• Jan. 6, 2009 - When you have a struggling learner.
Recently on one of the groups I belong to a mom shared her frustration with her child who is struggling in the area of reading. Like I had so often done in the past I heard the hurt and the hope that someone will have the magic answer. If you do this or use that life will become wonderful again. So this was my answer. The answer born of walking this road. An answer born from my own tears and heart ache. And I decided to post the answer her in the hopes that others who struggle with their own feelings while watching their child struggle will find some comfort although no answers in these words.
If you read some of my early post here you will see that I tried every program available at the time of our struggles. None of them worked. The only thing that did work was intense and long term eye therapy. Even with all that we had to start over and his reading will all be an area of weakness. Just using the Sonlight readers at a much slower pace, sight word cards, ETC, and MCP Plaid we got him up to mid 6th grade level. Adding in the RFBD(Reading for the Blind and Dyslexic) audio reader program we got the word recognition to mid 7th and the comprehension up to mid 10th. The reality is that he will never read for pleasure, reading will always be a chore, he will never love reading. Through audio books he will be able to continue to feed his brain. He will continue to enjoy good literature. He has enough reading skill that he can read for information. He can read enough to play his video games. He is holding his own so far at the Adult Basic Education classes. Once he gets his TABE (Test of Adult Basic Education) score up to an over all 9th grade level he can begin GED classes. It is still a very painfully slow process. I still get frustrated. But I have had to surrender everything I thought would happen for my child.
I taught myself to read at a young age. I loved to read. I love books. Jacob was a bit older but he taught himself to read. Caleb can read but he reads slowly and not for pleasure. I figure he will end up in a remedial class if he goes to the public school. Joshua is only a year ahead of Hannah but is making steady progress now. Hannah well I'm not sure if she teaching herself or what I'm doing is actually working for once.
Every early reader story used to break my heart and fill me with guilt. What am I doing wrong? Have I ruined my children for life?, etc. And if I read one more article or had one more mom tell me that early readers are born to moms who spend time reading to their children I was going to strangle someone. I've read to each and everyone of them since before they were born. I would read until my throat was scratchy and raw. I provided a stimulating learning environment. We had years with no TV, video, or electronics games. And we have had years with them. I tried all the wonderful this will work programs. I've been free flowing and relaxed. I've been highly structured. And in the end my children are who they are, they are as God made them.
The road of the struggling learner and therefore their parent is long. The road is lonely. No matter how many other on the road everyone's place is unique and it seems that you are on it alone. And the hardest part is that there are no guarantees that if you just do X, if you just use Y that things will suddenly and magically be okay. That depending on the challenge extra work or special programs may catch them up and move them forward but the reality is that some of them will never reach what our peers would view as "normal". It hurts so bad that my son who is bright and intelligent will always have to struggle for his place in this world. Or worse still is that even if others don't care he cares. He compares himself. He feels less.
So prayers and hugs. No easy answers. No,do this and it will all be magically wonderful. Because from the perspective of being down the road and looking back the road was rocky, full of pot holes, and periods of dense fog. I'm glad that I homeschooled. I'm glad I was able to walk down that path with my son together. I'm glad that I got him to the point where he is able to move on to the adult education program. But I can't say that I got to the end of the road and walked out into a beautiful sunlit field of wild flowers or that I came out to the interstate smooth and ready for forward movement at great speeds. I came down the rocky road to head up the next bumpy road. I can't see yet if this will lead to a better, smoother road or not. And that of everything is the hardest thing for me as mom. I don't feel I failed but I wish with all my heart that what I did had changed him. But it didn't and that's what I laid down. That is the child God made. He is just the way God wants him to be. And ultimately he is in God's hands.
So that's it my heart and my thoughts raw and emotional. Use what you can. |
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• Mar. 25, 2008 - Beinging good stewards not just of money but of others talents as well.
This is the time of year when you begin to hear the sound of curriculum shopping. New catalogs are coming out. Homeschool convention session is soon to begin. On many loops you begin to hear money saving suggestions. These include you don't have to purchase from a company just pick up their catalog and use it a book list. Buy just the guide and use the library. If the book is consumable just make copies and then you can resell the book later. I got these neat freebie from such and such a company I'll send you the PDF file so you don't have to go get it yourself, etc.
And while I understand that at times we have no choice. We must do all we can to school at no or low cost or not be able to homeschool at all. But I have just a few thoughts gathered over a long time of homeschooling and seeing these things played out in real life.
Most companies that offer a packaged curriculum or books with guide are for the most part not making money on the sale of the guide. The profit comes from the sale of the books that are supported by the guide. Some have raised the price of their guides when not included with a package to minimize their loss. Now the thing is if a company can not make a profit they will go out of business and then there is nothing for anyone to use. I have seen other companies fold for just this reason.
Also along these lines are sharing of files received from free from a company's website. Freebies are often given to generate interest in a product or to get people to look over their site. When you share the file by passing the company you may be costing them a future sale or at the very least a contact. It seems like such a small thing and it was free anyway so what is the harm. The harm again is that the company could go under and now no one can benefit from it.
