.  God is showing me how He wants me at His feet listening and learning and not finding my security in the world's system for education.  It is not an easy road but yet it is one that has been in the back of my head for several years.

I have been re-reading some books by Marilyn Howshall and this time I was really ready to hear.  The biggest thing I gleaned through her writings as well as my time with the Lord is that I must learn to listen and follow Him whether anyone else agrees or not.  He does not ask me to do what I shouldn't or what would be detrimental for my kids.  In fact, He actually knows what is Best.

It sounds so silly but it is so profound if I can embrace it.  I asked Him to show me my schedule for the year and He refused.  I asked and begged for it but He shared with me that it would become my god.  That I would be frustrated and stressed if I didn't reach that schedule and I would feel failure. I would miss the point of listening and trusting Him daily and in turn teaching my kids to do the same.

Wow.  This is such a trusting process.  Now He has allowed me to get some ideas for routines but being sure that I understand the routine may change anytime He deems it and some interuptions will be His leading.

Dying to self is not easy, but necessary and in the end....freedom.

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Posted by SandBetweenMyToes

Wow. Thanks for this post. I was feeling down (lazy, doubtful, confused) tonight after reading another mom's blog. She described herself in the past as being lazy, self centered, etc. Then when she described the behaviors, she was describing ME! Why do I continually look to other people and measure myself against them. Maybe those behaviors were lazy for her. Maybe God does want a strict heavy schedule for her. Why can't I accept that He doesn't have that for me, and that's okay?
Well, since this is your blog and post, not mine, I guess I'll hush now! : )
From one "homeschooling by trust daily" mom to another~ I hope you're having a blessed week.
Thank again,
Letitia

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Posted by carabara

Thanks for the comment!
It was much appreciated, and I thank you for taking the time to write such a nice note.

I apologize for not getting back sooner, but I was at our county fair all week (I'm in 4-H and show animals)
so I wasn't home at all!
thanks again!
Cara

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Posted by 40winkzzz

Hey, thanks for stopping by my blog! I enjoyed your comment. I wrote that post very late at night (not unusual for me, actually) when i was very tired, and this morning in the shower I was thinking, "You know, I hope that post I wrote last night wasn't stupid. I'd better go and read it." :-) If you liked that one, make sure you read my post from a week or two ago in which I have a conversation with my printer...

Well, I have just read over 2 years' worth of your blogposts--- all on your front page! :-) Hmmm. Well, at least you are not letting your blog take undue priority in your life! (Did you notice in my post that one of the things that "needs attention" was "the blog"? I spend less time on it than I'd like to, and way more time than I probably should.)

I liked this post, btw. Well... liked but *didn't* like, if you know what I mean. It was good stuff that my flesh really didn't want to hear.

Since you don't post often, I probably won't make it a point to stop by, so when you *do* post, if you think of it, come by and leave me a comment-- then I'll come over.

Gee, I think I have now written more on your blog than you do in a whole month. :-)

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