My Journey Toward A Trusting Heart

A Ten-Year Celebration (of sorts)

We are on the threshold of it being TEN YEARS since Mike passed away. Sometimes it seem unreal that that much time has passed. Other days it seems like just last week...and especially right now, as I'm digging through those old emails -- both sent and received before, during, and after his Home-going.

It really dredges up so many feelings...I've laughed over some, and cried over others. I am SO very thankful my friends had the foresight to keep my emails. I just never thought about it at that time, but someone suggested I keep them. To that point I hadn't, and so then was frantically trying to find someone who had...and I know for sure that a friend in St. Joseph, Salli Freudenthal, had kept most of them...so she graciously sent them back to me; I copied them, and that's what I'm digging thru these days.

I'm finally writing The Book. Right now my focus is just getting it together enough to send a copy to Mike's mom and Dad on this 10th anniversary. I feel it'll be meaningful to them...I wish $$ were no object, then I could afford to make enough copies for Mike's sister and brothers, and the girls. So, I'm praying about that.

I'm also praying about moving toward getting it published 'for real.' I may have to send out a survey to find out who would buy it. I think I'd have plenty of takers, but the financial outlay is pretty great, and I just don't know....I'm talking about 'self-publishing" or "Print-On-Demand." There seem to be a few good companies out there, but we just don't have the cash. Wish I knew someone rich who would loan me the $ on speculation...at least interest free until we recouped the investment by selling the book -- even for what it costs to do it. Pipe-dreams...but I know, too, that God COULD do that if He saw fit.

Guess I need to pray about that one a little more, eh?

The other thing is, I'd like to find the intestinal fortitude to approach a 'real' publisher. I just don't know if there's a market out there for personal stories...what do you think??

and I've also thought about doing an "E-Book." Seems to be a hot thing right now...but who would read it?

Anyway, if you are reading this, will you pray about this with me? I don't know where to start, and I want to do it right and with class.

So, best wishes for a grand day...