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Dec. 4, 2008

Hello Friends. I Am Not Dead...

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...although I feel like it about 50% of the time. Well, maybe 60%.

First of all, I have to say that I have been truly overwhelmed by the sincere outpouring of concern and prayers that so many of you have sent our way. I have heard the phrase "felt the prayers" before, but I don't think I truly understood it until the past couple of weeks. Even in the most confusing and helpless moments of this trying time, I have felt an indescribable peace, and I know it is because many, many of our brothers and sisters in Christ were praying for us and Baby Jack. So, from the very depths of my being I thank you. You definitely made a difference.

Jackson is doing really well since we've been home. He's been to his regular pediatrician already and everything has chekced out fine. The only issue left to be resolved is the PDA they discovered in the NICU has yet to close (click the link if you're wondering what the heck I'm talking about). This is fairly normal, especially in smallish babies and most evnetually close on their own. We have to go to a pediatric cardiologist next week just to have it re-checked to make sure it's progressing. His doctor also wants to monitor his weight with frequent trips to her office, but I'm not concerned about this as I KNOW how much he's eating. He's going to be out of his preemie clothes in no time. I also have to keep him secluded as much as possible. Because he is so small, an infection could be particularly detrimental to him. So we keep our hands fairly doused with Germ-x, and I'm getting accustomed to my life as a hermit.

Unfortunately, I am not going to be able to get back into my regular blogging habits for a while....maybe not until after the first of the year. I'm just hoping that I will still have readers by that point. And as much as I'd like to, I just can't visit your blogs yet on a regualr basis either. For one reason, the week we came home from the hospital our main computer crashed. Big D is in the process of trying to weed things out, and until he does I'm stuck using an old laptop of his. I can't upload and post any pictures and such because all of the programs that I know how to use are on my computer. Also, as you can well imagine, Baby Jack is consuming every scrap of free time I ever had. He is a really good, sweet, content baby, but he's utterly and completely helpless. Somehow I had forgotten that part. Also he's not really nursing well yet, so on top of all the other baby things he requires, I have to pump, which all in all probably takes another approximate two hours total. I'm looking forward to the day that he has the whole nursing thing down pat because I really, really hate pumping. I'm also unbelievably tired most of the time. I still can't figure out how a person can sleep and sleep and sleep and still be utterly exhausted, but it seems to be the case for both myself and the baby.

Eventually I'd really like to write about our whole experience in more depth and detail, but for now I'm just going to have to wait until things get a little more normal around here....whatever that means. In the meantime, if you haven't already, please check out Big D's photography site. (Click on FAMILY, then on JACKSON). He chronicled our whole experience in photos, and I think it does a beautiful job of telling the story.

Thanks again for your friendship and prayers. It has meant the world to me!

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Dec. 4, 2008 - Untitled Comment

Posted by teachingmisssmartypants

Glad to hear Jack is doing well. I'll keep him my prayers. Before I clicked on the link, I was wondering why on earth such a tiny baby would have a Palm Pilot, LOL!

I totally understand about pumping drama. When Eliza was born, I was also pumping for about 2 hours a day, plus my dishwasher was dead. Pretty much all of the time Eliza slept I was either pumping or doing dishes. It will get better, I promise!