My Journey Toward A Trusting Heart

the boat is floundering on the creek rocks

its been a challenging week for me...at least in the weight-loss dept. My brain is on ice with all that for some reason.

We were out of town -- when that happens, my whole mojo goes on vacation. I can't eat right, I don't exercise...its like my whole resolve goes on vacation...and boy is it nearly IMPOSSIBLE to get back on track. In fact, I'm so off track that I think I'll skip my WW meeting tomorrow morning. I just can't bear to see the truth reflected on the scale.

I bought a new book, "Cardio Free Diet" -- I'm just reading it so I can't say much yet, but I'm looking for alternatives to the endless walking I've been doing. It seems to be doing NO GOOD at all, and I'm hopelessly discouraged.

The authors claims that strength-training is the only way to go for weight loss -- PERMANENT weight loss. I do ahve some of the equipment to get started, and I can do anything 3x/week...for only 20 mins each time...so I'm going to give it a go. he claims you'll see results in two weeks. I sure wuold love to think so...

What is wrong with me?? That I can't keep a positive mindset about this whole thing? My walk this morning was just plain bad. I did not enjoy one step of it. Not even with the thoughts that I CAN walk...not even that made me feel better.

Wha-wha-whaaaaaaaaa.....sorry, Friends.

The house is coming along. slow but sure. mark is on the roll w/ getting the remainder of the kitchen tiled this evening, then grout tomorrow. Friday the carpet is installed so we have to have the kitchen ready to the point where we can move all the LR furniture into there. Its such a mess...but once we get the carpet in, then I'll finish the painting...we don't want to finish that until the carpet is done in case the walls get scuffed....once the painting is done (probably this weekend), then we'll begin moving stuff out of the LR to the garage...we're having a moving sale next weekend to get rid of some furntiure I feel we don't need or have outlived its style.

We think we're on to a house in Indy; new construction...but we have to get this one sold, and be patient while the new house is built. If we go with a new one -- rather than the in-process "spec" home we found this weekend, we'll have to wait until Sept to move in...this complicates things w/ Kate for school...not sure how we'll work all that out. Hate to move to an apt for only a few weeks...so we will see. If we go w/ the spec home, it'll be ready in July...that's pretty do'able. But the other house is a little roomier...so I don't know how we'll go.

I've done virtually nothing formal w/ School since we started our remodel...I feel that Colton is really missing out...I'll be so happy to have a school/craft/office room in our new home...where everything can be left out, or at least 'handy' from day to day. And to be able to have my craft/sewing stuff at the ready is exciting. I hate dragging it all out to do a project.

anyway, I'm a downer today...hope things turn around. By tomorrow morning!!