Jun. 22, 2006 - Wow, how time flies
I can't bring myself to believe that its been a month since I've last written. Do you know how often I've mentally written entries? It is unbelievable!
June 7 was Christopher's 10th birthday. I had pictured a beautiful entry with pictures of my boy as a newborn. Shoot, I even considered scanning in a scrapbooking page of my thoughts upon his arrival. Did I hook up all the necessary equipment to create a stunning blog entry? Nope, not at all. I had quite the wake up call as his 10th birthday approached. I couldn't believe that 10 years has passed so quickly. I wonder what I've done with that time and if I've made a difference in the man he'll become one day. Oh sure, I've made a difference, but is it good? Will he love the Lord? Will he be the godly man I envision him to be? How can I, as his mother, teach him to be a righteous man? The days are slipping quickly by. In 10 years he could be married. I want him to be spared the heartache of a godless self-centered marriage. I don't want sin to have a stronghold on him. I want his heart and mind to be pure as he enters into his marriage. My son has spurred me on in this spiritual journey. He has caused me to be on my face before the throne of God. I wonder if I'd still be married or walking with Jesus if I had not looked into the face of my sleeping infant 10 years ago and hope that he wouldn't turn out like me or my husband. The only answer is Jesus. Only He can change what was and make it beautiful. Even now, Christopher encourages me in my walk with Jesus. He is quick to forgive me when I fall short (which is numerous times each day), he is quick to pray for me when I'm in pain (whether physical or emotional), and he is quick to encourage me when I improve in something. This encouragement is from the Lord, he didn't learn it from me. Father, thank you for hearing my cry concerning my children.
Speaking of children, the relinquishment papers have been signed for the younger 3. The whole adoption process will still take about a year. I am thankful, but still cautious. There are so many things to consider. I need to figure out how much contact the kids will have with their biological mom (my niece) and their grandma (my sister). My niece wants a post adoption contract that states that she can have the kids every other weekend. I'm not in this to co-parent with her. She wants us to adopt her children. That's what we're doing. We will adopt them and be their full-time parents. I don't mind if she has some sort of visitation with them, but the kids seem to fall apart after the visits. I've never done this whole foster care/adoption thing before. I'm so thankful that we have 2 couples in our church who have gone this road before me. There are so many times I feel at a loss with these kids. One has been diagnosed by her therapist with RAD, which is an attatchment disorder. How do I balance psychology with the Bible?
The weather is nice here in the valley of Oregon. The kids are in the sprinkler and planning on having a water gun fight. Water is expensive here, but yet cheap entertainment for the kids. I am so thankful for the back yard, even if it is small. There is a big field out back that the children love to explore. It is such an incredible blessing to have room for them to run around.
What is that I hear? Oh, its the pile of dishes and laundry calling my name. Bummer. Maybe I'll check my email instead!
Comments
Jun. 22, 2006 - Untitled Comment
Posted by Rebeca
Happy Birthday to Criffy!
Hi DarDar, give my love to all the kiddos. Did you have a good visit with Sunny and David. It was fun to see them again. It's been ages.
Love you lots,
Beca
Jun. 25, 2006 - Untitled Comment
Posted by Anonymous
Happy 10th birthday Christopher!
We hope to see you all soon!
Love the Magee's
Aug. 28, 2006 - Hey Dar!
Posted by AsLivingStones
I'm here at homeschoolblogger. You are my only friend, so far! Time for an update, you know! ;)
Cammie
