Booboo finished her testing today.  We will have to wait about 2 weeks for the report to be completed.

The last two sessions focused on memory.  Booboo complained that these tests were very hard.  Before we left today the clinicial asked to speak privately to ask a couple of questions about Booboo's behavior.  She is having major anger issues, making our home a virtual powder keg of tension.

My last question for her was more of a plea.  After four years of listening to the school tell me there is nothing wrong with Booboo I asked if she was under the same impression, or if she saw some legitimate concerns.  Without giving me any details she did say that she saw some patterns that were of concern.

Relief and anxiety filled me.  Of course I want my child to be fine, but I feel very strongly that something IS wrong.  So while it is a relief to find that someone "in the know" has validated my concerns, it deeply troubles my heart that there is indeed a problem.

She did not elaborate on specific concerns.  Scores still need to be interpretted and compared.  Everything still needs to be reviewed by the Psychologist in charge and then a formal report and/or diagnosis will be given.  (It is a training clinic and the tests are given by the students.) 

My mind runs wild with possibilities.  Is my child low IQ?  Is she dyslexic?  ADHD?  Some other disability I haven't even considered?  How will we remediate?  Can we afford treatment?  Will she respond to it?  Can she be helped?  Will there be a happy ending? 

Of course all that can be done now is wait, pray, and trust that God will not give us more than we can deal with.  To anyone reading please say a prayer for peace over our family.  Right now I feel like we're sinking in quick sand.

Thank you for taking the time to read my blog. 

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Posted by abidinglove

Hi Jackie, I certainly will be praying for you all. God never gives us more than we can handle with His help. He obviously has faith in you and confidence that He is going to grow you all in a special way through this experience - He says in Jer 29:11-14 that He has a special plan for you, to prosper you and not to harm you. Seek Him as He is the only one who really knows what your child needs and He will tell you. I have found the two books on Parenting By The Spirit by Sally Hohnberger particularly helpful: www.empoweredlivingministries.org. I would be happy to send you both if you just let me know. God bless you my dear sister. In Him, Colleen

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Posted by abidinglove

I hope that you do manage to get the books - they have just been so tremendous - let me know if you don't end up with them soon. Yes, I am really in South Africa! I was born here and my ancestors came here four generations ago from both the UK seeing freedom of religion and from the USA as missionaries. I have only spent 14months living in the USA and what a blessing that was - we do miss it. In Him, Colleen

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Posted by 3menandalittlelady

And we know that all things work together for good to them that love Him! Just rest in Him right now-it will all work out for good! It sounds like you are one step closer to knowing what needs to be done! That is a blessing, even though you may have a lot to deal with! Sending up prayers for your family!
Beth

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Posted by ADDMama

I *will* be praying for your family! He works all things together for good. Maybe I missed it somewhere in one of the posts - are you still considering homeschooling?

This detective work is so tricky! I've been through it so many times as a teacher, and now as a mom. But God is so faithful to provide what we need when we need it! Praying for your peace while He reveals things in His time!

In Christ alone,
Kari
Blog Team, ChristianWomenOnline.net

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Posted by abidinglove

Hi Jackie, I was wondering how you are doing since your last post and stopped by to say hi. May you be blessed today. ~ Colleen ~

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Posted by scarver

I just wanted to let you know you are not alone in the anxiety and especially the relief. You don't want anything to be wrong, but it is a relief when someone validates the worries you have had over years because you know your child better than anyone and also that you are not crazy! It sounds odd to people who have not been there that you are relieved to find something is wrong, but I understand that it means you are really relieved because now you can work towards a solution! My dd has some speech issues and over the years I have known deep down that it was not something to just "outgrow" and that no one was listening. We have finally found someone to listen and validate our concerns, and I know what a relief that is! I will pray for you because I know the need!

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