Moon Meanderings

It's not TOTALLY my fault!!

Did you wonder if I was ever going to get back on here!  I am having a computer problem!  For some reason my computer is keeping me from posting an entry.  The title can be put up, but nothing else!  I have been waiting for Nate to help me with it, and for the last month he has been extremely busy, so every evening when I would think of doing this he has been downstairs working.  Things finally let up last week and I was able to drag him away from the NCAA tournament to help, but so far he hasn't been able to figure out why it is happening either!  So for now I am on one of his office computers, not as convenient, but I'm realizing will allow me to post!

Today is my birthday -- I'm 35!!  Am I middle aged now??  Nate informed me last night that the girls and he wanted to make breakfast in bed for me, but realized that would probably just hold me captive in my bed for several hours!  So he said maybe they would just make breakfast for me and if I felt like getting up I could sneak downstairs and do some things so they could still surprise me.  Sure enough, it is after 8 now and no one was stirring!  I definitely don't have the problem of early risers!!

My birthday makes me think about my mom.  How much I've changed and grown since she died!  I don't know if she gets to see that and sort of be a part of that right now or not, but I've definitely got a lot of conversations stored up for when we are together in heaven.  Quite honestly, I still really miss her.  The Lord has blessed me tremendously  . . . I find myself this morning in a mixture of tears of sadness and tears of utter joy and thankfulness.  The Lord has spared me from so much and blessed me with so much during my lifetime it is rather overwhelming at times.

I guess it is an appropriate feeling as we think about Easter -- the awfulness of what Christ had to suffer on our behalf (as we've been reading about Jesus' final days these past couple weeks Kaelyn makes it hit home as she exclaims "NO" everytime something bad happens to Jesus, and then follows it with "That bad guy!") and yet the life that we are given and don't deserve because of what He did.  The older girls and I were talking about a song that we often have playing in the background that talks of Jesus' death as a "beautiful, scandalous night."  It is sort of hard to comprehend how something can be so awful and yet wonderful at the same time.  I think I tend to think about one or the other.  But they are both very real emotions in the midst of our story.

Happy Birthday!

11:07 AM, Mar. 22, 2008 .. Posted by AnneShaw

Happy Birthday! I thought of you this morning when I saw the date on my computer! I hope your breakfast, or rather, brunch (lunch?), is wonderful. I know your mom would be very proud of the woman you are and are becoming. She was a wonderful woman and there is much of her in you.
Hugs and happy birthday. Any special dates or desserts planned for today?
I'm so glad to see another post on here. I was wondering what had happened to you! :)

Happy Birthday!

12:44 PM, Mar. 22, 2008 .. Posted by Christina Hitchcock

Happy Birthday Kara! I too, thought of you this morning. Turning 35 is a little weird. I realized I could remember my mom when she was 35 and now that's how old I am. Strange!

Actually, I've been thinking about your mom recently, too. I always think about her at Easter because it was her death that made me search the Scriptures for an answer to death. And that answer is resurrection. I know the song you're talking about and have always really liked it myself. I was just thinking that the day of Christ's return and the resurrection of his church will be, even more so, a beautiful, scandalous eternal day. Beautiful because all will be made new, and all manner of things will be made well, and scandalous because all the wisdom of the world will be turned on its head by the foolishness of God (I Corinthians 1).

Have a great day! I hope Z learns to sleep in like your girls someday!

Christina

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2:02 PM, Mar. 24, 2008 .. Posted by Anonymous

Happy Birthday!! I know we've been playing phone tag lately, so until I talk to you I'll just say that I miss her too!

Tesha

HB

8:38 AM, Mar. 30, 2008 .. Posted by Anonymous

Dearest Kara, Happy Birthday - very belatedly! I trust this will be a wonderful year for you. How are you feeling? When is your due date?

I, too, often think of your Mom. Just earlier in March when Nancy, Meg and I were in PGH having a little reunion and visiting Mom we talked of how much we missed her and what fun these little get-togethers would have been with her along too. There's Grammy - 90 year old! And your Mom taken so young. (so, Yes, 35 is still super young!) God's ways are mysterious. I'm glad you still miss our dear Esther and grieve her loss. I do too. Perhaps grief is the mirror image of joy, just the image turned backwards. So much more to say....I'll condense it to...I love you, dear Kara.
Happy Birthday.
Aunt Kathy

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, DEAR KARA MARIE!

10:05 PM, Mar. 31, 2008 .. Posted by Anonymous

I kept just getting Jenna's post until Aunt Kathy told me there was a new one, and I just hadn't been clicking on it or something. I can hardly believe you (and Christina) are 35!! But it's true that it is quite young. I was thinking of the picture of "we girls" at your wedding, including your mom of course. I realized that I am now considerably older than Aunt Nancy was in that picture. That sobered me! Of course, I frequently think of your mom as well and miss her. I think often how she would have loved her grandchildren, but it could well be that she is aware and observes them anyway. Who knows! Anyway, lots of love...Auntie Meg

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10:36 PM, Apr. 17, 2008 .. Posted by Gayle

Happy Belated Birthday! I stumbled onto your blog through Anne's blog. Check ours out--gayle-journeytofamily.blogspot.com

I so appreciated hearing your inner struggles of missing your mom-- You certainly can rest that you will see her again! It is hard to know God's sovereign plan and yet, we know it.

Love

Gayle