Abandoned to His Will...finding the Heart of God

Nov. 1, 2006 - Hello, again!

If you read my last post you would've seen that I had great plans to improve myself. It didn't quite work out like I had planned. Somehow it is easier to just numb my mind than to renew it. But that isn't who I want to be. I really need Jesus. I need Him more and more. More of Him and less of ME. I think I attempted to achieve my convictions in the strength of my own flesh. I wasn't properly dressed for such a battle.  Paul tells the Ephesians to put on the whole armor of God. He encourages them to gird their waist with truth, put on the breastplate of righteousness, shod our feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace, take up the shield of faith (that will quench all the fiery darts of the evil one),  put on the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the spirit and to PRAY ALWAYS.  I did this a little bit at first. I had a few really great days. . .but then, I began to look at the things around me. I lost focus of the eternal.

This afternoon I called my friend in Maine, after finding her house on Google Earth. We spoke for awhile about our lives. She asked about the kids, I told her of my trials. It was a conversation that really got me thinking. I can't even specifically remember things that she said, but I do remember her quoting Scripture to me and praying with me. She made me want to be a better friend, a friend like her. i always feel a bit dorky if I start spouting of Scripture when a friend is telling me their woes. I do pray for people and even with people, but I'm not quick to just pray for the person right then.  I want to edify my friends and pray with them. I want to ease their burden. I want them to never feel alone in their ordeals. I need to really know the word of God. Commit it to memory. Dwell on it. Seek for Him. Rely on Him. I worry to much about doing things the right way. I started to read a book recenly on prayer. It said something about 'more effective' prayer. Reading just one sentence made me feel like how I prayed wasn't good enough, that I had to pray better or follow some formula. Mind you, I didn't finish reading the book so I don't know the point of it.  But I remember that was the day I started to be afraid of praying. Silly, isn't it? I don't think prayer has to be any certain way.

It is so late. I just wanted to stop by for a bit and let all 3 readers know what I'm up to!

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Nov. 2, 2006 - Untitled Comment

Posted by Rebeca

Well, hello from reader #1! (I'm only calling myslef that lofty title since I'm the first to comment!) Thanks for sharing DarDar. I love you, and I was actually praying for you this morning. Let's talk soon. I might be coming up that way next Friday and would like to see you too.
I love you my friend.
BecaBBB

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Nov. 7, 2006 - pray on

Posted by Rolea

I do so understand !! We take things that are so very simple and turn them into heavy burdens - ugh!
All He wants us to do is simply talk to Him, that's all.
I bet you the prayers that we pray, that we think are so dumb or so meaningless, are the ones He is so pleased to receive and to answer, if only we had the faith of a mere mustard seed just think what our conversation with the Most High, our heavenly Father, would be like; our Abba is just waiting - arms open, for us to come to Him with our heart and nothing else.
It couldn't be more simple...I am challenged in this area, keep praying how ever you pray sister, and i will include you in mine.

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Dec. 4, 2006 - Umm, HELLOOOOOOOO!

Posted by Anonymous

Now, I know you still exist out there. You didn't disappear into thin air or fall off the face of the earth. Do you plan to update your blog one of these days? I mean, it's not like you have a house full of kids to deal with or anything. Sheesh!
-Rachel

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