My Journey Toward A Trusting Heart

I guess we ARE moving!

Last month I mentioned our current discussion regarding moving back to Indy. We have concluded that YES, we are doing this.

and I mentioned Kate's seeming lack of enthusiasm for this...and my desperate prayers that somehow God would move that mountain. (Yes, that subject was at the top of my list in those early mornings holding my rock!)...and you know what?....HE HAS.

Not with flashing lightening or peals of thunder...but in His typical (for me) gentle way, He has moved in Kate's heart. I knew He would, and I knew she would let Him. And thankfully, there have been several people (including a few of her peers) who have spoken God's word to her in recent days. Enough so that she seems to actually be excited about it all.

We were there last weekend. Mark and I spent most of Saturday house-hunting. Out of about 16 homes, we found MAYBE one that would meet our needs. Thing is, what we feel are our NEEDS far exceeds our willingness to cough up the cash.

Part of the appeal of moving is the reduced cost of living. Housing/taxes are cheaper, gas is cheaper, etc. I don't really want to make a "lateral" move -- keeping our expenses the same...meaning, spend more for a house, thus keeping our mortgage pmts the same...and Mark is a 15-yr guy. He HATES paying interest, so he's not too gung ho on getting a 30 yr and having to pay more interest on the front end than he would w/ a 15 yr. I truly appreciate that, but it does not necessarily help our "now" bottom line.

But I'm confident we'll find something. Its another one on the list of my ROCK praying.

Back to Kate...her weekend in Indy was good, too. She connected w/ some good friends, and gave herself to ministry on Sunday morning.

Our 'destiny church', "Genesis Church" is a young church...maybe 4-5 years. They have been meeting in an elemetary school, setting up WEEKLY -- EVERYTHING needed to have church: chairs, stage, instruments, kids church/nursery area. Its called "Portable Church" -- a real company that provides 'church in a box', literally. So, every Friday, dedicated volunteers descend on Carey Ridge Elementary school and give about 1-1/2 to 2 hours to setting up for Sunday. Then every Sunday, following the 11am service, another group sticks around to help put it all back into the boxes.

On Sunday morning, Kate helped with Kids church. She ran the powerpoint, helped w/ sound, and led worship. One of the adult leaders told me she did an awesome job! Of course she did. That's what Kate does, and she's great at it!

Her time here has been preparing her for being part of something greater than she even knows. I believe that full well. I'm praying she will come to see that what she enjoys here, at Christ Community Church (where it seems that money is no object) -- where there is state-of-the-art everything, space, a program and PEOPLE, that once upon a time, 20+ years ago, CCC was just like Genesis Church. Someone else gave time, money and talent -- sacrificing some things so that kids like Kate could enjoy what she now enjoys -- and probably takes for granted (don't we all?). SO, with that in mind, she now has the opportunity to build something for another teenaged girl to enjoy years down the road.

I know that appeals to Kate's heart because she is a servant. And now she is talking excitedly about being there, about the hugeness of the task...but there is excitement in her voice. And no longer does she lament leaving...sure it'll be hard -- leaving friends always is -- but she also seems to be aligning her heart to God's leading. I'm so proud of her.

So, the biggie now is finding a house. We can't afford 'everything' -- big house, big yard (an acre or two), close to school and church...but what will have to give?? Probably the big yard at this point. Our grief in that is that Colton has a gas-powered 4-wheeler. He LOVES riding that thing around our yard (we have a near-acre!); I can't see that being a welcomed addition to a nice subdivision in a yard barely bigger than a postage stamp! But maybe there'll be some other benefits to it all...the one house we found is on a cul-de-sac -- that's a good thing in my eyes -- less traffic so the boys will be able to play there. But we shall see.

Kate and I visited 3 high schools last Friday. One is a definite NO WAY, and one is clearly #1 and the other would be a fine fit for her, too...but now we are focusing our sights on the #1 school district, Hamilton Southeastern (HSE). Its an awesome school, and there are great opportunities for her there. We just have to find a house and settle in.

Anyway, I just thought you might be interested in our progress. -- so let me reiterate: WE ARE MOVING TO INDY. I just don't know when. Mark and I both felt more confirmation that this is the right thing - at the right time - to the right place. "For such a time as this" -- tho I don't really know what that means yet.

All part of the journey...but you know I'd rather just BE there!

We are in the throes of remodeling our house here in St. Charles...new fixtures in both upstairs bathrooms and a brand new kitchen. I should have done this 5 years ago...oh well. It'll be the jewel in the crown we beleive we have here...but we're in a mess. I've been cleaning out closets -- all that needed doing -- and giving away TONS of stuff, either to Goodwill or the the local Crisis Pregnancy Center. THAT feels really good...and I've thrown away a ton of stuff, too. Things from my childhood -- I read through it, relived the moments, and tossed it. That felt pretty good, too. Didn't see any need to keep it. And, horrors, I also threw away my old journal...started in July 1982. I read through it, relived the moments, and tossed it. There was NOTHING in it that would have preserved any part of my past I want to relive. Nor do I want anyone else to. Boy have I done a lot of growing...and it was a good time to let the past go. Felt great.

Mark is in sunny southern California this week...poor thing. Eating out, talking to adults, wearing nice clothes, cologne, socks...I've forgotten what that's like. Guess I'd better not get started on that subject. Always a sore spot with me, isn't it?

So that means I've said enough. Good day, everyone!

Catching Up

As has become my habit, I've managed to overlook getting on here to update it. Thing is, its probably more therapy for me than it is for any reader...if there are any readers!?

I've become a bit paranoid regarding Colton's education. Am I doing enough for him for Kdgn? Will he be a First Grader come fall? What does that mean exactly? I've been encouraged that Kdgn is so easy...well, yeah, but shouldn't there be some work involved, too? I mean, how's he gonna learn what I 'think' he's supposed to be learning? The curriculum I bought just doesn't seem to fit us -- too many pipe cleaners and pom poms for me.

I think we have a rhythm of sorts, and he seems to be an eager learner. But I'm trying to note those things he seems to have trouble with...and there are a few. I'm not worried - YET, but pray we can figure out how to get those things through to him...

Otherwise, its snowing like crazy here today. And Mark took the Suburban to the airport...I'm praying I can get out to get Kate picked up from school this afternoon...getting up the driveway! I KNEW I should have had him take the car and leave me the truck. he said, "I don't think its supposed to snow!" Well, he was wrong. So here's hoping Kate won't have to sleep at school tonight!?

