So, I've known for a long time that I am addicted to food.  I have been addicted to food since I was a teenager.  Although I have never really struggled with a weight problem, I am definitely an overeater.  I know so many people that this is a struggle for them as well.  I find that I eat no matter what mood I'm in.  If I'm happy, I want to eat.  If I'm sad, let's eat!  If I'm bored, let's eat!!  (This is a huge one).  What is the appeal of food?  Why is it such a struggle to conquer what we put in our mouths and how often we put food in our mouths?  Even after I have eaten a full meal, I get up and go into the kitchen because I just "want" something.  I have had periods in my life when I have victory over this, but then I just fall back into it.  I realize that there is a connection between being disciplined in this area in my life and being disciplined in other areas of my life.  I want desperately to become self-controlled in many areas of my life, including food addiction. 

I was watching a show the other night called The Half Ton Man.  In this show, one of the doctors said that food addiction is something that we can never have victory over.  I will not accept that as the answer.  I know that in His power, God can, through His Spirit, not only give me self-control but give me victory over food!  There is nothing that is impossible with God.

I do not have a lot of extra pounds that I would like to lose (although there are some), and I don't say that to be insensitive.  I am still very young and active, but I know that one of these days, I will not be able to maintain the amount of acitivity that I do and that my metabolism will slow down.  So, before all that happens, I want to be in control of my eating!!  If anyone is reading this, please pray for me.  I'm also hoping that if I keep a log of my journey to self-control that it will keep my a little more accountable. 

I'll keep you posted.  Today I am fasting, and have almost blown it several times.  Isn't that pathetic?  I can't go one day without eating?  I know I can physically, but I keep trying to rationalize to myself.  My son didn't finish his lunch today, so I sat there thinking, "Isn't it worse to throw food away than to continue this fast I put myself on?"  But I was reminded to keep my word to the Lord.  I asked the Lord to give me strength throughout this day, through the many temptations, so I didn't eat the leftover lunch.  Well, I"ll end now, and keep you all posted.  Thanks for listening!!