Another way to hurt your favorite company is using a book intended to be consumable in such a way that you get the benefit of the product and then resale it. For bigger companies it may not hurt as much but for a small home based homeschool supplier this can be the very death of the company. I have seen this happen over the years. It is so sad to go back to buy additional product and find out that company is out of business.
My final pet peeve is those who go to a convention and take a fair amount of time talking to a homeschool retailer, picking their brains, getting ideas and suggestions etc. And then for that same person to walk away and go over to a discount stand and make the purchase. While I have no problem with someone knowing what they want and taking advantage of a discount seller its just wrong to use someones time and not reward them with the sale. Its one thing if you decide a product won't work and decide not to purchase after spending time but to decide yes and purchase elsewhere is just not fair. Vendors pay a lot to be at most curriculum fairs or conventions. For larger conventions they may have to have paid help in the booth, etc. You usually don't get much service at a discount vendor which is why they can afford to sell at less. They may sell in higher volume as well.
So if you can afford it purchase a whole package or at least as much from the company as possible. If you have found a great freebie send a link to the original website so that others can pick it up for themselves while visiting the site. If its consumable then consume it and replace for the next child. If its reproducible for your family then reproduce it for all but the last one and then let them consume it. And if you take a vendors time at a convention and decide to make the purchase pay the extra bit more to cover the service you receive. If we all do this as much as we are able it makes it more likely that our favorite vendors will be around for years to come.
Climbing off my soap box now. |
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• Jan. 16, 2008 - Homeschooling Changes and How They Impact Me
There has been a lot of discussion lately about homeschooling and how it has changed over the years. Because of the age span between my children I have been homeschool since 1992. Not quite long enough to be a pre-law pioneer but almost. Further my youngest is only 6 so I have quite a few more years before I can hang up my homeschool hat. So it got me to reflect a bit on homeschooling over the years and I thought I would share a few thoughts that crossed my mind.
I'm on the board of our local support group and it was my month to do the newsletter greeting. I already had an outline before our board meeting Monday and it seemed that some of the discussion we had at the meeting was really in line with what my outline was so I fleshed it out and submitted it this morning.
So I decided to share it here as well. I'm also curious to see if other homeschoolers in other areas see or feel a similar thing. The whole discussion got started because 1 our group started in 1990 with 8 families grew to a high in 2003 of 165 families with a slow but steady drop to 91 familes this year. But what we have noticed was in the past at our quarterly parents meetings, monthly mom meetings, field trips, ect there has been a stead drop in the percentage of members participating. When we had 50 members our Christmas Tea in December had over 80 attendees with about 80% of the membership plus guests. This year 91 families we had 50 people at the tea with 32 being members which means only about 33%o of the membership. And this same percentage numbers are playing out across the board. Plus a lot less "grassroot" activities even being planned. For example no one has planned a spelling bee, geography bee, international night, craft day, recognition night for the last few years.
We talked about a lot of factors being the cause from people can connect and stay informed via the internet, less disposable income, more working moms, more variety in homeschoolers in lots of different areas, gas costing $3 plus a gallon in an area where everything is usually 10-30 miles from where you are. Our county is bigger than the state of Delaware. We started noticing the decline after our 2004 hurricane seasons that just left a lot of people weary so for the first few years year post Charlie/Francis/Jeanne we attributed lack of interest on people still in recovery. But now just not so sure if that's even a factor. Or maybe people pulled away to recover and realized they just didn't miss it so they never really plugged back in. Anyway all that to say here's my article and I'd love to hear some feedback.
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There has been a lot of discussion lately about homeschooling and how it has changed over the years. Because of the age span between my children I have been homeschool since 1992. Not quite long enough to be a pre-law pioneer but almost. Further my youngest is only 6 so I have quite a few more years before I can hang up my homeschool hat. So it got me to reflect a bit on homeschooling over the years and I thought I would share a few thoughts that crossed my mind.
When I started homeschooling I was one of the few that I knew that did homeschool for religious reasons. We started because of behavior problems. While now there seem to be as many reasons as why someone starts homeschooling are much more varied. There has always been a variety of ways to homeschool and materials to use but these increases every year. Homeschooling seemed to be more small grassroots and now has a more big business feel. There is a whole lot more information and technology at our fingertips then even 10 years ago. With this increase in technology and internet use has come new and different ways to connect with other people. It’s pretty awesome to thing about the fact that you can interact with homeschoolers across the state, country, or even world. The flipside of this is a less urgent need to connect with people in our own backyard. There seems to be more people shopping for what the need instead of investing with what they have to give. More consumerism less heart in both vendors and homeschoolers.