I've been digging through boxes of old papers -- docs and receipts. Boy does all that bring up a lot of memories. Not all good either. The documentation of Mark's 'previous life' -- all of which I knew/know, so there are no suprises in any of it...still, I am reminded of how far he has come -- how far WE have come in eight years. And impressed all the more of how much I love him and need him. I confess there's a bit of insecurity in all that...I've always had this image that he married beneath himself. I am such a bumpkin...Mark is handsome, suave, sophisicated, brilliant, organized, logical...all things I am not. Guess I do help to keep him humble! ha! But what a role...not sure I really like looking at it that way. Still its hard to see it otherwise.

Funny how I go through this valley so frequently. I'm fully aware that it is the ploy of the enemy to win this battle of confidence -- or lack of it. Lack of belief in myself. At the same time I go thru that, I start begruding my LIFE. It actually came up in a conversation Mark and I had yesterday...he's in Florida; he was bemoaning having to find someplace to eat. Gosh, what a delimma. He's eating out, ON THE BANK'S DIME; often at NICE places (not just Chili's or Friday's or Applebee's -- yes, sometimes it is one of those), but if he chooses, he can eat well. And, usually he can have company if he chooses. Intelligent, ADULT company...over a dinner someone else prepares and CLEANS UP.

I do become resentful of all that. Especially when I have RARE opportunities for that. Evenings are not conducive to my going out...WE don't go out often because it costs $$. And Mark is ever frugal. So, going out, FOR ME, is a rare treat indeed.

and you know what, I'm not even going to continue this conversation. what's the point? I'm whining and I know it.

So, that's enough of that.

That's not what you are paying $ for! ha!!

But in light of the fact that I am not in a positive mind-set today, I'll spare you and myself any more sniveling.

suffice it to say, I'm in a prayer mode. I need it desperately today.

We are planning a move back to Indy. Think I may have mentioned that before? We've wanted to go back for so long, but never felt the time was right. It is now.

Kate is struggling...as I knew she would. However, I am daily praying for the Lord to confirm all this to her once again...as He has in days gone by. Five years is a long time at her age...but there is much to look toward and I must rely on the Holy Spirit to continue to confirm that in her heart as He has in Mark's and in mine.

Mark and I are desperate for a place to serve...to give back. to use our gifts to serve. We are not interested in being stars...I'll just be happy to show up at Genesis Church and help set up chairs!

I was called into the ministry when I was 12...and by that, I mean that I had a distinct voice in my heart that God was setting me aside for a particular life of ministry and service. Of course at 12 I had no idea what that meant...but in time, I realized it as I married -- Mike was a youth and children's pastor for 13-1/2 years. I was there in the thick of things...nearly raising the girls in the church building...it was a very fulfilling time in my life.

The summer of 1998, I traveled and spoke and sang at churches; spoke at a couple of women's retreats -- I LOVED every second of that summer. It was awesome. It was ministry and I was fulfilled.

When I was in Springfield, as a single woman, my home was a retreat for several college girls...it was ministry and I was fulfilled.

Mark and I married -- and everything changed. For both of us. We came here, expecting to find (at least eventually) a place to serve. We have not. It is not for lack of trying, or in offering ourselves. But there are no takers.

We cannot forever go on unfulfilled in our quest to serve and to once again fulfil what each of us see as a lifetime call...not to necessarily be out front, but to simply BE part of a moving and growing congregation that needs us, and that we can FEEL needed and that we can give to. (I know, the grammar there is atrocious -- but it is 'real' -- as opposed to "to which we can give.")

So, we feel there is that opportunity in partnering with Jeff and Kim Smith at Genesis Church in Indy. Mark's expertise is needed...and I'm happy to watch him blossom in a new role -- and in a renewed one. And to see Kate contribute to a growing youth group -- she is like the Rich Young Ruler in Luke 8 (?). She has so much here -- equal to riches -- and I'm praying she will be willing to give it all up (sell her possessions) and follow Christ. I believe Jeff Smith is like the Macedonian in Acts 16: "Come over here and help us!"

We are not special -- someone else can do it...but we don't want someone else to do it. We want to do it. What's "IT"? I don't know...I only know I don't want to miss out.

For you who are reading this, will you pray for us? here's how I see it breaking down:

1. Pray for Katie; pray that she will KNOW in her heart that this is about her, too; its about her role in ministry to a church that needs young leaders with experience and passion like she has. She needs courage for all that.

2. Pray that we can get our house ready. We have much to do to get it shining for the market; we pray for top $ out of it. In these days of a "buyer's market" we are asking God's favor so that there will be much interest. We do have a nice place -- it could be ideal for several families...we are remodeling the kitchen completely; new tile and carpet thru out; new paint; we're moving out some furntiure to free up some room and give it all the spacious feel that it truly has;

3. Pray for the perfect home for us in Indy. We know what we need -- and what we want; I'm asking for God' best in this...we can get more house for the $ there, and we want to stay on the lower side of our price range.

Those are the biggies...THANK YOU for your prayers on our behalf. We appreciate it.

Come back again in a few days, and over the course of the next weeks, to see what's what. I'm sure there'll be some exciting things!

The Thomas-Driver 2006 Christmas Letter

December 06

MERRY CHRISTMAS! I’m sure all of you reading this are looking back on your own year, wondering where the time went. But I know if we look around, we’ll see that it was spent: at the desk, in the kitchen, sleeping, watching TV, yard work, homework, vacation…its been a BUSY year, and does not seem to let up. On the bright side, there’s little excuse for boredom!

We’ve certainly not been bored this year. We’ve traveled a bunch and have enjoyed time with family and friends. We took our first-ever two-week vacation this summer…it was on the edge of too-long for the boys. They were ready to be in their own home, in their own beds, playing with ALL their toys. Still, it was a great time in Florida and I expect we’ll do it again!  Mark and I spent a week in Puerta Vallarta! What a beautiful place!!

Here’s a run-down of what’s up with each of us:

Krissi is a sophomore at Evangel University in Springfield MO. She is loving college, in spite of those typical frazzled days of finals and meetings and working. She’s working part-time on campus but hopes to venture further next semester. She’s majoring in Psychology and hopes to get her MA in Counseling. She’ll be great at that. She can empathize with people on so many levels. She is an organized person and definitely a leader.  She is Sophomore Class President and secretary of her Residence Hall. She’s making some great friends and doing well academically. All in all, she’s doing fabulous. She’ll be home with us for Christmas and we can’t wait!

