My Journey Toward A Trusting Heart

Monday Musings

its been a few days since I've been on here...i've been preoccupied with looking for writing opportunities...its exhausting. mentally and emotionally.

am I cut out for this? I don't know. today, I don't know. My brain hurts. I can't seem to get anything (I think is) worthwhile "on paper." It all seems pointless.

I sort of feel like Solomon, "vanity, vanity, all is vanity" and "worthless, worthless, everything is worthless."   I think its that manic side of me coming out...maybe I really am bi-polar and have never been diagnosed.

thank goodness I don't have to write to make a living. Mark takes care of that....

But I do think there's something in there that needs letting out...but maybe just a little at a time. I think I'm trying to do too much at once. Typical of me. Exhausting.

I run gung-ho out the chute, and then poop out. I need to learn to tame my tendency to sprint, into one of distance running...I'm not a sprinter...I can never get to the finish line -- never complete anything. But I keep banging my head against the wall, trying to do it anyway, knowing its futile. I must go for the distance...and PACE myself. I'm sure the journey will be much sweeter..not easy, probably, but sweeter.

thanks for hearing me out on this...esp you, Mrs. Nott. I know YOU'LL understand...and will pray for me.

it does not ALL have to be done TODAY. Or even THIS WEEK. But do it I will...in due time.

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5:04 PM, Jun. 5, 2006 .. Posted by CreativeHomeschooling

I too am someone who sprints out of the starting gate and then get so burned out I want to quit...sometimes I do quit. My parents have nicked named me "the five minute girl". I am no long a girl but nothing else has changed in that phrase. Good luck on you writing. :)

Jennie von Eggers
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I am NOT Mrs. Nott....

6:48 PM, Jun. 14, 2006 .. Posted by julie

That's my mother-in-law....!!!

Say Mrs. Nott out loud...what does it sound like, huh? Huh? Mrs. Snott....

Ha ha! Yes, I know what you're talking about and yes, you do need to give yourself a break...pace it, enjoy it, savor it, get that little notebook...do you have it yet?

Stop striving .... rest... sit... listen to what He's saying (and has said) to you and then just type it out.... God will provide (and has already!) the opportunities HE wants for you...