So is all this bad; not necessarily. Change happens. Some of it is wonderful, some a little bit sad for those of us who have seen it happen. But I think the single most important thing those of us who have been around long enough would want to pass on to those who are newer is don’t take any of it for granite. Remember that 20 years ago there was no law; 10 years ago you tried to avoid going out during the day because of questions, 5 years ago many places did not offer so many activities geared just for homeschoolers. No matter how you stay connected – stay connected and informed. Invest a bit now to have from having to work really hard later.
In conclusion the best advice I have for all homeschoolers no matter how long you’ve homeschooled, what curriculum you use, your religious affiliation or lack there of, your location, your political leanings what we all hold in common is our love for our children and the desire to provide the best for them. All homeschoolers must feel that homeschooling is what is best for our families or we wouldn’t be doing it. So don’t let difference cause us to be so fractured as a group that we loose sight of the fact that to protect our rights as homeschoolers we must stay united on homeschooling.
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• Jul. 31, 2007 - In Loving Memory
I'm not sure why but for some reason this year I seem to be more teary eyed when I think about our Samuel. He was a stillbirth 7 years ago today. I already stopped by the cemetery this morning.
I think its helpful also to reflect on all the blessing we received as well. Our homeschool friends and church family really rallied around us. Our church family paid all of Samuel funeral expenses and gave us a check with which we bought his headstone. Samuel is buried in the baby section so I always try to remember those other families as well when ever I stop by. Its always so sad to see a new marker in place. But we are not without hope. I know at Samuel's funeral people asked how could we endure losing our child. How could we be at peace? It was only by God's grace and the hope we have in Him. We had friends deliver meals and spend the day at our house so that I would rest and recover. There were women who came to me and our pastor after the funeral who said that they we able to say good bye to their own little ones since they had never been given a chance to do so before. I'm so thankful for the thoughtfulness of the hospital where Samuel was delivered. They gave us time to hold him and then after we handed Samuel back they cleaned him up, got him dressed, and took a whole roll of film. When we left the next day we were given a box which contained a lock of his hair, hand and foot prints, hospital braclet, the pictures, and the clothes used in the pictures. Also we were given a giant teddy bear so that I didn't need to leave empty handed.
We were also blessed in the weeks following with my inlaws coming over and helping to install a butterfuly garden out front and my prayer group gave us a myrtle tree to plant. All of which still thrive today. It always amazing me to see the myrtle tree die back each year in the winter to burst forth each spring with new leaves. (not many plants do that in Florida). Also our myrtle seems to bloom just a bit latter than all the other ones near us so it is always in full bloom right around this time of the year. The garden has always been a special place.
Of course our greatest blessing was the healthy deliver of our daughter just over one year later. We had decided to be content with the our 4 healthy children. I was now high risk for lots of factors. Joshua had a knot in his cord. We had lost Samuel for the same reason. But God choose otherwise and we were so blessed when she arrived August 2, 2001. The blessing was magnified when it was discovered that she actually had multple knots in her cord as well. Of course she has kept us on our toes over the years but what a wonderful surprise gift from God.
Thank you for letting me ramble this morning. I feel much better already. And as my gang gets up its time for mom to get to work. |
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• Feb. 13, 2006 - Road blocks or Check points
The following is an article I submitted to our local homeschool support group newsletter. I really like the message of what I wrote so I decided to include it here as well.
Well I had in my mind what my greeting was going to be about all year but as I was getting ready to submit it I realized that wasn’t what I was supposed to write about so here is my newly written greeting. The topic is road blocks.
Recently I saw the movie and documentary about the life of Vivian Thomas and his work with Dr. Blalock. He was a young black man who saved 7 years to be able to attend college with the hope of becoming a doctor. Weeks before he was to start college the bank folded and so did his dreams. He was lucky to find any job so he took a job as a janitor in a medical research lab at Vanderbilt University. There he developed a relationship with the young Dr. Blalock. Later they went to work at John Hopkins University. With Mr. Thomas’s help Dr. Blalock performed the first heart surgery. Mr. Thomas went on to instruct upcoming doctors in surgical technique at a time when he could not even eat in the same dining hall with them. What was seen as a road block in his life resulted in millions of children being saved and advancing cardiac surgery. It also helped to open the door for many young doctors who came after him.
We all face what seem to be road blocks in our plans. They can be simple things like running late because we couldn’t find the keys or having to change our plans for the days because our keys got locked in the car. They can be bigger things like sickness or major family disruptions. We all like to have a plan, to know where we headed, or what’s coming next. Sometimes it’s really hard to lay down our plans and to not feel frustrated when things don’t come out the way we hoped. We might have an idea of what curriculum we will be using and suddenly it just isn’t meeting our family’s needs. Sometimes road blocks require some humble pie because we might have to do the thing we said we’d never do.
Sometimes we see the reason for the roadblock like passing an accident that we might have been involved in if we had left on time. Sometimes we don’t see it for years or maybe we might never understand why things didn’t go our way. I think we need to change our outlook. We need to view these interruptions in our plans more as checkpoints then road blocks. So the next time you face one of life’s check points you can stop, evaluate the situation, and follow God’s leading as you move forward again.
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