Kate is a sophomore at St. Charles East HS. She is busy with Student Council Executive Board where she serves as the Technical Director – maintaining the Student Council website. She’s really good with that tech stuff. She also serves at Christ Community Church in the children’s ministry (Kids World) as a techie! She runs sound, lights, PowerPoint – and anything else that falls under that category. This year she is also working as an Intern in Kids World, helping with the children’s choir and worship.  She also sings on the youth worship team and gives time on Sunday mornings at the Student Ministries Welcome Center.  Kate is a funny, charming and gregarious girl. She keeps me smiling and I know there are great things ahead for her. (Oh, and she’s got her driver’s permit! YIKES! She’s doing well, and I’ll be glad when she can get herself to all those meetings!)

Colton was six on July 4. He is a rambunctious kindergartener and keeps us on our toes. We are home schooling him this year, and that’s going well. As the months progress, “I” am getting better at keeping on track with what we need to be doing and he’s a pretty patient student. We try to get together with friends on a regular basis so that he has opportunities to play, but there is nothing stunted in this boy’s social skills. He is friendly and engaging and usually the first to say hello to someone he doesn’t know. He makes friends easily and loves to laugh. He’s definitely a bright spot in this family. Hemophilia continues to be a daily challenge, but Colton is a tough kid and has a great attitude about it all.

Connor will be 3 in March. He’s probably the funniest toddler I’ve ever known. He is the family clown, and has an uncanny ability to be deliberately entertaining. Both boys are very tall for their ages, and Connor talks WAY PAST his age. I’ve had people remark about it in stores! They’ll ask, “How old is he?” When I tell them “two-and-a-half”, they seem so surprised that he talks so well. He still has some toddler’ish intonation: his “K” and “C”  is a “T” and the “G” is a “D”. That can be rather humorous: this summer in Florida, he told Mark he wanted to go swim in the “Kiddy Pool.” So, take that ‘k’ and make it a ‘t’, and you’ll know how funny it sounded when he said it! He’s pretty much got a clear grasp on all the other letter sounds, so I don’t think speech therapy is in his future. He’s cute and loveable and is the FINAL crown to this family line!

Mark is still with Bank of The West. He’s had a tough year with loan closings – for various reasons. Lack of hard work is NOT one of them, however. He’s a diligent and professional and loves what he does. He has a wonderful circle of colleagues and networking friends and is very fulfilled in those relationships. He is a great dad and loves having his office at home so he can be part of the boys’ lives every single day. We began attending Harvest Bible Chapel this past year, and Mark has been so challenged and encouraged in His walk with the Lord. It shows in everything he does. He is looking for new areas in which to serve at Harvest, and I know there are some great things ahead for him. I also think next year will be his best yet!

As for me, I am spinning lots of plates and have had a very busy and fulfilling year, doing many things and trying to figure out what I love most. I did some writing and found myself published on an internet Magazine! You can find those articles at http://www.faithwritersmagazine.com/July06/apples.php,  and    http://www.faithwritersmagazine.com/October06/ascribe.php. And a list of my articles can be found here: http://www.faithwriters.com/member-profile.php?id=20487       I LOVE writing, but lately have found little time for it.   I also have a blog, where you can pop in now and then to see what’s new: www.homeschoolblogger.com/kkccmom   I hope to attend a couple writer’s conference next year, and am asking the Lord what He will do with this passion and desire. I’d have to say its probably my first love but I don’t know what, if anything ‘major’ will ever come of it. It may be for a limited audience – and that’s fine. I just don’t want to sell myself short if there’s more!?  I am finally working on “The Book” I have a first draft done, and am in a holding pattern as to what/where to go next.    I am working part-time for my friend Julie, as an assitant to her for “The Old Schoolhouse Magazine” – a wonderful magazine for homeschool families. I’m learning a lot and finding several challenges along the way.  And in September, I started a business with Discovery Toys. It fits my life right now, with the boys – both their ages and our homeschooling, and its been fun! I’m actually building a selling team and am anxious to see where it all leads. Let me know if you need awesome toys & games for the kids in your life!

I am also writing as a fictional character, Janet Detcher, on the “Scenes and Beans” blogsite for the “Kanner Lake” book series by Brandilyn Collins. If you haven’t read any of Brandilyn’s work, YOU GOTTA! Check this out: http://www.kannerlake.blogspot.com Dig through the archives and you’ll find me as JANET DETCHER, wife to Hank, the local pastor. Its been tons of fun!

I don’t have time to do ALL the things I love – stamping, scrapbooking, reading, and it goes without saying that my house sure needs some TLC, but without a doubt, LIFE IS GOOD. God has been so good to us, and in this time of year I love reflecting on the Grace that’s been so abumdant. We are happy, secure, warm and content. There is nothing more…and we wish all that for each of you in 2007.

Please keep in touch: fivebewe@sbcglobal.net -- Merry Christmas, with love

The Book and Other Stuff

I finally finished a "do'able" draft of The Book. I need to take it to Kinkos and get it printed off and bound then mailed to Mom and Dad Driver.

It feels good to have it done...but I'm not trying to navigate through the waters of publishing...do I do it myself? Do I take a risk and try to find a publisher? I don't know yet, but one things for sure -- my friends are behind me 100% and that is such a great feeling!

I did send out feelers -- and got back great encouragement...GO FOR IT, and YOU CAN DO IT, for starters...but also encouragement to not get in a hurry. Certainly I do not want to get down the road and think, "Man, I should have put this in, or that...etc" ya know? SO, we'll take it a step at a time.

I changed my signature on my emails..."Spinning A Few Plates" -- boy howdy! Some days I wonder what I am thinking...yikes! I'm sure not bored, tho, I can assure you of that!

And with all the busyness, I've had virutally no time to write. I must find that again, don't you think?

And time is running away again, so I'll make this short.

We are gearing up for the Advent season -- take time, as we go along, to reflect on the Goodness of our God; His benevolent BOUNTY -- think about all of it. And give thanks.

ITS SNOWING IN CHICAGOLAND!

Yep, believe it or not...we've got snow. My boys said, "Christmas!" Well, not quite...but I do have most of my shopping done for them! YIPEE!

Its a gorgeous snowfall...pretty heavy. I know it won't stick around long because the ground is still warm'ish, but it sure is pretty. The boys could not wait to get outside in it. So they are bundled up in their snowpants and coats, hats and gloves. Connor needs boots this year...so for today its his tennies.

No news on the homefront, other than my DISCOVERY TOYS business is off to a great start. Better than I could have ever imagined. Maybe I've found my niche! Right now I have "7" -- count 'em SEVEN parties booked, including another one of my own, and (hopefully) one for my brother and s-i-l in KC. Its such a great time to shop for the kids. And having a party is a great way to earn free stuff! I had my 'kick-off' party last week -- I won $160 in FREE TOYS. Plus 2 half-price items. Most of that will be Christmas -- and will double as my demo toys! So, I'm happy its going so well. I know there will be some disappointments, but that goes with it. I've just never had such a great start to ANYTHING. And I figured it out the other day, I've tried TWELVE direct-sales businesses!! TWELVE! Crazy. I just want to find something FUN, and something that will generate a little extra $. I'm not really that ambitious -- or maybe I'm just guarded -- but my sights are not set on BIG money...just a little extra. And I'll work as much as I can, and ask God to bless it. What comes out the other side will be His benevolence. I'll work at it, but leave the increase to him!

Hope you are having a great day...drop me a line, will you?

More from Janet Detcher -- coming up!

Well, Janet Detcher is on the move again.

Got an email from Brandilyn saying she needed something from Janet, so I've sent her a couple entries for the Kanner Lake blog...if you get time, take a look. Not sure what day they will show up -- and two separate days at that, but hopefully they will be both entertaining and inspiring.

Because I'm in this writing funk, I cannot even find great fodder for Janet. But SOMEHOW I managed to put a couple things together....out of real life, of course.

The 'camping' story is true, but it actually happened when my dad took my brother and cousin camping. Kevin and Shannon were pretty young--maybe 10 and 8'ish. And Dad was the culprit of the prank...the actual reaction is verbatim. You'll get a kick out of it.

The other will not be difficult for you to figure out. You faithful friends have heard it 1000 times...but it still fit in well with "Hank's" latest entry about "Tommy."

Thanks for reading those Blogs...please do leave a comment. You do not have to be a blogger yourself, tho you do have to register with a username. Still, you don't have to Blog...but do leave comments for the other characters. Its a great shot of encouragement and motivation for all the writers who make these fictional people come alive. Honestly, I can almost 'see' all of them myself when I read those entries. They DO seem like real people...and if you haven't read the book, "Violet Dawn" please get it. You'll LOVE it and Brandilyn Collins will be on your favorites list!

Home tomorrow from FL. Its been a good week. My boys are brown as little bears...I'm the vanilla one, with the sunburned face! But the boys have done well. It does seem to get easier with them as they get bigger/older. I'm more relaxed, too, and that makes a huge difference in how I navigate thru the week.   Mark has had a profitable week, too, w/ the business he's been able to do. New contacts, and some deals that are in the works. Face-to-face is always Mark's forte...he thinks it goes a long way in customer loyalty and getting business in gen'l. Doesn't always work/pay off, but he feels its worth the time and effort.

So, we're heading home tomorrow afternoon. I miss Kate. And I think she's ready for us to be home, too.

Okay...time to sign off for today. Pray I can get my thoughts together and make some progress on a few items I've been working on.

Oh, and one more thing...I've recently decided to be a Rep for "Discovery Toys" .  Since I cannot 'sell' my way out of a paper sack, I decided to join DT  so I can easily purchase the products for us, and also be a source for others to get them. I don't have time or energy to make a business out of this, but DT does provide a nice website for their "Educational Consultants" -- so take a look: www.discoverytoyslink.com/kkccmom

You can order directly, on line, and it'll ship straight to you. I've loved Discovery Toys since the girls were little and now that we are homeschooling I see much value in the products and believe it'll enhance our efforts.

SO, think about Christmas and birthdays...for your kids, your grandkids...keep in mind that there is a great selection of toys for older kids, too. Its not just for babies!! So, check it out.

AND, if you'd like a catalog, let me know and I'll mail you one!

Ciao!

Nope. No bolts of lightening...

Another day w/ no inspiration.

I did try to write a piece for the FW challenge...but got bogged down in trying to sort it all out. IF I finish it I'll stick it here and there and see what comes of it. Its a multi-faceted topic -- or at least it can go several ways, but I can't decide which way to go...

We've met a delightful senior lady here at the resort. She's Mae...from NJ. Has the lilt in her voice for it, too. She seems to like our company. She'll come out of her own condo when we are at the pool. Last night she came out when we were down, and sat for a couple hours. I went out, ALONE, bought a book and some odds and ends at WM, and Mark said she stayed a long while after I left. She's alone, so I expect she does enjoy the friendly faces. The boys certainly make for action and adventure. Today I hope to get to know more about her.

Pool time. Mark is out for the day so I'm left to keep these boys entertained.

TTFN...

A Website you MUST bookmark!

In the intro to my poem, I mentioned Kenn Allen.

If I can figure out how to set up a click-on link from my homepage, I'll do that. But for now, here again is Kenn's web address:

http://webpages.charter.net/freelancing4christ/index.html

Please do yourself a favor and stop by Kenn's site and read his work. I tell you, its just wonderful! He is truly a gentleman and such a gifted writer.

Be sure to read the poem about "Lucinda Druell" Its amazing.

I'm pleased to pass him along to you. I feel certain he will make you smile!

New Article

I'm adding a new article...I worked it up LAST MINUTE to get it into this past week's "Writers Challenge" at Faithwriters...its hard for me to write when I'm away from home...at least with the distraction of the kids and lack of concentration....but I slept poorly all night long, writing and rewriting a piece...only to be an hour late when I finally was ready to submit it.

Oh well...it seems the winners are mostly fiction writers...and I don't think I'm up to that yet. Maybe never...BUT, the fact that one of my obscure pieces did find its way to the eyes of the FW magazine editor...guess that makes it worth going ahead and submitting. I doubt I'll "win" because I am not clever enough to make up a story (and the winning stories are VERY good  -- very deserving), so I guess I'll will keep doing what I do, and leave the end results to God. Good idea, eh?

Anyway, I'll post my latest piece, and you can let me know what you think. The previous week's didn't make it either, so I'll post that too and will be looking for a new home for it.

Happy Reading!

Live from Branson MO

We are on Day Four of our week's stay here in the Ozarks...its HOT HOT HOT. Really! Hotter here than it was in Orlando a couple weeks ago...I've not been to the pool yet...mainly because my folks were here and my mom does NOT swim...so I just hang out with her -- which is great...but sadly they had to head back to KC today. Dad has to be back for a drywall job tomorrow morning.

Krissi and her boyfriend Matt were here, too. It was fun to have them. Matt and Krissi have been dating almost a year. I doubt she'll date anyone else. They are a good match. We like Matt, and just pray the Lord will direct their paths.

So, they left this afternoon and Mr. Thomas got this machine up and running for me...and I had a couple neat emails in my box!

The first was a note from the Director of Submissions for "Hearts At Home" magazine. I submitted my "YAMGT" article for consideration...and I rec'd a note that the Submissons gal would be forwarding it on to the next level. IF they accept it for publication, I'll get "5" copies. Its a wonderful opportunity for getting something out there...great exposure. I'm exctied. OF COURSE, I don't now for sure that it'll be published...but we'll see. The fact that they are looking seriously at it is really cool!

Second, last week I submitted a piece for the Faithwriters Weekly Challenge...don't know how it did overall, as far as "placing" but I did get three very nice comments...here's the link for the piece and the remarks:

http://www.faithwriters.com/wc-article-level1.php?id=9773

Let me know what YOU think, will you??

We have a few more days here...drop a line if you get a chance...and pray I can find some inspiration for this week's challenge: "Work." I've got a few ideas, but time and space (for entering) is ticking (there's a limit of 200 entries), so I"ve GOT to do it ASAP!

Blessings to all!

On the Road Again...

Yep, its Happy Trails again...tomorrow morning. I think I know what has to be loaded...tho I am far from having it done. I've made my list(s) -- now if I can just find them...

I think we'll be fine. First time I've taken a long trip w/ the boys, w/o Mark. Should be interesting. Mr. Thomas is in Chicago, at a conference. Then tomorrow he has Sales Mtg with his collegues and the Home Office team. The boys and I are driving to St. Louis and will meet Mark at the airport there. Then Saturday we'll drive to Branson. We will be spending some time with my folks, Shorty and Dee, and also my oldest daughter, Krissi, and boyfriend Matt will be with us for a few days...should be fun. Crowded in our small 2-bdrm condo, but fun. (We do time-share vacations...if you ever wanna here how great it is, let me know! -- We've got a GREAT sales pitch, born out of our fab experiences with it all....we'll never hotel-vacation again!)

It also brings me closer to when my Sweet Katie will be home from her Summer of Wanderings (August 9)...she's had a great time -- with friends and family -- but WE MISS HER and are so ready to see her sweet little face...She will have been gone just about FIVE WEEKS!     I've gotten used to Krissi being gone...and I do miss her so much...but Kate is still a regular fixture (for another three years! yea!!), and I miss her voice and our chats...my girls are the best! If you know them, you know I am right...I know their Dad would be SO very proud of both of them. They are pretty, they love the Lord, they are ambitious, they are smart, they are talented....okay...I'm their mother...but they are just the best. I know God has great things in store for them.

Kris is loving college at Evangel University...she'll be a soph. She's committed to several organizations and leadership roles for the coming year. I knew she'd love it.

Krissi is very organized and is a deep thinker. She's got a very steady head and is pretty straightforward when it comes to "issues" -- She can be very direct. In her pursuit of a counseling degree (and MA), that will come in handy.  Kris recently signed up to be a Mary Kay consultant...I think she'll do better with that than I did (even after 3 attempts...I can't sell a thing!)...but she seems to be enjoying the professionalism and order that comes with that experience. I think she'll do well. She's manager material...just like her Dad!

Not sure where Kate will land for school...she's not sure what she wants to "be" when she grows up! Hopefully she'll begin to get some sense of it this year, as a HS soph. She's really good in Math and Science, but also excels in Language Arts...she's in the Honors level for Chemestry and English next year. ... But we'll see. Kate is gregarious and has many friends. She always knows how to have a great time, and to make everyone feel welcomed and wanted. She's a hard worker and doesn't have to have credit for it...She's so much like her Dad in that area. He was a hard worker and often just showed up and said, "What do you need?" Kate is like that. The adult leaders at church LOVE Kate. She's eager to pitch in and is a willing student. And she's sweet. Kate is probably the most giving and generous person I know. I know the Lord will bless that.

Are you sick of hearing about my kids???...and I haven't even started on the boys!!...okay, we'll take a break...

CHANGE OF SUBJECT....

I put a visitor counter on here...so I can track how many visitors come to read...I'm actually a bit stunned at the amount of traffic...and amazingly I can also find out WHERE the visitors are from ... It does not tell names, but it gives location...

SO, I know you're out there...I just don't know for sure WHO you are...So, how about you just leave me a note and say HI -- I'd love to know who's visiting and how you found me...Of course there are some obvious ones but many that are not familiar -- and if this offends you, thinking "She surely knows its ME from HERE" -- I do apologize. I know a couple people from almost everywhere, so I'm a little sketchy on some details...

So, please do let me know who's visiting...I'd love to know it.

Pray for me as I formulate an idea to paper...its one of those I've been working/thinking on for several weeks, and it keeps surfacing so I think its time to put forward some real effort toward getting it together. I think it'll be a good one...but I'm depending on the Holy Spirit to help me work out the kinks.

Anyway, sweet dreams, Friends...My eyes will be wide open at 6am, and I'll need to get rolling so we can be moving on down the highway by 10'ish.

I'll be popping in while we're gone next week...maybe I'll have something new to tell you!?

Its a go!

I got the confirmation from Deb Porter that she will indeed use my piece in the October issue of the magazine! Here's her note to me:

More great news...

No, we're not expecting again. That would NOT be what I'd consider great news....yes, I love babies and I've loved being pregnant, but I do NOT want to do it again...

I received a note today from the Editor of the online "Faithwriters Magazine" (you'll find the link on this page)...she has asked to use another of my articles for the October issue of the magazine! I wrote back and of course said YES! I told her, (Deb Porter) that I was both humbled and honored that she'd want to use ANOTHER of my pieces for the magazine.

Now, thing is, I don't know if they have a policy regarding using a single writer more than once in a limited time-frame...I was just on there in July (Golden Apples)...so it remains to be seen, in case they can't use me because I was just on there...but if there is no policy, then it might be so!

I did tell her that that same article was featured on "The Old Homschool" online e-newsletter for July, in the devotional section. The title was changed and a couple other minor changes made to the piece, but it is virtually the same...so that, too, may affect the use of it for FW Mag...we'll see. (You'll find it in the 'Articles' catagory there, titled "Flowers for my Father", I think)

But I'm just so thrilled to at least  be asked! What's funny is that I had submitted that piece for the weekly contest on Faithwriters "Weekly challenge" and it didn't even place! I was bummed that it seemed lost in the other 100+ losing pieces! Guess I need to submit all that to the Lord and leave the outcome to Him, eh??

I keep reading and hearing from other writers about that very thing...to take the focus off  "who will read this...will it become a FAMOUS piece...I'm just a nobody..."  and to concentrate on being obedient to write what the Holy Spirit Himself inspires, regardless of where it goes and who reads it. The truth is, we are all inspired by things we read from unknown writers...and I think we have to be confident that GOD is at work in our efforts...we need to focus on simply sharing from our hearts and leave the outcome to Him. Does that make sense?

There is, in all of us, a need to be recognized -- a need for significance. The danger lies in wanting to be significant in the eyes of men, rather than being obedient to the point of pleasing our God. As a Believer, THAT should be my number one objective...to please God and to do what He is moving me to do. Otherwise I might possibly be limiting my own future! After all, He wants more for me than I want for myself!

So, friends, my personal challenge today is to simply FOLLOW the Holy Spirit, leave the results to Him, knowing it'll be more than my mind can conceive!

Let that challenge you today, too!

All the best...

A day of rest...

Well, that's what it should be, right?? For me, yes, it is. For the DH, not so much. He's working tirelessly on the 1/2 bath in our lower level. He gutted the whole thing, ripped out the old flooring, shower, etc...and is remodeling the entire room.

Today he is grouting the tile -- looks just about professional! As we speak, he's laying out the floor tiles, getting read to do the sticky part of that.

Its gonna look great.

Yesterday we let Colton get out of view and he rode his bike, Evel Knievel style, down the driveway. This AFTER I told him NO MORE RIDING W/O A HELMET! He has only recently learned to ride his two-wheel bike -- and we have yet to purchase suitable helmet and pads...SO, he took off against my warning, took a spill and today has a huge bruise growing out of his right calf.

its gonna be a doozey. Careless parents that we are, we did not do his scheduled "factor" on Friday...or Saturday! So, today he's paying the price. Keeping him off his feet is like -- well, words fail me. Just take my word for it.

For those of you reading this and don't know it, my 6 y/o son, Colton, is a severe hemophiliac. (This means his blood-clotting factor is less than 1%) He was diagnosed at one week old. At ten months, we had a "sub-dermal port" (or port-a-cath) put into his chest. This port (very much like a chemotherapy patient would have) allows Colton to have a very normal life. His condition requires that we infuse him at least 3x/week. These infusions are routine for him, as they are for us. It requires about 10 minutes time, and involves mixing the "recombinant" (or manufactured factor product) with sterile water, then using an IV line w/ a right-angled needle, inserted into the port and slowly "pushed" in from a syringe.

I am often asked if he can play sports....yes, some. Hockey is out, as is football and soccer. too much risk of injury. Swimming is good for him -- no joint pressures, but good for circulation and therapy.

To look at Colton, you'd never know there was anything "wrong" with him. When we got the diagnosis, my DH and I determined he would not be catagorized or singled out...yes, we wisely set some boundaries, but all in all, he does almost everything his friends do...he is busy and energetic and smart. He just happens to have a ton of bruises!

So, today, we're fighting to keep him "down" -- leg wrapped w/ an ice pack. By tomorrow, (Monday, 24th) he'll look like he's been run over. We'll factor again, and by Wed he should be on the mend. Poor kid.

These kinds of injuries can be very serious, and we do take them seriously. Colton is getting to the age where he understands the consequences of his actions -- and is getting better about making better decisions about what and what not to do. Unfortunately, we are not there yet -- but are on our way.

Connor just came to me -- stinky diaper. I asked him if he had poopy in there...he said, "No. Cereal." Yeah, right. IT WASN'T CEREAL. (Connor is 2, btw). I plan to start potty training when we get home from Branson. It'll be easier in the fall, when there is less outside time and I can focus on getting him on the potty frequently. Gosh, I just can't wait.   Well, I will be so ready for him to be DONE, but I truly do not look forward to the training part. Its really not that much fun. This will be my fourth, AND LAST, trip down this road. Thank the Lord.  Of course it might not be too long and I'll have a grandbaby....oh my word. HOPEFULLY that's still a few years down the road...tho I do have an almost-19-y/o daughter who is in a serious dating relationship -- YIKES.

Yes, I am old enough to be a grandmother...but my brain isn't there yet.

Guess that's enough musings for now...be sure to stay updated at Kanner Lake Blogspot...its gonna get interesting!

Another Day in Rainy Florida

Its raining today...has been overcast all day, but rained buckets this afternoon. The boys napped and I have been reading, trying to write a little and catch up on email.

We're winding down our time here, and I'm not ready to go home!!  I love a life of leisure...swimming, reading, napping, VACATION! But reality must raise its head and we're back to it on Thursday. Oh well. Its been great...two weeks, and we're pretty convinced we'll do two weeks again someday.

I did meet my new friend on Saturday. We met for lunch at Cracker Barrel...11:30. We left at 3! We truly hit it off. Terri and Curt are delightful people and I'm just so pleased to call them friends. They live about 40 mins or so from here, so it was pretty easy for us to connect. We'll definitely keep in touch. Terri was a great encouragement to my writing, and inspired me to keep at it.

We may not make it back to Sea World...its really pouring, and unless it lets up, we're stuck. We might drive around and look at houses. We kinda get a kick out of that now and then...just to compare IL with FL. To find out what we're missing -- or not!?

The boys are brown as berries....and their hair is almost white!! That's what every day in the pool will do for ya. They look great!! So warm and fuzzy. They have had a blast...Colton makes new friends in the pool every day. He's such a people person.  Mark has loved it, too, you can be sure of that.

Guess that's all for now...more if I think of somehting worth sharing!

Live From Orlando!!

Good Day, All!

We're on week 2 here in sunny FL. Yes, its hot. Last weekend was absolutely PERFECT...mid 80s, low humidity. Right close to Heaven, I imagine. But then Tuesday came. We chose that day for Sea World, and boy was it a scorcher. My top was drenched, my hair was dripping. NOT PRETTY.

We got a pretty good deal for the park, though...for a Pepsi can each, Mark and I paid the kids ticket price, then we got to upgrade our tickets for an unlimited week pass...meaning we can come and go as often as we like w/in 7 days.   We watched the "Shamu" show, "Believe" -- it was truly spectacular. Honestly, I was in tears. I was just so moved by God's creativity in these wonderous creatuers...amazing. Of course there was the usual "we are all one" stuff, as if I am kin to Shamu and Co...I don't buy that of course, but I do embrace the conservation ideas, etc. It was a great show.

Mark took Colton again this past Thursday morning...early enough to beat the rush and get in a few rides. We plan to go back before Monday, to see a few more of the shows and to watch the evening fireworks. We don't usually do any stuff...its sorta like we do all we can to just GET here, and we don't budget in $$ for the parks. Its so expensive...and Connor is still little enough that much is lost on him. But Colton has enjoyed it and we're glad we did it.

I read back over my last entry, and I have to laugh out loud here...for all my noble intentions, I have not walked once...I mean "walking for fitness" -- the best I've done is some mall walking/shopping with a friend last weekend, then to the pool and back! HA. So much for my expectations that I would stay on track and fight the good fight.

Its just so hard for me, out of my element, to be consistent. Character flaw, I know. But the week is not done yet, so there's still time to do it and say I did it! The DVDs are sitting, as we speak, on top of the TV, right  next to the DVD player. I can read the spines from here!! So, here's praying I'll find some shred of self-interest to move my behind and do something positive.

I'm happy to report, however, that we've kept junk food to a minimum....we just didn't buy a lot of junkie stuff. No regrets there.   We eat out very little when we travel; our condos provide a full kitchen, so we cook in most of the time. We don't mind at all. This way we don't have to get fixed up to go out to eat...we can eat in our jammies, our swimsuits, etc. And I don't have to wear make-up! What a plus!!!

I'll soon be submitting my "Janet Detcher" post for the Kanner Lake blog, "Scenes and Beans" --  I hope you'll take time to read the entries there so far. Some very creative people!  Be sure to leave comment, too...but remember, make no references to "real life"...just reference Kanner Lake and/or the characters.

Connor has been sick, and its been a real stressor. I am pretty convinced its allergies...tho it could just be a vicious cold. He's got a runny nose, watery eyes, cough...and his cough is so gaggy, he does gag and puke. We've pretty much washed the sheets and towels at least once a day!! Poor little guy.  He can't get rid of the mucus, and so it just chokes him. So I hear him cough all night long, and pray he won't puke.

I did go to Walgreens last night and got a store version of Claritin...hopefully that'll help, plus we're giving him a cough suppressant/expectorant. What else can we do? If its cold or allergy, there's not much else that can be done, right?? So, he's miserable and we're helpless to do much more than we are doing.

I think when we get home I'm going to make an appt with an allergist to just see what might be going on. I honestly don't think its food -- we are eating no differently here than we would be at home...so I think its airborne, but we shall see.

Well, guess I'd better move along here...I'm meeting a new "friend" for lunch today. I met Terri online thru the "Faithwriters" website...she commented on one of my entries there, and we began a friendly exchange and now, because she lives not far from Orlando, we're meeting for lunch. Should be fun. I've enjoyed our "conversations" over email, so I expect this will be a continuation of that. I'll post how it all goes.

Mark and the boys are in the pool right now...time for me to check mail and do my update...now time for me to shower and get ready for my "date"!

Hugs all around, and I know you'll be waiting with bated breath for the next post!! HA. as if.....

K.

New Books!

Hi all...

I've been a slug this week; and doubting any value to contributing anything here...who is reading this? It sort of feels like I'm talking to myself. Am I?

Just in case there IS someone out there, I have to tell you about this awesome new author I've found....well, she's been at it for a long time, but I've just "found" her and am enthused to pass her along to you.

Her name is BRANDILYN COLLINS. She writes suspense novels for Zondervan...you HAVE to read these books. I picked one up at the suggestion of a friend who knows her, and from the first few minutes, I was hooked!!

In fact, so hooked that I have read "5" books in about a week!! The first 4 are from the "Hidden Faces" series...featuring "Annie Kingston" as the main character. They are all page-turners. And honestly, if "I" were Annie, I'd be in the loony bin. The stories are just riveting...and the underlying theme is the power of prayer, and the ultimate power of God to protect and overcome evil.

I'm telling you, if you enjoy suspense, you'll LOVE these stories. They do not have to be read in succession. They each can stand alone, but you'll have more history on the characters if you start with the first one: BRINK OF DEATH; #2 is "Stain of Guilt"; #3 "Dead of Night" and #4 "Web of Lies" --

In the 4th one, she brings together Annie and a lead character in another series, Chelsea Adams. At Brandilyn's urging, I quickly gobbled the first of the Chelsea stories, "Eyes of Elisha."  So it was neat to get a little character background on Chelsea as she was united with Annie in a can't-put-it-down story.

Anyway, I wanted to encourage you all to take some time for some good fiction. I don't do it often, but I'm soooooo glad I took time for this.

BTW, I did drop Mrs. Collins a note about the books, and that she has a new fan. SHE WROTE ME BACK!! We've had a cheery exchange via email and I'm adding my name to her Fan Club! That's been fun.

I also should say that I've restricted myself for the time being...I simply cannot do any more reading for a few days. Nothing else gets done, as you can imagine. Still, I enjoyed every minute of it and will be on the edge of my seat for the next one!

On another note...

I'm going to post Chapter 6 in The Story. then after that, I only have Chapter 7. I have started working on the next part, but have little time to think it through. So, on the assmption that it matters, I'll be putting together The Rest of The Story in the days ahead.

No more news for now.

Have a wonderful weekend!

Blah Blah Blah

Well, this hasn't really been much of a Blog, but more of a simple outlet for my pent-up story. Thanks for your enthusiasm and all the encouraging notes about it all. It has been a good thing for me to read it all again. I need reminding of God's goodness. As do we all.

We are gearing up for a little vacation in the days ahead. Mark has biz in FL, so the boys and I are going. Its virtually a FREE vacation for us. Because Mark does have business there (Ft. Lauderdale), his employer buys his plane ticket. I have a "Southwest Air Companion Pass" -- meaning that whenever/whereever Mark flies, I go FREE. We also have Rapid Rewards miles for both the boys' tickets...the Bank will pick up the rental car, and our time-share condo. Mark has to have wheels and a place to stay. All in all it is costing the Bank nothing for us to go along...

Kate will be staying with some friends from church for the weekend so she can get to the services. They have been great friends to her these past 4 years. Then on Sunday night she will pop over to her another friend's house, Samantha. They go to school together and have graciously welcomed Kate to stay there for the school week. She's looking forward to it -- time away from the boys!

So, I think everyone is happy.

I'm trying to get laundry done. I climbed up into the attic today to see what I could find for Connor, out of the containers with Colton's old clothes. I think I did well enough that Connor won't need anything more this summer! What a blessing! So, I'm washing those things up just to freshen them, then will need to sort thru and decide what to pack.

I have felt crummy all week. Sore throat then a head cold. Pretty miserable. Hopefully the warm sun will dry it all up. We plan to take in as much pool time as possible. Well, at least Mark and the guys will. I feel too much like Orca to be seen too frequently. Maybe there'll be no one there! I can hope.

its been a blah week. I can't seem to get with it in any area. My house has so many nooks and crannies that need attention and I just don't have the umption in my gumption to do anything about it. Hopefully this is just a fleeting "funk." I have a LONG list of things that need done, and no one will do it for me. I'm just so tired all the time.   No, its really not a medical thing. Blood work is all normal. Its laziness and just plain tiredness. Even with my walking I can't see to get ahead of it. Oh well. I'll keep plugging along and hopefully find some energy somewhere.

Okay...enough whining for today. Must run and get that laundry folded. Have a nail appt this afternoon, too...can't miss that! Vanity, you know.

K.

Boy am I shocked!

Well, all I can say is that I am very very surprised at the "traffic" this initial post has generated. THANKS, Julie. Guess she had to prove her point, eh??

So thank you, Ladies, for taking time to read my thoughts and to encourage this new thing! I'm still a little skeptical, but I'll keep it going and see what happens. I may post some recent MUSINGS I sent out to some gals who are doing a "90-Day Renewal" along with me (and Donna Partow)...God has certainly stirred up some things in me. And as I said before, MAYBE it'll strike a chord with someone else. No sense keeping it to myself, is there?

THANK YOU, Jacque, for your inspiration and your motivation to stick with it. Talk about hoping it doesn't take 4 year to get off what it took 4 years to put on -- well, "I" hope it doesn't take 20! I was slim and trim until my first pregnancy in 1987 -- and here we are almost 20 years later -- an add'l 80 lbs. YUK. But each day I keep pressing on "toward to the goal" -- one pound at a time.

But you know, the Lord has put something in me that even my fleshly "dread" of exercising has not quenched. I still am not enamoured with walking, esp. on the treadmill. Yes, I can watch TV, but I still cannot get my eyes off the clock. I wish I could just lose myself in it, but it has not happened yet. Maybe today I need to get out that "little black dress" I want to wear again -- maybe that'll movitatve me to MOVE.

So, new friends (and Dear Julie), blessings on your day. I'll write or copy more here later. Right now, if I don't get off here, I'll miss my quiet time. DH is off to FL today on biz...that means Mommy 24/7 for the next four days. My quiet time is gonna be critical.

TTFN,

Kim

Okay, Julie...you win...here goes nothing...

Well, I'm giving in to duress by even setting this up. My dear, dear friend Julie has been poking and prodding me to start this thing -- but I just have my doubts about who will read it. Who has time??

I don't know, but I'm doing it. It'll be a place for my "musings" (as I've come to call them).

Julie sent me the link to Cindy Rushton's blog, and I must say it did put a fire under my fanny to at least consider this as a START. I'm a little conservative when it comes to believing in myself. Maybe even self-depreciating...but at the encouragement of my friends, here I am. At the risk of "thinking more highly of myself than I ought..."

I'll post an "article" I recently wrote. I call it an "article" because I don't know what else to call it. The theme was rattling around in my mind for a LONG time (years, really), and I finally found the gumption to put it "on paper". What its ultimate purpose is, I have no idea. At the onset, I sent it around to several friends who found it reflected much of themselves. So, I might be on to something after all...

Life IS a journey. That's a pretty common phrase. In my case, it is a lesson in patience. I don't like the traveling part of traveling. I like to BE where I am headed. Getting there is an inconvenience. But its unavoidable.

In the spiritual application, I've asked God, for years, to use me in some very specific areas. Areas that I fully believe would be an outlet for the gifts I believe He has given me -- exhortation, shepherding, teaching, hospitality...but I have simply wanted to avoid what it takes to get there. Thinking I can compare myself with others ("I could do at least that good," or "I could never do that!" --ever hear those things come out of your heart?); that somehow I can just skip over the "jouney" of becoming the vessel God can use (thank you, Donna Partow!)

In the physical application -- I want to be thin. NOW. I want to just wake up one morning 80 lbs lighter. Well, hmmm...THERE'S WORK INVOLVED HERE. And TIME. And you know what? For the past 3+ weeks, my hubby and I have, TOGETHER, been making positive changes in our habits --eating less, walking daily, drinking more water (for me, less Diet Coke!) -- all good things that will ultimately produce good results.

But you know what? I have seen NOTHING yet. Last week the scale didn't move a hair; my clothes are not falling off me; I don't have the energy I wish I had to romp with my boys (5+ and 2)...I feel a little like Baruka on the original "Willie Wonka and The Chocoloate Factory" -- "I WANT IT NOW!" -- then she gets tossed down to the incenerator! "Bad Egg." Its the impatience that applies here.

Most things worth having and KEEPING, take time. And its taken me plenty of time to grasp that. Not sure I have entirely, but I'm working on it. EVERY SINGLE DAY!

So, come along with me. Though our earthly paths may be headed in varying directions, our eternal destination is the same. What we need here is fellowship -- its what the Body of Christ is all about. And Julie, you have demonstrated that with abounding grace. THANK YOU, Dear Friend...